I saw one of my friends doing this. He had like 6 points only. It got me thinking. Is that all there that happened in his life for that one year?
Or is it just a highly abridged, censored version?
Whatever it is, 2013 just went by so fast, I cant rmb where 2013 started n 2012 ended.
And here I am sitting at the polyclinic regretting why I didn't get the stupid jab earlier before I hit 26. Its 120 a shot.
Maybe I should try to immortalize parts of 2013, some parts I wish never happened, some parts first times, some parts with lessons learnt that I hope that I will never forget
1) urinary tract infection. How many times? 3 times. 1x in 2012, 2x in 2013. I keep reminding myself to wash, and to wipe from front to back. And the implied death threat from upper tract n kidney infection? Lets not even go there about my 5 days of mc and missing the retreat. Just the thought of it gives me shivers.
2) going to korea with tong's parents, family n friends. After 2 weeks of crying on the subject. The late nights. The anxiety and fear. I dont think I need to say anymore. Im just glad that things seem more normal now.
3) bringing mum to mbs (todai), singapore flier and some random chinese restaurant style buffet from groupon. Its times like this that really remind me that although mum spends frivolously on strange but cheap items (tuppowear everywhere, hordes of newspaper n toilet paper) she has still lived a thrifty lifestyle and hasnt had any of these luxuries (eating at restaurants) in ages, so its nice if I can bring her out more often
4) grandma's stroke. I saw a completely different side of my dads family (which was already more close knit then my mum's) so many falling outs, so many hospital visits. So glad im at moe n so near to visit. But its so tiring to always have to be the pillar of support when the people around me (parents) break down. It scares me that people get lonelier when they get older, and the only people they have left to turn to is their own immediate family, and their siblings. Right now I have none. Will I lose it all and become the loneliest person of all in the future? Im scared.
5) trip to phuket 2013 - its been so long since the last time that I hung out with my fellow gapsters, that it just felt so weird. I didn't know what to talk about. No common topics. The ones I was closer to.. the only things we talked about was clubbing and drinking which was why I distanced myself from them, in the first place. I really felt the gap. Because I dont live that kind of lifestyle anymore. And how the common topic of those who didnt club was suanning and belittling. I need to reconsider this part of my life.
6) making new friends at work and new 'enemies'. I lost valerie, was annoyed with then became ok with cs, gained new friends j&k. And met a whole other group of clubbing fanatics that im trying to steer clear off, yet remain friends with. This chapter isnt closed yet so im just seeing how it goes.
7) getting my flat! I got my flat, need I say more? Now im worrying about floor space n where we r going to put the hordes of guests who have already been invited / self invited. Everyone seems even more excited then me. And im really excited that eunice has volunteered to help out. But its quite sobering. In 3 years. Who is going to be left in woodlands? Not me. Not dina who is moving to yishun. Jy wont be coming here, she is moving to boon lay. I dont understand why I feel this way. I must hav been out of my mind when I thought that I could move out, but come back and visit anytime and things would be the same, exactly the way it is, visiting nisha's house on Deepavali, and just walking to the back to dina's house, and us all travelling home together on the mrt train for 1 hr from orchard. I don't know.
8) my group of friends. Seems like almost everyone has graduated and is working, or working and pursuing further studies. Those who didnt, kind of got left behind. Not sure how it happened, but seems like we'vh grown apart. Yes you, its you im talking about. Maybe im just not as crazy as I used to be, or maybe you'vh grown to a whole new level of crazy. Maybe we just dont like the same things anymore. We used to have overlapping interests, but we gave up opposite ones and we don't have anything in common anymote. Maybe you just don't have time for me anymore. But whatever it is, hell, I do miss you. All of you.
I don't know. I feel like my life changed alot in 2013. Im really en route to becoming a "big person" ivh nvr been one of those ppl who couldnt wait to grow up. Ivh always wanted to be a child all my life. And suddenly bam im there. Knocking on my door. The next step. The next challenge.
Maybe ill look back on 2011/2012 another day such that you can see the stark the stark contrast.
Why do we have to grow old?
