Ivh been pondering about it for a while. It's not that my friends are weird. I just feel that something is weird because their thoughts and actions are inconsistent. Also because ivh always surrounded myself with people who ivh felt are more competent than me at life. Who seem to have it all figured out. I feel so confused when i see them fumbling along and asking questions that answers are plain to me to see. Could it be that you can know your friend even better than she even knows herself? Ivh never believed in that. Ivh always thought that you should know yourself better than anyone else possibly can. That's something my mum and my family doctors have always told me, And when i was young, i used to tell them i don't know. Ivh spent all my life. Puzzling over this. Trying to figure it out. Now that I'm older and I can see clearly now. I know who i am. I know what im here for. I know what will upset me and what wont. And how not to set myself up for suitations that will lead to upset. Because unless we change, history will always repeat itself. I thought everyone had moved along too. With university education. Into this plane of thought. That one should use logic and do forward planning and research to avoid disappointment.
But recently I realised that there's so many people around me who don't know themselves or what they want in life. And I feel confused by it. Like when did our disjoint happen? Did they change? Or have they been like this all along and it's me who changed? Did I grow up too fast?
I don't think i grew up too fast. Ivh always planned to have my life mapped by 30. I remember them saying 25 or 27. Maybe that why I'm confused.
So what then is it. Why do they seem so confused with life?
