Facts of life

some people just dont know how to be a friend
other people need to study
who? havent seen her. the only time we see her is when she is with him
she obviously doesnt care about us anymore
she could have brought them back to the room
but you had to study
so she didnt
you're not the only person in this room
why should i ever tell you anything if you never tell me anything?
We should have gone home yesterday
what about her feelings
she only sees him a few times a month
you keep flaunting him on your bed a few times a week
stop PDAing infront of her
if you are not shy i feel shy
dont you know that being overly affectionate infront of another
who misses her other half hurts
its very awkward if its not we
you will never understand
whats the point of looking forward to your return
if you come back to him
whats the point of us going out if you bring him and the rest of the world disappears
you might as well go out just the two of you
she's changed she's not the same before
she's given up arguing with the other
you're so stubborn!
when she talks to you she see the way you set your jaw
he always gives in to you but that doesnt mean that you can expect everyone else to do the same
we are people with feelings not your lapdog
when you get a new bf you dont need the other bf anymore
facts of life

Today was just nuts. Met kenneth at 9am. we mug until 7.30pm. OMG. i study somemore i will go MAD. seriously!
Duno why recently keep on buying LOKI comic books. Think addicted le. >_< sorry dina! i know i still owe you your fruits basket!
Friday me n kenneth went running. so sad! run a while then rain le! only did 6 rounds. sob. after tt we went CWP meet pa 4 dinner. Then i introduced my PA's to each other coz i met my other pa (sybestz) at e foodcourt. poor pa! sybestz didnt remember him at all!

Current Homework status:
Chem-next chapt transitional metals
Maths-tys qns for crv
phy-charged particles (havent start yet)

feel fast and yet i feel so slow. duno whats going on with me. whenever i just sit there feel unconfortable n start doing hw. duno if its a good thing or a bad thing. its like i cant spend any time just not doing anything. feel really wierd.

today im in e com lab.. so paisei just now. jy ask for my account coz she cant log in to hers. i told her tt my password is password. then e whole com lab ppl turn n stare at me. so paisei! >_<
really really wiped. cant figure out why. later still going running w kenneth. hmm..

i had a headache n so after school i was supposed 2 hang with kenneth but i went home straight instead. duno y at e end of e day i felt like i was suffocating n all that. i just couldnt bear it. rushed home 2 rest. ate alot of junk too. filled my stomach n felt better 4 a while. kenneth tt silly boy. he went a bought herbal tea deliver 2 my house. *touched* but i feel really bad 4 psing him.

read a new book 2 dae. wouldnt stop until it was over. read it. its called TEACH ME. and its painful and exactly what i need. coz its something like e whole horrible experience of having a bf tt i went through. although i never did go as far as e girl to give him sth. and i never went that crazy. but i did do crazy things and all e feelings portrayed in tt book are e same. guess ill need to read more of that kind of thing so that i can understand better? i need to sometime i guess. its hurting but healing at e same time.

This morning, pe i arranged to pon games n go running with kenneth. so strange. we run anticlockwise n it was kinda funny but interesting. it was weird lah coz everyone else was playing games n i was running around e track. kenneth go tired so easily. he lah. silly boy. down there 1st round anyhow play tired himself out. down there run around say want to leave me in e dust. i was just dying trying to make sure that he didnt run too fast n really leave me in e dust.

Had chem spa 2dae. kind of freaked out half way. i realised i screwed up my readings coz i stupidly poured away my water in e container after karimah did so too. argh! results so screwed. hopefully they dont mark on that but just e manupulation of e calcns. and i actually wrote 9 SOE & MOI! ^^

Had 1st combined JCS session with e JC1s. duno y my group was e only group with 2 JC2s n 4 JC1s. one was a retainee who did combined camp act with my claz last year so we kinda hit it off. haha. phew. the JC1s are quite nice. also not quiet, quite enthu. looks like there is hope 4 jcs after all. so sad tt gotta step down soon though. i wana do more 4 e cca! >_<

After school visited uncle desmond in hospital. so sad. its like e same scene all over again. some normal guy surrounded by a sea of old guys lying in hospital beds. dots. this time it was in SGH. think coz it was closer to his home? met denise & big jie jie & yeah yea, aunty dorris, small jie jie.. talked 2 denise. she is going lacaste or sth? hmmm. school of arts! so envious! coz she gets to do sth she enjoys! i still duno what to do with my life. whats shocking is taht she sounds exactly e same as last time. if i just shut my eyes n listen, i half expect to see her 6 years ago short hair n big eyes n all just rambling away happily to me.. has it been that long? whats funny is that ivh always thought that she was really pretty.. i duno what happened now.. she looks more normal.. think the plumness runs in e family or sth..

I had e worst cold in e whole wide world
so frustrating! cant breathe properly at all e whole day!
keep feeling light headed and everything.
brought 5 pkts of tissue n used nearly every single packet!
argh!

Go home grumpy grumpy n frustrated.
mum was nice.
feel like a little girl again.
maybe sometimes i should just slip back into that safe warm world where i clutch my tortoise to my chest and drift off into a dream..

Today..

i had physics spa.. cant say much.. just dont panic if you dont manage to get any results at all.. oh ya. a word of advice. beware of flying objects!

after school..

hang out n slack with kenneth 4 a bit. then i went home for dinner.

what an exciting life.

*bleah*

-- Sunday --
i need my sleeping days at home.
bleah.

--message 2 e world--

world,

please leave me alone on this day?

i need my rest..

--End--

Mugging session with Kenneth & Dina

2 dae 1st x asked dina along. so she came. and we studied. then i had to rush off for.. oh ya! CIP!
brisk walking 4 northwest cdc. i participated with BihQin

got problems along e way.

1) went to the wrong big tent. so confusing! got 2 big tents! then wandered around aimlessly until somebody finally redirected us elsewhere)

2) Rushed there. but nth much to do! met 2 new ppl n made 2 new friends. they quite nice. hmmm. assigned food distrubution job. but. the people. scary.. they rushed 4 e food like hungry,.. no.. STARVING BABARIANS. not people anymore when it concerns FREE FOOD. just anyhow push, pull, shove, scream.. ..... absolute nightmare...

learning point -- NEVER GOING TO PARTICIPATE IN FREE THINGS DISTRUBTION 4 CIP AGAIN. ESPECIALLY VALID FREE FOOD THINGS..

OH E HORROR...

Went Lib, deposit $$, meet dina & signed up for gituar lessons.
I feel like ivh just signed my life away in some horrible life binding contract or sth.
AHHHHH
i must be nuts.

19 / 4 - 2 Udon!

dae me, dina, jy went japanese restaurant 4 $5 udon! did maths tutorial!

17/ 04 - kenneth's birthday

Celebrated 4 him. Erm. lots of running around. and sneaking around. n missed calls. n getting spotted. and slightly smashed cake. n bubble tea. n singly bought sushi. n not enough sleep after all tt..

This is it. Im officially 18. Time to start sth new. turn over a new leaf? turn over new stones? haha. i duno. hmm. today i went to visit gor in e hospital. interesting exp. haha. happy things do happen! so happy 4 em! ^^ oh. ystd moi friends asked me out 2 celebrate b'day! so touched! but i think i scared them by crying at the end. sorry! i duno y.. i was touched/happy/sad/scared/frustrated/????? i duno. just so overwhelming i just.. just wana say thanks for being there n everything. and i love e present! (alth it is e same shirt.. but its e thought tt counts n its touching tt u guys went to such lengths to get it! But on e other hand its e most silly ironic story of all time. haha. )

~First blog of me being 18, over n out.