i had a headache n so after school i was supposed 2 hang with kenneth but i went home straight instead. duno y at e end of e day i felt like i was suffocating n all that. i just couldnt bear it. rushed home 2 rest. ate alot of junk too. filled my stomach n felt better 4 a while. kenneth tt silly boy. he went a bought herbal tea deliver 2 my house. *touched* but i feel really bad 4 psing him.

read a new book 2 dae. wouldnt stop until it was over. read it. its called TEACH ME. and its painful and exactly what i need. coz its something like e whole horrible experience of having a bf tt i went through. although i never did go as far as e girl to give him sth. and i never went that crazy. but i did do crazy things and all e feelings portrayed in tt book are e same. guess ill need to read more of that kind of thing so that i can understand better? i need to sometime i guess. its hurting but healing at e same time.