Today...

I had GP exam..

I did mad shopping for teachers day..

I got irritated by a person i never knew could irritate me. His behavior was just so.. reminiscent of another's tt he reminded me of tt person, irriated me with his behavior and irratated me with tt person also..

When you came in i brust into a smile. Quickly burried it. Silly me.

And i gave my teacher his present.. Scare me! WeiJie tease him say dun cry then he look like really going to cry! ahh! Oh! and during the session, teacher said tt im better then WeiJie! :P

I did sth quite silly. Haha. Now nisha, you'vh seen WeiJie. So that's what his name is. lol. Anyway, there's nothing scandalous going on. :p we both saw the girl he liked at mos. But damn! i feel so bad! he should have told me it was the girl he liked! then we would have made ourselves scarce! i feel so bad lahh!! >_< Tell her im your sister! then wont have misunderstanding le! Dont let this jepodise ur rs! fight fight fight! jiayo!! I wanted to wish you good luck, tell you tt if you like her go tell her.. But why didnt i say it?? argh! *self bish bish* Aneways, next time i should stand up for my view more and not be so wishy washy. Be firm girl! I hope miss yap likes her birthday gift. Happy be-early birthday miss yap! ^^

I tried playing at somebody i havent been in such a long time. I must say i flopped miserably.
It reminded me that... The most important thing is to be completely comfortable and at ease with each other and be able to talk about anything under the sun. I dont want to feel like im forcing myself to continuously come up with a conversation topic. I also dont want to have words drilled into my ear from your fear of silence. It is best when i feel like we can talk to each other forever and never run out of things to say. Its even better to have pieces of quiet where nobody has to say anything but im really comfortable. So most important would be the lack of language barrier and a motherload of common topics. It's in this aspect that alot of people have failed. And this failure is usually unapparent until the 2nd or 3rd time.

Words of divine consciousness; moral exaltation; lasting feelings of elevation, elation, joy; a wuickening of the moral sense, which strikes one as more important than intellectual understanding of things; an alignment of the universe along moral lines, not intellectual ones; a realisation tt the founding principle of existence is what we call love, which works itself out sometimes not clearly, not cleanly, not immediately, nontheless ineluctably.

What of God's silence?

An intellect confounded yet a trusting sense of presence and of ultimate purpose.

I can well imagine an atheist's last words: "White, white! L-L-Love! My God!"- and the deathbed leap of faith. Whereas the agnostic, if he stays true to his reasonable self, if he stays beholden to dry, yeasting factuality, might try to explain the warm light bathing him by saying, "Possibly a f-f-failing oxygenation of the b-b-brain" and, to the very end, lack imagination and miss the better story.

3 prothets were arguing over a boy who was practicing 3 religions.
The imarn said earnestly. "Hindus and Christians are idolators. They have many gods."
"and muslims have many wives," responded the pandit
The priest looked askance at both of them, "the is salvation only in Jesus."
"Balderish! Christians know nothing about religion" Said the pandit
"They strayed from god's path" said the imam
"where is god in your religion?" Smapped the preist. "You dont have a single miracle to show for it. What kind of religion is that, without miracles?"
"It isnt a curcus with dead people jumping out of tombs all the time, that's what! We muslims stick to the essential miracle of existence. Birds flying, rain falling, crops growing- These are miracles enough for us.
"feathers and rain are all very nice bue we like to know that god is truely wiht us:
"Is that so? well a whole lot of good it did god to be with you- You tried to kill him! YOu banged him to a cross with great big nails. Is that a civilised way to treat a prophet? The prophet Muhammad-peace be upon him brought us the word 0of god without any undignified nonsence and died at a ripe old age"
"The word of God? To that illiterate merchant of yous in the middle of the desert? Those were drooling epileptic fits brought on by the swaying of this camel, not divine revelation. That or the sun frying his brains!
If the Prophet-p.b.u.h-were alive, he would have choice words for you! replied the imam with narrowed eyes
Well, he's not! christ is alive, while your old 'p.b.u.h' is dead, dead, dead!
The pandit interrrupted them quietly. In Tamil he said. "The real question is, why is Piscine dallying with these foreign religions?
......

"Bapu gandhi said" all religions are true" I just want to love god" The boy blurted out.

Amusing. Y'ann Martel weaves magic. Pure, undistilled magic.

You may fancy these words as my own. Sincerest apologies for the unintended deception.

Watched 1 hr photo last night. Poor guy. Poor poor guy... haiz.. Who is he? why didnt they cover his history at all?

ivh got so many things to say..

i...

wana apologise for words that ran out of my mouth without beibg first filtered by my head.
many appologies.

remember how you got memories of the two of us mixed up just because we look about the same. That hurts whenever you say tt she did this n she did tt but it was acutally I who did it and vice-versa.

If the rumours are true, please dont mix her n her up also. I know that they really look quite the same. I cant think of anything that will hurt her more than this.

understand now why some ppl dont want their other's SS along during down time. it just wont be the same anymore

dreamt of NS. Not National service but sth else. And i also dreamt tt i met them. Ruffled their hair and made them call me Kim Jie Jie. 2 little brothers. Gripping their mecha toy in one hand and staring amsingly at me, tongue in cheek, thumb in mouth. Adorable. Is it true? Then id know that i truely wasnt alone. Even if we are only half- it's better than bearing it all by yourself. But would they accept me? Dare i ask?

feel like smacking myself. It's like one of those "what the hell am i doing? I feel damn bad lah" Then i realised.. it's actually doing you some good. You're growing up. Do me proud. :)

reminicise how wonderful the begining of last year was when it was smiply crazy coz all r Riversidians would just hang out at CWP and we didnt care which class or which clique u belonged to.

wonder if in the future IJC classes would be like tt but it seems highly unlikly coz of all thre interclass politics

marvel at how much this world has and still will change.

Finally, i..
proclaim tt I LOVE MY CLASS! 05S45 rocks! the "class outing" on friday was so nice! after dinner we just sat and chatted. Cozy. warm. blissful memory..

Good luck to everyone for GP prelims!

OMG IM SO HAPPY!

guess what? i rushed home today coz i have GP compo to e mail to my teacher by 5pm today. Then when i checked my email, i found out tt i won!! yeah!! *jumps for joy* i won an autographed CD by keane! YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH!! if not 4 my gp teacher, i wouldnt have checked then i wouldn't have known! omg! thank you thank you thank you!!! *SOB*

E class i getting addicted to MAOWs! ^^ haha! now i say got ppl saying along with me! deep ystd said tt she see gary on tv then think of me. N she also said tt she doesnt know why but she likes it when i say it! lol. come on everybody, 1, 2, 3! MAOW....

Today ShiNing came back! to Visit! KEWLL!! she's not fat at all lah! i think she grew thinner! She rebonded her hair too and she's really fair now! but it seems as if she got too used to the climate in canada. She kept on sweating here in Sg. =(

Her return reminded me of 1st 3 months n why i really loved it here in IJC back then. It was so cozy and warm like a huge big family. Best of all there were no snobs. ahh. the good old days. Then this silly song

I'm a model you know what I meanAnd I do my little turn on the catwalkYeah on the catwalk on the catwalk yeahI do my little turn on the catwalk. I'm too sexy for my love too sexy for my loveLove's going to leave meI'm too sexy for my shirt too sexy for my shirt So sexy it hurts My shirts gonna leave me

Then i thought of campfire night with the "hot guys" sent outside 4 manhunt n then they walk back in shirtless n do "interesting poses" so tt we could see who had the most armpit hair and clap accordingly! So hilarious! i still remember the "cutest" guy, had no hair at all! then when they sent him off the stage he looked kind of hurt until his friend told him what they were judging by. God, was he glad then! :p

1 day but so many things! ahh!

Im the class Snail?? O_O

-spoilt bread, childish kid, ElaineMa, KariMa, Cookie, Maow
It's Just Cool.

*thinks* *laughs* *walks away*

.....

oh no! im going to be late 2 meet Eu, Na & Sha! AHHHHH!!

You came back!

You crazy funny thing. half of the time i duno whether to laugh like crazy or stangle you! You want his no ask lah. dun give the excuse tt i want his no and tt i wana date him. :P
So embarassing! i think i went red! my ears suddenly felt very warm! yuan wang!!

It's strange to know that we have the brother of someone from "xiaoyuan superstar" in our claz. I was so NOT eyeing him! :p he's quite cute lah. But he seems so young! Either j1 or Sec3! O_O
"Wo yue kan yue shou." still say! then make me think that the more i look at him the more "cooked" he looks! Funny!
"Jie Di lian" hah! I dont mind but not more then 2 years younger! :p

So i see. We live on opposite sides of woodlands! ^^

I never realised that you were so tall! i stand behind you your shoulders were at my eye level! O_O But ur voice was really very soft leh.

Must you go?

And i still dont know your name! argh!

Oh ya! my $30 leh? forgot to say tt i charge interest!

I'vh got 5 million things to say. But im not good at saying it in chinese coz im really out of practice. So sometimes i just throw my arms up in the air, shrug and smile.

~Maow

It appears that my entry last week has sparked off some comments.
What can i say? It was just another of those hopeless "nothing's going right!" days.
Eunice says tt it seems as if i need someone. haha.
Nope nope. i dont!
I just want tt person to be happy.
Independence rocks right dina? =D

Jiayo xiaoMei! go go go! *waves pompoms in e air* "ah... young love..." *said in a sagely manner, whilst stroking a non-existant beard*

Beginings are always easy. Its keeping the standard up thats hard. Now whenever i dont practice it really shows. Seeing Cher's disappointed look makes me feel so bad! Telling myself im going to practice doubly, no triply hard! ahhh! chiong!!!

The funny thing about guys are the silly things they do or say just to make you laugh or smile. *warm fuzzy feeling* Awwww.. *pinch cheek* Its sweet. Really. Thank you. :)

Sha, Eunice, Dina, STOP CALLING HIM TT! HE IS NOT MY DEAR! ARGH! Id throw him into the Singapore river if he dares to try anything tt will lead to tt! :p

Went for drums concert sat! it was kewl! ^^ and had prata after tt! nice but ex. Then the grand rush 4 e LAST TRAIN. We made it! we got on EXACTLY e last train! =D

Scandal & Good Vibration sounds so good! ^^ *SOB* -state of bliss- (KaTana's voice is so nice!!!)

Good luck 2 everyone 4 BioChem test tmr!

BihQing, happy be-early birthday! I know its tmr!

Still lotsa sms left over 4m old bill! now u guys know the reason behind all e forwarded smses? *guilty look* haha!

Maow, Chi, MOOooooo...

i'm not alone
I wish i was
Coz then id know i was down because
i couldnt find a friend around
To love me like they do right now
They do right now

Im dizzy from the shopping mall
I searched for joy but i bought it all
it doesnt help the hunger pain
And a thirst id have to drown first to
ever satiate

Something's missing
And i dont know how to fix it
Something's missing
And i dont know what it is
And i dont know what it is
at all..

When autumn comes
It doesnt ask
It just walks in where it left you last
You never know when it starts
Until there's fog inside the glass around
your summer heart

Something's missing
And i dont know how to fix it
Something's missing
And i dont know what it is at all

I can't be sure that this state of mind
is not of my own design
I wish there was an over-the-counter test
For loneliness like this

Something's missing
And i dont know how to fix it
Something's missing
And i dont know what is is
No i dont know what it is
Something's different
And i dont know what it is
No i dont know what it is

Friends
(Check)
Money
(Check)
A well slept opposite sex
Guitar
(Check)
Microphone
(check)
Messages waiting on me when
i come home

Ivh got everything i think i need
But there's this constant battling inside
What do you think it means?


I spend all this time wandering around
Hunting for the meerest hint of your continued existance
Fools fall easily to the most obvious folly
I wish nothing but the best for you.
But with no medium to carry my wishes to you.
I too am fool
News of you worries me greatly
Be happy! PLease be happy!
John Mayer is a genius..
I couldnt have expressed this any better without borrowed use of his words
Move on. Hearing from you weekends bring me bliss but its just a broken promise.

Happy Birthday SINGAPORE!

It's national day today! "rotting" at home today coz i got alot of hw to complete. haiz.

Yesterday i went to see fireworks at esplanade! It was soo kewl!! but so crowded!

I met so many people! I met Elaine, Hongjin (05s45) and my primary school friend vanessa at e mrt station!Then i met Ah leong at esplanade itself after e fireworks! nice!

And we had the "eat noodles while squatting beside the Singapore river" experience!

I also got my new 'key chain'! ^^

*StateOfBliss*

84 more days to A levels!
*scared*

Now its D8! ^^
Damn Disgusting Devilish Dina Delightledly Deals Disdainful Death

I miss you i miss you i miss you!!!

I DONATED BLOOD TODAY!

It was soo kewl! at first it was scary, then it was interesting, then it was warm cold hard to breathe, i broke out in cold sweat, roaring in my ears, too bright then i "fainted" for the 1st time in my life! ahhh!! so kewl!!

Actually i was quite shocked tt i "fainted" Coz i didnt feel dizzy at all! until i donated finish (very kewl to see the bag filling up) then the person detach the thing 4m my arm then she said tt id better lie back, then i wondered why it was so hard to keep the world in focus. It just seemed so.. bright... It was scary 4 a bit.. Got kind of hard to breath.. I could hear the sea roaring in my ears! I kept telling myself to breath.. Coz I know silly me will forget to breath in sometimes.. haha..

Dun need to worry about me! i Si bu liao one! after 4 drinks, i was right as rain again! ^^

Thanks 4 waiting 4 me! And being there 4 me and everything!

We took pictures with the droplet of blood!

I love new experiences! ^^

Claz outing go donate blood anyone?

The ache is kinda tiresome. My heart? NO! tt doesnt ache at all . lol. It'd be absurd to think of it! perposterous! lol! Just my arm aches. lol. i can stil type (though slowly) hopefully i still can write. heh. =D