Ghost bug?

There's this bug in my sink. It's kind of pathetic. Feel sorry for it though. Tried to rescue it with a bit of tissue paper but i think i scared it then it stopped moving. So i gave up. I think it fell in but it couldnt climb out coz the sides are too slippery and so it just goes round and round and round while waiting for it's wings to dry. Once or twice it disappeared down the drainage then i thought "aww so poor thing it drowned" but it reappeared. Then i just saw it again! turns out tt mum didnt see it though. i rubbed my eyes then it was gone! now im wondering if im hallucinating or is it the ghost of the bug haunting me 4 not bothering to rescue it e other night. sheesh.

Wierd dreams yet again. This time there was alot of blood! So wierd. Things kept on getting killed, people getting run over, accidents happening, breakdowns, and people carried on like them happening so often was part of everyday life! the most sickening part was when i was on the bus and the bus went over two people who just had to be sitting in the middle of the road. I got off the bus, ran and didnt want to look back at the red seeping out onto the road. Or when i ran under the HDB flat and someone threw a flower pot down. Or the cat that attached itself to me and tried to claw me to death. And in my dream i pulled it off and had to hammer it unconscious. I feel so bad. In the dream i was nonchalant. Either him or me. Or the person throwing himself off the top of the multistorey carpark. Or the car in the carpark that broke down. It's gas leaked everywhere. I dont know. It's just so macabare and sinister. The next thing you'd know there'd be gremlims running around every where shrieking terribly. I woke up shaking terribly. Perhaps it was over studying for maths. Perhaps it was beacause i missed someone. Or perhaps it was withdraw symptoms coz i forgot to take my medication. again. Now see what happens when you dont complete your dosage of antibiotics?

I still wana watch "red tape"

Your eyes have a story that they wish to tell
But I have my whole life and ill listen well
Look ill be your confidant, tell me anything
But please start it off with how you tuck your wings..
There's nothing else that i have seen
There's no getting around it or inbetween
You're out of this world except tt you're not green
You dont know just what you mean to me..
But then again, im not sure what you mean to me myself too.
You confuse me do you know what?

Restating Self resolution! i must keep my promise! I gotta make it till the end of this year! till after a levels!

Your words are like the sweetest music to my weary ears. Im sick and tired of your melodramatics.

Personal statement: I dont make promises that i cant keep
Re-draft: I dont make promises because im bad at keeping them.

Girls saying "Ultiamtum's the way"
But you'd probably take that just wrong
Now i gotta decide
if im to help change your mind
Seems like the ultimatium's on me
that's no fun
I was just walking that day aimlessly

What's Ultimatium? ~just some song running through my mind..