thank you everyone for your encouragement and support
it means alot to me

why cant you leave me alone

why cant you shut the fuck up

why do you always want to have the last say in everything

why must you be such a bitch

why cant you leave me alone when i need my space

i hate you

why should i even bother trying to make you better

you are a horrible person and i really hate you

you are selfish and terrible and always want to win

you only buy things that you like in pretense that its for me and that i like it

you only do good things for me because you want to appear like a good person to those "spy cameras"

stop controlling my life

stop trying to control me

so much for being 21

you dont even understand me or respct me as a person

you should be able to understand that by now i can do my own things without you needing to give me advice

what the fuck are you trying to do

when you have never involved yourself in any of my affairs for the last 10 years and now you are suddenly trying to give me advice

who the fuck are you do tell me what to do when you were physically here but you never involved yourself in my life

you never celebrated any of my birthdays

you never gave me angbow

you never attended any of my award ceremonies

you never asked me or wanted to

you never bought for me anything. the last thing you bought for me was back in primary school when u got the mac donalds duck for me

you arent even interested in getting to know my friends-you only care about who is a prefect or who has perfect grades and you look down on people who are worse off then me

you have horrible moral values

you swear vulgarities when the neighbour walks by

you behave disgracefully in public

you show no respect for the dead

you are racist

all my life ivh told myself its because our family situation isnt good thats why you never do anything for me

now im starting to believe that its just who you are and that all my life im nothing more then a toy to you

to be tormented and disturbed by you for your personal pleasure

i really hate you

someone please get me out of here

please save me

help me

michael jackson is dead

i heard the news with a mixture of disbelief and an indescribable emotion

the tall figure that i stared at in a movie in my youth with awe

the first guy i thought to be "really cool"

the person i became scared of and was really horrified when i heard of his "child mostelations" and phedophillic nature

i dont know.

kim is confused about her feelings

is this real?

its ok to break up

it's not like you are married or not

because thats what dating is all about

its finding out whether you are right for each other

children find it hardest to confide in their parents

because they dont want to disappoint them

sometimes red thread is really enlightening

Patience and tolerance!

please be a part of my life when im at home!

please!

went skating w jy on tuesday! fun! but~~ read her blog for details XD

went for catus performance!! XD catus is soooo good XD

went to fetch shunfa from airport

sotong thanks for accompanying me!

catus thanks for not working and giving up ur free day to sotong!

SHUNFA WELCOME BACK! if i get H1N1 doctor's bill goes to u ok? ^^

today my uncle and aunt came down to visit

i am grateful for their presence

but when even they told me that they dont know what to do

something inside of me broke

my mum is the bitch who turns both the tv and the radio so damn loud i can hear it from the lift even before i open our front door (which is closed) and she is the one who keeps it blasting till late at night when she finally goes to sleep like 2am in the morning

my mum is the bitch who needs 2 alarm clocks to wake her up in the morning

i am the one who gets a headache from all of the simultaneous uncoordinated noise blasting in my ear even though im in my room and the tv is in the living room and the radio is in the kitchen

and i am the one who cant sleep at night when she leaves her damned alarm clocks in my room because of the loud ticking sound

who is she to tell me to shut up just because i am brushing my teeth late at 2.15am and trying to blow my nose

who are you to tell me that it is late and that im a nuisence when so many nights you sleep later then me and i have to shout at you to turn down the tv and the radio so many bloody times before its finally at an acceptable volume

i just so sick of you and your radio everyday everynight

alpha dogs!!

good read!!

http://www.dogbreedinfo.com/articles/alphadogbootcamp.htm

Today i worked at the pet shop, and there was NO LIANN! XD

i dont know if its a good thing or a bad thing but she's so lazy her absence just makes me do 5% more things!

and i ended work at 7.30pm today! yay!

I dont know why but im starting to dislike you

I dislike your complacency, dislike how you take everything forgranted, dislike how you are never contented with your life even though as compared to the rest of us you are the most well off, dislike how you place so much emphasis on your looks and you dont really put in that much or even half that amount of effort into maintaing relationship with your friends like bothering to contact us, or even reply our communication with us, i dislike how we always have to iniciate things with you, how you will never take the iniciative to do anything, how anything you do is always messed up. In short, i dislike how you place more effort into how you look then how you handle your relationships with other people, with the exception of somebody called your boyfriend

I couldnt help but wonder why i started to feel such a strong dislike towards you, and then this sleepless night it suddenly dawned on me and i realised its because you are becoming one of them

A typical NUS bimbo

with the eyeliner, mascara, foundation and pretty clothes and all including the lackluster personality

Sometimes you make me wonder, is personality or looks more important to maintaining friendships? If personality is more important, then why is it so that all you need is looks for everyone to fawn over you

http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2008/12/081223091318.htm

pets good for depression!

http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2008/09/080908135916.htm

dogs and cats can live together!

Today i was at the woodlands polyclinic collecting my medical report!

they told me i need to get HEP A and HEP B jab.. T_T

so i took the combined jab

~$250 fly away~

den when the nurse preparing i really started to freak out.. stood up and walked around the room.. so scared i was going to hyperventiate! didnt know which was scarier! the injection or potential hyperventilaton!

den the nurse called in the nurse in the opposite room to come hold me.. (i felt like a mental patient at that comment) den she tell me its like for moral support.. so i grasp the nurse arm and very scared! T_T

den!!! den!!! i wanted to see the needle but she dun let me see.. den i look away.. den scared!! T_T

den!! i think!! of!!

CHOW CHOW!!!!!!

that day chow chow got her injection.. she like no kick like that! inject le never cry never say anything never bark never whine!

after tt still jump off the table and run around with the other dogs, tail still wagging like so happy like that! den still can jump like so hyper and smash through the playpen until we give up and let her run around the shop!

so i told myself! must learn from chow chow! must be brave!

den the needle went in and i grip the nurse arm very very tightly.. T_T painful..

the nurse tell me old le must be brave.. T_T feel so childish.. but.. STILL SCARED OF NEEDLE COZ MY FRIST INJECTION IN PRIMARY SCHOOL! I TOT NOT PAIN! DEN I GO HOME! CANNOT MOVE ARM FOR 3 DAYS I GOT MC TO NOT GO SCHOOL!

i still can remember the painful hours i spent trying to write and catch up on my hw w my stupid useless right hand T_T

Today was fun! 

JCS "camp" den dinner den supper n mf n dina's new haircut!!

mf n dina's haircut looks nice! dina one super nice i wish she will dress up like punk and spike her hair i really will run after her and scream shuai ge!!! *-*  mf... BRINJAL LET UR HAIR DOWN SO WE CAN SEE CAN ANOT T-T CANNOT REALLY SEE HOW NICE IT IS T-T

kim's philosophy!

its not ok to talk behind people's back if you are their best friends (when it comes to best friends i dont talk behind their back.. everything i tell other people about them is general truth to us even the person being talked about knows coz i always tell them about it before we start talking about it and i do talk about this infront of them XD)

if they are your enemy, who cares!! (or if you dont like them)

everyone has flaws, its normal to talk about them (provided you are not backstabbing or falsifying facts)

coz talking about them is good coz it helps me to think about whether i have those flaws and try to become a better person XD

Its amazing how a month in Woodlands can give me more fun more excitement more suppers more memories and more PICTURES then 2 years in NUS

Woodlands rocks ^^ NUS pales in comparisom because we have already done everything they say is fun to do there. 

-supper

-cycling

-stay out late

-stayovers

-baking

-cooking at each other's place

-aimlessly wandering

-frequent running

-NON STOP birthday celebrations

-past midnight events

-playing board games past wee hours

-SHOPPING

-etc

I -heart- woodlands!

if only biz faculity was 3 mins away from my door id choose to stay at home every day of the week XD

happy early birthday andrew, desmond

happy belated birthday meifeng, gina, yihao

She started again =.=  i really hate her

dont do funny funny thing at home i cannot see other people can see

BITCH HELLO WHAT KIND OF DAMNED FUNNY THING CAN I DO AT HOME WHO DO YOU THINK I AM YOU DONT TRUST YOUR OWN DAUGHTER AND ANYHOW THINK SHE DO WHAT KIND OF SHAMELESS GOD DAMNED THING AT HOME

can someone please tape her mouth up i dont want to talk to her

I think its amazing

the impact of having people over can have on my mum

she acted like a normal human being 

and today she opened the doors and windows for ventilation like an ordinary person

wow

maybe i should invite people more often...

thanks jy n dina ^^