coz i can see

the pain in your eyes

your body stiff with tension

but i want to hear

the joy in your noise

that i yearn to listen to

the rustling sounds of hay in your cage

the chewing of a happy mouth

little light steps

you prance in the twilight

and wee hours of the morn

don't leave me

don't leave me

please don't leave me

we said 12 years

no less perhaps more

ill put in effort

and make this work

dont leave me dont

but i still can see

the pain in your eyes

your body stiff with tension

but i still want to hear

the joy in your noise

the light in your eyes as they glisten

stay by my side

close your eyes

as i caress ur face

oh how i wish

i wish that

this will not and never be the last time

instead it is

the first of many

many more times to come

good years to come

of fun, laughter and joy

and for eternity

coz i can see

the pain in your eyes

your body still stiff with tension

but i still want to hear

the joy in your noise

that i so yearn to listen

so stop this pain

ease my ache

only you can make it

go..

away..

please get well soon

ray ray please be alright

today was fun! :)

i met up with long time no see denis, freddy, jackson and esmond's 5 friends! :D (whom i have never seen before!!!)

we ate O carol's for lunch, sang K and went to wala wala for dinner :D

pa it was a pleasnt surprise to have u there! :D

yihao, shunfa, thanks for going :D

tong, thanks for being there :D

I really hate haters (as in people who diss other people without understanding the full story)

and the people who arent open minded as well (ok people who dont bother to take time to understand things from other people's perspectives [im trying to understand, but sometimes nobody explains to me!] )

and people who judge other people prematurely and shoot them down before giving them any chance to prove themselves to others

and people who always want to play it safe, never want to take risks, never make effort to go outside of their comfort zone, who never make the effort to talk to new people, to experience new things, to change, develop, adapt and move with times.

I really dislike people who never make any effort to try first. They just keep asking "how? How? How?" and they stand there and stare at you and expect you to give them specific instructions. Where is the initiative man!!! must i do everything for you, plan out every single aspect of our day? Cant you plan something and make affirmative decisions for a change?

wait.

there's a similarity between all things which i dislike about people

I really hate this about people, but sometimes i find myself doing some of it subconsciously.

does that make me a hypocrite?

when...

for the sake of being by the side of the person you like
there's No other way
then to work hard!

I think that's really true

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do you really want to hurt me

do you really want to

really want to hurt me

cut my heart out and stick it on a skewer

and barbecue it in the moon light

because you and me my sweet

were close enough that your words cut so deep

coz closeness binds, my tender heart to your words teeth

haunt me in my slumber

haunt me in my sleep

my pathetic attempt at song writing.. ugh.. where did the golden touch go?

ivh always believed in treat others how you want to be treated yourself.

so ivh always treated people as my true friends, as how i want them to treat me too

True friends are friends whom you can always count on to

1. Always tell you the truth, no matter what. be it about yourself, be it about other people. be it whether its flattering, or whether its hurting. true friends do not lie to each other. You can always ask each other about anything under the sun. and they will just tell you. Their words are not laced with double meaning. you do not have to read between the lines. There is no point in mis-interpreting, because everything as just as it is.
2. Always be there for you when you need them. Im not saying that you have godly sensing powers. but if you tell them that you need them, they will be there for you. this means that true friends tell each other about issues, take their own initiative, because no one is god who can predict when exactly good/bad stuff just happened to you, and ask you to spill. true friends have no problem telling each other anything, or approaching any topic.

its that simple. just 2 points. Tell the truth.

but you dont

am i supposed to treat you the same way too?

Maybe its true

Maybe I have no true friends after all

who are your true friends?

thats what john said.

he said that your true friends would help you.

i didn't receive any help.

does this mean i have none?

i want to go see cows!! cute~~

http://sgblogs.com/entry/328617

No more organizing birthdays

sick of people never paying me money

sick of people never appreciating my efforts

but when it boils down to the birthday person.

that's the last straw. enough.

WAD HAPPENED TO MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT! :(

ANGRY FISH! :(

i said i wanted a printer, but i got rejected..

i said i NEED new sports shoes, but im still waiting..

i cant wait forever!! :(

so annoyed! why does this happen every year!

tong!! after ur exams end! we must go out!

1. Go universal studios (double date? :D group outing?)
2. Go skating together (woodlands/ecp?)
3. Go Sgp biennale 2011 (shit it ended!!!!! :( http://www.singaporebiennale.org/)
4. Visit some other art festival exhibition
5. Go clubbing together? :D
6. Visit the wholesale market together! (think should go w more girls den buy cheap stuff together!)
7. Visit NEX together
8. Visit other new shopping centers together?
9. Visit queensway shopping center to eat laksa!
10. random sight seeing in sgp!!! :D

Here's a list of things that i want to do

1. Bake pretty cup cakes (visit the store at marsling to get stuff)
2. bake macaroons
3. Have a BBQ (dina's place?)
4. BUY SPORTS SHOES

I feel like Ivh had too much of..

1. Alcohol in my system
2. 
   

I seriously want more

1. SHOPPING!!!!

and i really need to do this although im such a lazy bum

1. Pack my room
2. sell off my old hp
3. sell off my white paper
4. send unwanted items to salvation army
5. EXERCISE MORE

today..

I really miss travelling with gary, and eating with clarice and karen..

I feel so lonely alone at home! I miss having somebody i can walk over to and knock on the door/sit next to on the couch and chat with!

lonely fish!! SO LONELY T-T

I hate being an only child

Jackson..

today I realized I forgot to reply Jackson.. twice.. I was trying hard to recall the strange feeling I had in the pit of my stomach as I read his SMS, and tried very hard to remember what it was like having pa again as my close friend in my life. I recalled late dinners, and htht chats below my block and at Dina's place. the pa who was always there for me when I needed him, the pa who was just a phone call summon away, the pa whom I shared all of my troubles with back in my life again.

I thought about it hard and it felt strange. I realized he had been gone for so long, 4 years infact, I don't even know who he is anymore. I don't think he knows the me now, I don't even remember the kind of person I used to be around him.

I have let him go and learnt to live without him. he is no longer a key person in my life. no longer the first person I'd ask out on slow saturdays, no longer the first person I'd call when I had troubles, no longer the person I'd reserve special movies for.

he's almost nothing to me in my life now. I don't even remember the last time we had a real conversation without him and his blatant lies..

do you really miss me? do you really want me as your friend again? I'm having a hard time convincing myself about whether thenopposite is true. do I really miss you? do i really want you as my close friend again?

I think no, because truly close friends don't run off and dump you for others. I don't want to have to experience the pain and disappointment of giving you an important place in my life and I'n my heart, to have to bear with the sadness and disappointment of always being 2nd to your new friends, and never being there for me when I needed you most, and you never remembering me for who I was, a d constantly mixing up memories of all the good things I did for you and
thinking that they were done by Dina.

it really makes me wonder If our friendship was real, or was it just a lie, I was just a decoy, a replacement, a stepping stone for your unattainable desires and ambitions

which was why you left us at the end

I shan't risk it. trusting you again.

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BATAM WAS FUN! :D

dina shunfa yq, lets go again

and buy 40 more packets of u know what! :P

i just had spicy poop... >.<

To me, there are two kinds of leaders

1) Those who can run a country well

2) Those who truly care about their country's people

Those who show me qualities of group two, deserve my vote.

This is because while quality 1 is something which can be taught to, and learnt by EVERYONE with the right abilities, the right training and structure, while quality 2 is something which is inherent, and can never be learnt.

And it is this quality which will lead you to choose the betterment of your citizens lives, over the lining of your own pocket.