gold

today I heard about the golden boy and girl of our school earning more than 10k when their salary was combined although they have only been working for 1 year

they could save up to 60k a year, with 3k to spend each month, compared to the miserly 18k I scrimp and save to put together.

I felt a twinge of jealousy at the thought. I asked myself why I didn't work harder. why didn't I try harder to go into the banking and finance line?

I guess I have to return to my goals in life.

I just want to have a family with average income (or better above average) and a happy harmonious family. I want my children to get along and to love their parents. respect is not a big thing for me as long as I know that despite whatever nonsense they throw my way they will still be filial and loving. I'm sure if I bring them up well the nonsense will have good intentions.

if I had a job in BNF I would have alot more money. I could spend 3k a month comfortably. what would I spend this on?

when Tong went overseas I had a brief taste of buying anything I desired and eating anything I wanted. but it was just empty happiness. momentary and fleeting and I constantly was left with the feeling of being dissatisfied no matter how many things I bought. I was shopping for happiness, bought it all. but something's still missing.

so when tong came back its pretty amazing because all of these cravings just vanished. I didn't need to buy a single thing but I felt perfectly fulfilled.

I find eating a cheap hawker meal more delicious and satisfying then eating at mass produced posh restaurants. the food all tastes the same after a while. I rejoice whenever I get to pay a visit to the hawker center.

so in actuality all I need is love and good food and the spirit of adventure kept alive

if I had 60k more I guess I would use the money to go traveling and sight seeing. but I don't think that my lifestyle or the furniture I would want to buy would change.

my life would be alot easier. but alot less fulfilling. after all I won't get to sit on my sofa and proudly proclaim that I got it at a warehouse sale for 50%. I would be sitting on it saying that it's designer or some shit. where's the sense of the great adventure and treasure hunt in looking for and finding what you really want?

life would be alot more easier and comfortable though.

but fun? fulfilling? I'm not so sure..

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