I hate my life

I feel like I hate my life

I hate my mum
She has never done anything that mattered to me for me. I wish that I don't hav to give a shit about her needs. I hate that im getting married and she doesn't giv a damn. I hav to do all of the planning and inviting.  She is never there when I need her for the big things. Always giving me grief about the insignificant.

I hate my job
It sucks that minister says go and everyone rolls around like an idiot
It sucks that my boss always lose at taichi

I hate my colleagues
My subordinate is always trying to push work to me. I get blamed when they dont do stuff right. I do their stuff but I don't get any credit 4 it
One colleague is so annoying n always talking to herself
The other one is like in twilight zone coz she is leaving. Always spaced out.

I hate my current house
Its leaking and my mum fucking refuses to do anything about it. Just keeps comparing prices and accuses the contractor of trying to cheat her and of being from china. Sprawling concrete and paint chipping off everywhere

I hate my static
Negative ppl. Ppl getting carried.  People hatin on each other.  Ppl not being responsible or updating and expecting the whole world to stop and wait 4 em or drop everything n wait 4 em.

I hate that my rabbits are sick and aren't getting better. Im so tired from all of the medicine feeding and the wound washing and application and it feels like the nightmare is never going to stop because I feel a fucking new lump and we might have to do surgery.

I hate my body.
I hate that I don't have time to work out. That im in the office at 7pm rushing an update and I stress eat. That my belly fat balloons up and down week to week. That I ache terribly every night after I wake up in my shitty 200 dollar bed. That I hav high cholesterol and low calcium and I hav to control my diet. And that I need to eat 1 fruit a day to shit but all my mum buys are inedible starfruits and some shit that rotts b4 I get to eat it.

I hate my dysfunctional family.
Its always who is arguing with who. And who we hav to go visit just to show face. And how its a competition on who has visited who more. Seriously who has time for this shit.

I wish I could dump all of this and just start over new somewhere else

I fucking hate that I just need hdb to send me a letter and I can escape from 90% of this hell hole. I can get a fucking new job without worrying about all of the travelling.

I hate that im in whatsapp groups that I don't even want to be in.