ystd... went out to celebrate sha's birthday! alot of interesting things happened! and there were complications, then.. present n everything. so lame lah! i went to citylink to buy the present, then.. went back to cityhall mrt to take e train to bugis.. sway sway exactly at e instant i was waiting 4 e train, dina sha n pa reached cityhall! i panic n was hiding behind the pillar! both of us wer on e left of the station! hten i tell dina tt im at the left, she blur blur one! i was so scared tt we will accidentally bump into each other! coz i was supposed to be meeting my "friend" anyway, after tt i screwed up at the part where supposed drag away dina n pa to sign the card then got caught by nisha! the gig was up! argh! =/ after tt we got cheated by the western restaurant we ate at! we watched step up.. duno why everyone said tt its nice.. but.. a tad boring.. to me.. at parts.. was stiffling yawns.. perhaps its just coz im tired..

after tt went for family gathering... steamboat at grandma's place...

today, claz outing at sentosa! then i put so much sunblock yet still same degree of tannedness as my friend who never put sunblock but sun tan lotion! argh! i cant bear the thought of what would have happened if i didnt put any sunblock at all! ahhh! then we went vivocity for the first time! sooo cool! omg omg omg! so huge! alth not so many ppl turned up for claz outing, n we didnt go anything very interesting or particularly excititng, but.. duno why time seemed to pass really quickly.. and i was happy.. :) took alot of super lame silly pictures and made alot of stupid scandalous comments... and austen is so going to be a future gp teacher! haha..

listened to lc's mp3 on e way home.. noisy.. but nice! n very very peifu the guitarists! sound so good lahhh.. listen until fell asleep... haha..

Hey! A's are FINALLY OVER!

getting that kind of wierd feeling. like. hmmm. kinda lost coz no more studying. personally im estatic tt i dun have to crack my brain anymore but then.. it gets wierd at times...

oh! so many things have happened recently! omg omg omg!

claz outing at MARINA SQUARE again! the guys are like totally addicted to tt place or sth! after tt we went to play MAFIA (so secret cult gathering like) and the guys had GUY talk at the esplanade rooftop.. met shunfa on train he passed me ticx (so illegal transaction like) then i met hm 2+ to borrow pa's clothes n stuff like tt then he nearly got stranded in sg! so sorry! tkx again!

sat we went CLUBBING! at club momo! dance until so tired xia! dinaaa!! must dance lehh! you only wana do the wave only. bleahx! stayed there till like 5am duno y the club never close so we go sg river to wait for 1st train to start and eat bei bei mian! :D then pa n dina came up with a new rule of 3 for me.. KIMBERLYN'S ULTIMATE RULE OF FLOATATION. need i elaborate? sth about floating ice lemon FISH and how you should conduct experiments by throwing ourselves into sg river and using SPLENDINI as the control. haha! oh! and b4 tt me n nana went HAIR DYEing (and eyebrow plucking) a total of 4 ppl have noticed my eyebrows! (in this order, dina [coz she went with me] mf, gor, dad) =D hmmm..

i worked last sunday at MM! banquet! Mf gave me a crash course on tt day itself, then the table we waited on rated our service as excellent all the way! i was so happy! :D then gor treated us to statay and sent us home.. thanks gor.. :)

met jon at banquet.. so.. hmmm... =X 'Army' strengh is back up to 3 ppl...

monday went running with loke.. erm.. he's quite nice.. but too quiet and go with the flow kind.. it nearly drove me insane.. too much like no 1.. alth eventually he did talk enough for acceptable standards but i hate having to guide / drive the conversation along.. normally sooner or later i just give up trying to..

i went 'job hunting' with jy today. we ended up watching MOVIE, the covenant, (not bad a bit scary) and SHOPPING! (for her clothes for her bro's wedding) omg shopping with her can VOMIT BLOOD one! she everything also say ex one! argh! then she find this shirt she find nice, straight away buy without looking at price! after discount still $26 xia! and to think tt she say buy shirt 3 for $10 then normal price! so contradicting xia! good thing got carpy along to balance out the disprecancy about her views on what is cheap and not so.. not tt vomit blood.. But it still was fun! :D

and i repaired carpy's guitar! fellow guitarist! :D any takers out there willing to play with me? we shall set up a band ya! with lead singer nisha, violinist dina and fellow guitarist eunice! all we need now is drummer, keyboardist and bass guitarist.. hmm

non - stop phone conferencing recently! see? my besties so impt to me! i rushed home after all my activities so can conference with you guys leh! touched? youshould be! otherwise id be me n not be home till like 12+ again! haha!

eh! enough about the I AM FEI I AM FEI I AM FEI already. :P i know you are 'fei' dun need to announce it! jkjk lah! haha. very lame leh! you say like tt i really want to laugh!

Sha sha cheer up kaeee!

Xiaomei I WANT MY BROTHER IN LAW ASAP!!! =p

guess what? i have a step mum! omg omg omg omg! but no siblings! i was so devastated when i heard the news! not that i had a step mum.. that i dun mind.. im happy coz he's happy and im happy coz its the same person, so i know tt he's finally found soemone to be true to and with for the rest of his life.. the REAL the ONE.. so happy ya.. cant wait to meet her this sat.. but.. I WANTED TO BE A BIG SIS! WAAAAA! WHERE ART THOU LONG LOST SIBILINGS?

looks like its just me up against the world again.

today i saw a brown jacket with orange bands. i couldnt help myself. i held it's sleeve and stared hard at it. reminicising. a time when i wore your jacket and how its sleeves drooped a hand's length below my fingertips. searing warmth. your esparating lazyness that you'd rather take a taxi for 2 busstops then walk, that sheepish look whenever i teased you, your litter bug and bad boy tendencies, the inexhaustable flow of curious questions, the way you looked when you were jealous, how you always had something to say, how you always stuck to your values and that we adhered to the same code of conduct and moral law, that glint of childlike innocence shining brightly in your eyes inspite of your experience, that silly carefree smile. and how i loved the way you seemed to take life so lightly, like it was a brilliantly wonderful game..

sometimes even happy memories can make a person sad sometimes...
So i'll keep them here so i wont have to store them within me..
and then i can go back to being happy again..

im ok.
=)
dontchaworryaboutathing

heard this on e radio..

Do you ever wonder What sky I'm lying under Do you ever think of me Does your heart remember How we used to feel When it used to think of me All I need to know When you're on your own Do you miss what might have been World don't stop turning Stars don't stop falling down In my world of make believe Do you ever think of me We got different stories And all our never endings now Even thought your heart is free Still my heart wont let me be Do you ever think of me So we're on different shores Do we just drift away Do the memories fall Like a driving rain All I need to know When you're on your own Do you miss what might have been World don't stop turning Stars don't stop falling down In my world of make believe Do you ever think of me We got different stories And all our never endings now Even thought your heart is free Still my heart wont let me be Do you ever think of me
-antony costa

last night i dreamed of you

it was you it was you it was you

not 1 not 2

but you.. =)

Its me!

im supposed to be studying physics

chinese paper at 4.45pm

absolutely no mood! argh!

online looking for guitar tabs instead

sick of playing the same old songs already

The other day d said :"i duno y it still feels like u r still with him coz i never see him b4"
Then hz said "i dream tt u n him back 2 gthr"

argh! no! id KILL myself first..

yeah. sometimes id miss em sometimes.
But ill never go back. The first is too painful. The 2nd would be destroying beautiful memories.

Move up and on!

Im so over you already.

=p

Everyone, thanks 4 everything.. :)

Yesterday you walked out of my life.
I feel really sad but quite relieved at the same time.
Im free again!
Yeah. Bad timing x2.
But there's many things in life that you cant choose or cant decide where or when or change
Oh well.
I dont feel that sad already.
But the pain of being alone just eats away at me sometimes.
At least it was fun while it lasted.
And the singing and the guitar playing and the movie marathons and the late nights and the non stop absurb comments and jay zhou songs and all that
Good memories last forever right?
And we never argued or anything.
Feelings die sometimes.
Alth urs died unusually fast,
Mine will die sometime soon.
But its strange
coz its nearly not there anymore
Friends. =)
And your happiness.
Thats enough for me.

I never fall for the same guy twice.
Now ivh got a 2nd policy.
Ill never go steady with the same guy twice.

2nd ex le! how many more to go until i find him?


Back to playing the "game"
But first, studies.
Oh why cant the period of time when i attain the "star" like in supermario last a longer time?

But sometimes stars hurt to hold on to


Rule of thumb
1) never date the same guy more than 3 times
2) never stay with the same guy more than 1 month
3) never ever ever say i love you face to face (phone/sms/msn excluded) unless you really mean it
Otherwise it's just cruel to him if you never really felt anything for him at all.

no way november will see our goodbyes
when it comes to december its obvious why
no one wants to be alone on christmas time
Come january we're frozen inside
making new resolutions a hundred times
feburary wont you be my valentime
And if our always is all that we gave
and we some day take that away
it will be alright,
if its just till st'patricks day

Now to get back to living.
Freedom! =D

Everyone, thanks for the support and everything.. :) u guys re e best! Esp my besties n family members. *hugz*

Omg. i just heard this on the radio (not exact words but somthing along these lines):

2 'honkees' speaking in slang

A:The subario challenge ah, i teach you how to last long long time.

B:ya! must teach! they like giving up! so sad right?

A: I teach you ah, firstly its in the mentality. If it's your car, you wont let go of your car right? If you are holding ar, a $10000000000 note of coz you dont let go right?

B:ya loh ya loh! alot of money leh! then then?

A:2nd, its meditation. Calm yourself by saying OMMMMMM..

B:some how will become very calm and can last very long!

A:3rd, its tried n tested by generations! my wife taught me n she learnt it from her mother which is my mother in law and my mother in law learnt it from her mother which is my grandmother in law and it's very very effective!

B:Wah? so effective? what is it?

A:You know ah, you take the ginsesing, and the sesame paste, and you mix it. Then you rub it all over. After tt you will go numb and then can last long long time!

B:???

A:sure make your wife very happy one!!

B:??? are you sure we are talking about the same thing?

A:ya what!

B:subario challenge leh!

A:what subario challenge? aiyoh!

....

(ok a bit ra lah but i burst out laughing when i heard the part about making your wife happy. So ambigious! coz if you last long long and win the car sure make your wife happy one! :p )

Been having wierd dreams recently...

I was doing maths before i fell asleep the other night. Drew so many e^x graphs that i dreamt of them! omg! its like damn wierd lah. Everyone went around carrying "weapons" shaped like an e^x graph. Then the power of your weapon is dependent on the variable X. Because it varies exponentially, (it's a throwing weapon), the amount of damage inflicted increases exponentially with the distance the weapon is thrown. Like a boomerang, it will return upon hitting (or missing) the target. Then here comes the intersting part of the dream. At first everything was fine n dandy with the weapons getting more powerful the further away you were from the enemies. Then some idiot had to cast a 'reflect' spell on us then the weapon became configured to e^-x and then you had to throw the damn thing backwards to inflict damage or else it would be damage below 1 (think transformation of curves)

Argh! i think i have been doing too much maths recently. or at least too much graph sketching. Like. omg i was so mad when i checked the tys and realised tt past 3 years never come out graph sketching questions le! duno if still will come out anot? haiyo!

Then i had the wierd dream of a room, filled with nothing but brown wood cabanets, of hundreds and hundreds of drawers. And every single drawer had a filing system, neatly alfabetically categorising every single "basic necessity" humans require. Just a huge white room with drawers. Queer. As usual, curiousity got the better of me and i started opening EVERY SINGLE drawer to see it's contents. I think i started off in the middle.. remember seeing C-candles. Then when i opened drawer B, ahh! there were little bottles of none other then BEER! a whole cute adorable box the size of my palm with quaint bottles the combined width and lenght of 2 fingers! omg! i was estatic in my dream! then ??? had to come and drag me away to do some chore and i never got to go back to that drawer and then i woke up. haiz.

Later tt night i watched news and there was a report on BEER POISINING! omg! they put some disinfectant that works as an addictive in the drink and now people are dying of it! i think 26 ppl have died from the poison! symptoms include lethargy, yellowed eyes and .. hmm.. cant remember..

I learnt that horse+donkey=mule
but mule+mule = 0 because they are sterile!

GP paper is this thursday. Running out of time! so stressed! It's a "make it or break it" situation. All or nothing. Im so scared. I visited a friend's house the other day and i just realised tt everything is as it is from 5 years ago. even the secondary school course cert on the table. It scares me. What if life comes to a standstill like my friend's has sort of did? What if i dont move on?

Good luck everyone!!

Nobody gona love me better, i must stay with u 4 eva
nobody gona take me higher, i must stay with you
you know how to appreciate me, i wana stay with you my baby
nobody ever made me feel this way, i'll stay with you..
I miss you so much i ache all day long..

Random thoughts

Someone said : keep your friends close and your enemies even closer for when revenge comes it will be sweeter

Thanks for the concern, but i dont think prayers will work on a non-beliver. And i lost my faith a long long time ago. Melodrama i hope never to be repeated in this life.

I heard a song on the radio that goes sth like "Rain outside my window, pouring down, What now, ur gone, too late, to turn it around.. sorry for the tears i made you cry.. you made it clear when you said, Baby i dont care if its right or wrong, i just dont love you no more"

Am i wrong for 'playing' with someone just because im really bored in the wee hrs of the night?

Familiarility brings about this sense of dejavu. i know im supposed to act but im too stumpted by the onslaught of emotions. It just confuses me more.

Will this be the same as with hamsters? Once you have had too many and the last takes on qualities of the first and you mix them up? And you love them as if they are one but in actuality they are not?

I know its wrong but i cant help the way im feeling. Im in the wrong but i cant control these emotions that are welling up and threatening to flow over.

I told you im confused. Im confused and the confusion is threatening to take over. I want to run away and hide. But you will be gone so soon i cant afford any time to do that.

Truth be told, im sick and tired of being a good girl.


See what kind of wierd thoughts too many maths problems dredge up in your mind?

Hey! im back on! =D internet connection is FINALLY working again! :) didnt get any faster though. :(

A levels are in like a weeks time! omg! so scary! good luck!!!

I STILL WANA PLAY POOL! WAAA...

Dont you ever scare me like that again! i turned off my phone coz i wanted to be alone. Though when i do on my phone again i have resolved to apologise to you but whether i get mad again after tt or not depends on the messages recieved when my phone is off.. Or the lack of it..


Hey im this guy! at frist i was WTH? then i re-read some of my ans.. and its like.. ok.. true.. But at least i dont get leg cramps whenever i see someone i like! :p but me? serious? Hmmm..


Which FF Character Are You?

Im balmy
im sitting at e library coz i couldnt stay at home
lied to mum tt im meeting dina n pa when i wasnt
didnt meet them
called them but decided not to meet them after all
So near yet so ....
really.. dun want lah.. very bright.. >_<

Lets see. today before tt i met dear to watch deathnote! ^^ nice show! I SUPPORT L! ^^ light is evil... he killed his gf! argh! Sorry grandma grandpa pa n ma i know supposed to watch with u guys but.. erm.. 20th is e special day so.. i go with him? sorriee! actually wanted to join u guys for dinner but i was really tired then i fell asleep.. i wake up le u guys started eating without me le.. i still join for what? ....

backdating:
Class outing on last day of school! ^^ friday 13th! fun! we played silly games like swap bag and pretend to be tt person as long as you are carrying tt person's bag. Then anyhow start very scadalous rumours about tt person by being that person n doing scandalous things while carryign tt bad! lameee! haha.. after tt we went marina sqaure to bowl. Actually went nearer (yishun) but.. but.. CLOSED FOR RENOVATIONS! XIANZ!! ate dinner at marina square food court with nice view, (enhuo looked so much like a retired man enjoying his green tea and the view! so funny!) and told alot of stupid lame things, then went home by bus n Eh sent me home coz i fell asleep past his stop n i guess he didnt have the heart to wake me up just yet. i feel bad! thanks!