charsiew rice! charsiew rice! thursday is coming! ^^

3rd day at work! so tired! so sleepy! and even more confused! coz spent the last 2 days going to NUS NTU SMU open house. now even more confused on where to go! NTU got more familiar faces and the shortest course duration.. NUS feels more at home. SMU is the newest.. really duno where i should go.. bleah! Spent the last two days out with him! =D word of warning! dont watch im a cyborg but its ok! the show makes no sense! like not much of a storyline like tt. go one big round to talk about 2 mental patients falling in love? huh? came out of the cinema with a big question mark above our heads.. hmmm..

i got icecream! ^^ yum! weekiat thanks!

2nd day of work at my new workplace! reached too early again so not sure what to do in mornings thought i;d just blog or sth? anyway everyone here seems so nice! but so foreign n unfamiliar. so guess ill do what i usually do in such situations. just sit n watch an dont make too much noise. scared of doing wrong things! >_<

omg how long has it been since i last blogged! i stopped coz tt time my computer modem died then soon after my computer itself this world in a brilliant fireworks display that shortcircuitted the whole house! omg! so many things have happened i dont even know where to start!

ok.. here goes nothing!

hey! im at my new place of work! kinda admin data entry thinge. its my 5th job! thinking of jumping to chinese restaurant during CNY hols coz they pay $8-10 per hr! but sure buzy like crazy! haha

so many things have happened! omg omg omg!

im currently holding 4 part time jobs. im a

banquet waitress
indopadang waitress
talent scout for bhi
n this job i just started today!

-almost tuition teacher 4 sec 4 physics! but not confirmed yet.

life sometimes busy like crazy!

but i love new experinces so im really happy ya. haha.

so.. lets see..

my class guys booked in for ns le.

but b4 tt we had so many class activities mf got sick of me saying tt i cant work at banquet coz of class outing! haha!

shunfa also book in le!

then he got his first pay, poor me broke like no tmr like tt he super nice guy treat me to lucnch! yeah! shunfa rulez! :D

i made a new friend from phillipines Elwin at indopadang.

he's very nice and (at work-but during times when there is nth left to do - dishes wiped - no guests) we play taidi and tic tac toe n draw interesting pics together. It's fun being with him. =)

sadly they didnt extend his working permit so he has to leave sg by this friday!

im so sad!

oh! i just saw lc yesterday at "class outing" at mr ang's house with his new hairdo! i saw i was so amused! but it's acutally not too bad leh! it makes him look less pretty and more man! but somehow looks a tad jail-convict? =X dont tell him i said tt!

went for vegetarian banquet style lunch the other day still suffering from the aftereffects of so much flour and colouring. >.< oh my stomach hey my besties! how have u been! what cha been doing? sha eu na! must meet up soon!! now still at work.. actually ivh completed the data entry part of it on the com so thought might as well take a break? wonder if im allowed to do this though?

over n out!

being with you makes me impossibly happy.. 110107

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

im shocked. its actually true! bleah!

well, dina said tt i should post this so here goes nothing

Girl met boy one day.
Boy thought girl was so fine he asked her to stay.
Her contact was devulged to him.
And so their strange long distance relationship came into play

She warned him, of the headaches she could cause
But arrogant him was pompous
swearing eternal deference and devotion
proclaiming blessed be he who won her heart
His honey coated words slid off his tongue
But she took them with a dash of salt
However eventually worlds wrapped her and held her under sway
Her friends forewarnings of his ill-nature near forgotten

So came that fateful day
Everything seemed fine, until they met face to face
Enough was enough, the girl was filled was distaste
because it turned out too much like an unplesant game of dodge and chase
of wandering arms, much too unchaste

He demanded a return to his abode
But the girl refused, shurgged her shoulders
wore that smile to hide whats inside
silly him, too was too dazzled and much too fool to decide

a wrong choice was made
invoking anger much underlaid
smile she still wore
although inside she was seething raw

He hailed a cab and motioned for her to get in
Trembling, wondering if she could muster up the courage,
she ran behind and flagged the next cab
jumped in, slammed the door while quickly speaking the destination to the driver
as the taxi sped off
she turned to wave n smile,
staring at his googled face,
wide open shocked mouth

quite interesting a read?

Omg how long has it been since i last blogged?

close to a month? so many things happened!

24/11
i worked

25/11
i had family reunion lunch. grandma's birthday. i met my step mum. she is ok ok lah. im just a tad scared tt she doesnt like me. she tried hard to be nice. but im just scared of what lies underneath. after tt i worked bqt

26/11
i worked bqt

27-28/11
class chalet 3 days! but i fell sick on e last day so i got sent home early. it was so fun! thanks to kelvin n deep 4 taking care of me (teased kel about making a perfect house husband after tt) n big hug 2 everyone for caring for me n a huge appology for making you guys worry! thank you austen 4 replacing me for my job too! it was so fun with bbq, night cycling, escape themepark, and loads of games and and and...

29/11
i was sick the whole day. during 1 am + my dad brought me to doctor. n wth the only doctor open at tt hour was changi hospital. look. ivh always wanted to experience what the whole hospital stay + visit was like but i was so sick i didnt get to enjoy it! omg! its like i was so weak n nauseous it was like. bleah! everything that went in came out! anyway didnt eat much n love dad n mum much, they so cute bought exactly the same food 4 me (fish porridge) even though they r separated they still think so alike. everyone was so sweet sending me get well soon messages i was so touched. love you guys lots!

30/11
i was still kinda giddy and nauseous but i forced myself out of e house so tt i could go shopping for prom with deep aze n hong and elaine (late) met karimah n joey there and it was so fun! :D we went vivocity and we walked like practically every shop my feet were killing me and i silliy took the wrong medication (mixed up the drousy and nausea one) then i was feeling very high and sleepy for the remiander of the afternoon. after tt celebrated rashida's birthday (had fun) met iswan, (m45 fellow woodlander) quite nice guy n went home.

1/12
supposed to be pool with family day, turned shopping for prom with dina n mf day. haha. fun. but tiring. esp since i hadnt fully recovered (dina commented tt it was strange how i was ice cold when usually i was the warmest amongst all and the ans was obvious coz i was still sick)

2/12
shopping again, then i ran off to vivocity to get prom dress while mf n dina struggled with putting the fishscales into mf's eyes. haha. after tt worked bqt n spent the night talking to him

3/12
stupid hy. anyhow book. now we work full day. today i took a 2 whole tables to myself! finally! so fun! =D mango sago n mini cake cake i love you!

4/12
last lasst min prom shopping with dina n mf! i bought a camera! the shop uncle very nice! say tt i cant afford then can eat dinner at his house! then i ask him where he stay he scared thought i take his offer seriously! haha! oh! met shunfa he got free ride back to wdl from my dad.

5/12
IJC PROM! need i say more? just tt my high heels were KILLING me! the event wasnt fun, but the people wree fun! classmates n friends n i were having too much fun amongst ourselves to care about event. but SAD! NO DANCING! AHH! after tt ton overnight with classmates, mr ang, some m45 members. we walked to some hotel, then esplanade, then feet too pain le, me hong, elaine walked barefoot from esplanade to dobby gaut mr bean 24 hrs cafe! sat there played silly games n chit chat. cold the kel lend me his jacket. so long huge lah! but thanks. :D some very xiong still go for moring movie happy feet after tt!

6/12
busy busy busy! dun really remember what happened. oh! guitar lessons, then collect things 4m dina, then i rushed to meet him at cityhall mrt, he paid 4 my taxi fare. then i had one of the most "interesting" dates i every had. put simply, his face is a face tt i hope never to see again.

7/12
went nisha's house! fun fun! played x box whole day n exchanged prom pics! we played some horror school monster game then very scary but fun!

8-10/12
went bintan with koko uncle kwanyat, their church friends n their kid kamiyah & my roommate karen! fun in e sun! acually more like sleep, eat, spa though haha.

11/12
celebrated amy's birhtdya at k box today! fun! hard to describe. got to solo my fav song liu lang but dina mf not there! they go buy cake! ahha

12/12
BUSY DAY! TOO BUSY TO ELABORATE! but i went for 1st driving theory lesson with deep today so xian!!

its strange how you can mislead yourself into believing in perfection where first impression told you that there is nothing but bleak dispair at that end of the road

You are coming back from shanghai soon. im scared of meeting you. i hope that i wont meet you. because ivh found him and the moons and stars are right back in the right places again and my world in almost perfect balance and meeting you once more could displace them.

Xiaomei going australia soon! god speed! i promise to do my best to take care of mocha! dontcha worry! and I WANA MEET MY BROTHER IN LAW SOON!

ystd... went out to celebrate sha's birthday! alot of interesting things happened! and there were complications, then.. present n everything. so lame lah! i went to citylink to buy the present, then.. went back to cityhall mrt to take e train to bugis.. sway sway exactly at e instant i was waiting 4 e train, dina sha n pa reached cityhall! i panic n was hiding behind the pillar! both of us wer on e left of the station! hten i tell dina tt im at the left, she blur blur one! i was so scared tt we will accidentally bump into each other! coz i was supposed to be meeting my "friend" anyway, after tt i screwed up at the part where supposed drag away dina n pa to sign the card then got caught by nisha! the gig was up! argh! =/ after tt we got cheated by the western restaurant we ate at! we watched step up.. duno why everyone said tt its nice.. but.. a tad boring.. to me.. at parts.. was stiffling yawns.. perhaps its just coz im tired..

after tt went for family gathering... steamboat at grandma's place...

today, claz outing at sentosa! then i put so much sunblock yet still same degree of tannedness as my friend who never put sunblock but sun tan lotion! argh! i cant bear the thought of what would have happened if i didnt put any sunblock at all! ahhh! then we went vivocity for the first time! sooo cool! omg omg omg! so huge! alth not so many ppl turned up for claz outing, n we didnt go anything very interesting or particularly excititng, but.. duno why time seemed to pass really quickly.. and i was happy.. :) took alot of super lame silly pictures and made alot of stupid scandalous comments... and austen is so going to be a future gp teacher! haha..

listened to lc's mp3 on e way home.. noisy.. but nice! n very very peifu the guitarists! sound so good lahhh.. listen until fell asleep... haha..

Hey! A's are FINALLY OVER!

getting that kind of wierd feeling. like. hmmm. kinda lost coz no more studying. personally im estatic tt i dun have to crack my brain anymore but then.. it gets wierd at times...

oh! so many things have happened recently! omg omg omg!

claz outing at MARINA SQUARE again! the guys are like totally addicted to tt place or sth! after tt we went to play MAFIA (so secret cult gathering like) and the guys had GUY talk at the esplanade rooftop.. met shunfa on train he passed me ticx (so illegal transaction like) then i met hm 2+ to borrow pa's clothes n stuff like tt then he nearly got stranded in sg! so sorry! tkx again!

sat we went CLUBBING! at club momo! dance until so tired xia! dinaaa!! must dance lehh! you only wana do the wave only. bleahx! stayed there till like 5am duno y the club never close so we go sg river to wait for 1st train to start and eat bei bei mian! :D then pa n dina came up with a new rule of 3 for me.. KIMBERLYN'S ULTIMATE RULE OF FLOATATION. need i elaborate? sth about floating ice lemon FISH and how you should conduct experiments by throwing ourselves into sg river and using SPLENDINI as the control. haha! oh! and b4 tt me n nana went HAIR DYEing (and eyebrow plucking) a total of 4 ppl have noticed my eyebrows! (in this order, dina [coz she went with me] mf, gor, dad) =D hmmm..

i worked last sunday at MM! banquet! Mf gave me a crash course on tt day itself, then the table we waited on rated our service as excellent all the way! i was so happy! :D then gor treated us to statay and sent us home.. thanks gor.. :)

met jon at banquet.. so.. hmmm... =X 'Army' strengh is back up to 3 ppl...

monday went running with loke.. erm.. he's quite nice.. but too quiet and go with the flow kind.. it nearly drove me insane.. too much like no 1.. alth eventually he did talk enough for acceptable standards but i hate having to guide / drive the conversation along.. normally sooner or later i just give up trying to..

i went 'job hunting' with jy today. we ended up watching MOVIE, the covenant, (not bad a bit scary) and SHOPPING! (for her clothes for her bro's wedding) omg shopping with her can VOMIT BLOOD one! she everything also say ex one! argh! then she find this shirt she find nice, straight away buy without looking at price! after discount still $26 xia! and to think tt she say buy shirt 3 for $10 then normal price! so contradicting xia! good thing got carpy along to balance out the disprecancy about her views on what is cheap and not so.. not tt vomit blood.. But it still was fun! :D

and i repaired carpy's guitar! fellow guitarist! :D any takers out there willing to play with me? we shall set up a band ya! with lead singer nisha, violinist dina and fellow guitarist eunice! all we need now is drummer, keyboardist and bass guitarist.. hmm

non - stop phone conferencing recently! see? my besties so impt to me! i rushed home after all my activities so can conference with you guys leh! touched? youshould be! otherwise id be me n not be home till like 12+ again! haha!

eh! enough about the I AM FEI I AM FEI I AM FEI already. :P i know you are 'fei' dun need to announce it! jkjk lah! haha. very lame leh! you say like tt i really want to laugh!

Sha sha cheer up kaeee!

Xiaomei I WANT MY BROTHER IN LAW ASAP!!! =p

guess what? i have a step mum! omg omg omg omg! but no siblings! i was so devastated when i heard the news! not that i had a step mum.. that i dun mind.. im happy coz he's happy and im happy coz its the same person, so i know tt he's finally found soemone to be true to and with for the rest of his life.. the REAL the ONE.. so happy ya.. cant wait to meet her this sat.. but.. I WANTED TO BE A BIG SIS! WAAAAA! WHERE ART THOU LONG LOST SIBILINGS?

looks like its just me up against the world again.

today i saw a brown jacket with orange bands. i couldnt help myself. i held it's sleeve and stared hard at it. reminicising. a time when i wore your jacket and how its sleeves drooped a hand's length below my fingertips. searing warmth. your esparating lazyness that you'd rather take a taxi for 2 busstops then walk, that sheepish look whenever i teased you, your litter bug and bad boy tendencies, the inexhaustable flow of curious questions, the way you looked when you were jealous, how you always had something to say, how you always stuck to your values and that we adhered to the same code of conduct and moral law, that glint of childlike innocence shining brightly in your eyes inspite of your experience, that silly carefree smile. and how i loved the way you seemed to take life so lightly, like it was a brilliantly wonderful game..

sometimes even happy memories can make a person sad sometimes...
So i'll keep them here so i wont have to store them within me..
and then i can go back to being happy again..

im ok.
=)
dontchaworryaboutathing

heard this on e radio..

Do you ever wonder What sky I'm lying under Do you ever think of me Does your heart remember How we used to feel When it used to think of me All I need to know When you're on your own Do you miss what might have been World don't stop turning Stars don't stop falling down In my world of make believe Do you ever think of me We got different stories And all our never endings now Even thought your heart is free Still my heart wont let me be Do you ever think of me So we're on different shores Do we just drift away Do the memories fall Like a driving rain All I need to know When you're on your own Do you miss what might have been World don't stop turning Stars don't stop falling down In my world of make believe Do you ever think of me We got different stories And all our never endings now Even thought your heart is free Still my heart wont let me be Do you ever think of me
-antony costa

last night i dreamed of you

it was you it was you it was you

not 1 not 2

but you.. =)