despair

i needed you but you wernt there

who should i turn to

in this time of despair

all i really wanted was somebody who cared

Me myself and I

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Ptd

Sad
(  that the dinner turned out like this for me, i dont have high expectations but I at least expect to be fed. Getting a goodie bag would be a plus. Having a table to call home is a must. But I had none of these. )

depressed
because I made mistakes. The scolding was harsh. And my miatakes were not really my fault but due to improper instructions and poor leadership and guidance

exhausted
from the skipping of breakfast for 3 days, having lunch at my table, for 2 days straight, burning midnight oil in the office, working weekends and public holidays, missing yoga class, missing my ipl appointment, putting everything else on the back burner

Tired
Just feel like giving it all up

Disappointed
Feel that none of the effort was recognised or worth it
That you don't understand at all what im thinking or how I feel.

I think I shall just disappear for a while.

A happening weekend?

Now a days when the weekend rolls around I just wana lie down on my bed at home and sleep and not go out.

This weekend was relatively happening where I forced myself to go out although all I wanted to do was just lie down

Friday night tong n I went to jurong east to eat 1.50 sushi! Thanks tong!

Sat while tong went for ippt, my uncle n aunt was nice enough to pick me up, and I stopped by to say hi to grandma. Then we went for lunch with 6 of my aunts and 1 cousin. Aunty anita, shona, laura, swee yee, rita, esther. I took the train home coz there was no space in the car.

Went to tong's place. I just wanted to lie down. But we went out for dinner with his family at novena's soup spoon.

At night we played horror games with his sister. I screamed so loudly when the monster approached I was worried that his mum would wake up. The game glitched so the 3 of us we just watched the video guide instead of playing the game..

After that was some ff.. unlocking more content..

Sunday rise n shine to my paper's love hunt! We met mel n xm at bugis at 12.30. Run run run. Share answers.  It wasnt tiring running around bugis + & bugis junction. What really exhausted me was when we ran up the escalator when it broke down =_= oh and we ate a really nice cinnamon bun for free. And I got new earphones!  Yay! But the goodie bag.. it sucked. We were 18th position out of 80. Mel n xm were 20+. With our their help we really wouldn't have made it so quickly.  It ended 6+ =_=

Went back to tongs place n took the bus home. I tell u the journey was 1 hr + coz I waited 1/2 an hour for the bus T-T washed ray's cage, bathed, had dinner..

Then it was time for our ff raid! Quite sad coz seems like zepo will b leaving us.. sigh.. but t8 down! Just need t9.

Wintery joined our fc! After showing her around,  I took a quick 15 min nap.. and headed to nisha's house... for world cup finals!

I was so tired.. and neither side scored.. even at the 90 min mark.. they went into overtime.. after I fell asleep, there was a goal! Thankfully my 3 friends screamed so loudly I woke up.
And got to watch the replay.. then I zzzz again.. until I woke up to them kissing and hoisting the trophy..

Fun stuff.  Fun stuff.. zzzzzz

Maybe I should blog more

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what's the truth

Hey _____! thanks :)  your message really means alot to me :)

Numbers are a tiresome game.. we need more people so that they can raid coz of the weekly lockout.. but.. im so scared that this will happen again.. i genuinely liked them.. and hoped that we could all be friends.. I never imagined that we were so insignificant to them that they would leave us, and the linkshell as well... and everything that they said or did suddenly all feel like lies..  and i'm surprised by how hurt i feel that they left.. one by one too, giving me hope that maybe one of them would stay.. but they all left anyway.. and when privately i asked them why they either told me a beautiful lie or hinted at something sinister...

But i'll listen to your words.. and try to only think of the good things.. and forget the bad.. and be strong :)

take care ______:D all the best for ur studies! thanks for caring :) means alot to me!

I wish

I wish I had nvr met you.

Then I would never have invested my time and effort in you.

Then it wouldn't hurt when all 11 of you left.

Some people are selfish.

Other people are gullible.

You must have said horrible things about us in your personal chat group for the whole group to turn against us.

Liars, cheats, ingrates. I cant believe what your selfishness have led you to become.

I feel utterly betrayed.

I think about those good times together and i wonder if it was all lies.

And it doesnt make sense because I have never met any of you in person other than hearing ur voice.

But still it hurts.

Emo nemo

You make me ask myself if its about me or its about the money

Mr guru

I met my old fav teacher mr guru!

He still looks exactly the same!!! Still tall n cool:D

Then I was asking him if he still drove his motorcycle.  He said no. And I told him I rmb that he used to ride it and everybody though that it was cool!

Hope I didnt come across as obsessive compulsive!  >.< and freak.him out or sth.

But still!  So cool!!

Chiho.. where are u?

My guild recruited this guy one day. He just popped out of no where. We just got our house so we were really excited and all when he offered to help with the furniture. He kept buying stuff using gil and we kept trying to stop him from spending his gil. But he still went ahead to buy the furniture.  The house looked awesome because of him!

Then one day at 6am, he just left the guild! We tried looking for via the loadstone but we can't find him on our server, we tried the other servers but we cant find him on any of the servers in FF. And its not possible to that he changed his name. We asked our guidies but no one remembers how he joined or whose friend he was!

We miss him! And his furniture is still here.

Did he disappear because he was banned? How can we find out?