Why you should never let vanity sizing affect your self esteem:

http://www.blisstree.com/2012/10/02/beauty-shopping/vanity-sizes-body-image-308/

This post says it all

The size you wear can have a big affect on your body image and self-esteem. Marcy Guevara, a plus-size style expert who regularly contributes to Marie Claire and other publications, told me, “It’s amazing how my clients are psychologically affected by the number on their clothing! Some stores in specific regions (like LA) won’t even carry larges because women would rather squeeze into the medium!  Vanity sizing has created an illusion for women and creates brand loyalty.” In other words, if you wear a size two at American Apparel and a six at Urban Outfitters, chances are you’ll shop at American Apparel, where the number on the tag makes you feel better about your body.

Read more: http://www.blisstree.com/2012/10/02/beauty-shopping/vanity-sizes-body-image-308/#ixzz2LWMIidte

You know i dream in colour

but when you are around it's like it's technicolour

Then when you are gone it feels like a black and white film

Time moves slower

Pain hits harder

sounds are muffled

it gets harder to breathe

when will you save me from this misery

i just watched a very interesting video on plastic surgery...

national.geographic.taboo.beauty.hdtv.xvid-diverge from Docu Lector on Vimeo.

This topic has been pretty interesting recently not just because of the K pop wave, but because i recently realised that tons of Singaporean celebrities have done plastic surgery! Be it mediacorp artistes (did you notice that lee na xing's has botox?) (felicia chin had double eyelid surgery) or bloggers (xiaxue had 2 nose jobs, even miyake wong and yutaki had nose/chin/cheek fillers, botox to relax the jaw line) Even my older friends have gone for cosmetic procedures (freckle lightening) and my step mum has mentioned before to me that she wants to do it!

If you visit this website on tumblr, there's tons of before and after shots of koreans getting plastic surgery: http://kpsurgery.tumblr.com/

After looking at so many pictures, im suddenly very alert to whether ppl have had plastic surgery or not! There's just this look about them which sets them apart. Last time i was only aware of the botox-ed faces, but now, I can tell if they have had rinoplastery, jaw realignment surgery, nose job, fat grafts(all girls after fat grafts have chubby cheeks and forehead like dawn yang basically) If you're still not confident, an interesting way to challenge people who have had rinoplastery is to ask them to make a 'pig' face (where you push the tip of your nose up such that your nostrils show). They really cant do it coz of the hard implant! The bridge will also feel hard, like your knucle!

i ended up here from another singaporean blogger, eric lim who has had plastic surgery to get double eyelids. (That's the one surgery i cant tell if ppl have had but Dina said sth about how when they close their eyes the line is still there) He wanted a fat graft on his cheeks but the doctor told him that he didnt have enough fats to make nice cheeks. .. He even uploaded pictures of the before and after and with all the scaring and stiches and all. I have deep respect for his frankness and honesty! to me he is as interesting as a female version of xiaxue! http://therealericlim.blogspot.sg/2012/05/my-first-plastic-surgery-trip.html

anyway less about these bloggers and plastic people, and more about the video!

I found the video v scary!! It's by national geographic called "taboo bodies"

There was this lady who had chest implants and went from a "C" to a "G" and had an infection! (none of the american doctors wanted to give her such a size so she had to go to an unorthadox doctor in brazil) When the american doctor saw her, he cut a 3mm incision in her breasts to drain out the pus. One week later, the 3mm incision had grown to a 3cm diameter hole!!!!!!! I WAS SO FREAKED OUT!!! seriously!! you can see the implants through the hole!!! omg!!! I kept wondering how she wore her bras with that huge hole in her chest. wasnt it painful??? The doctor had to remove the implants to save her life. And when he removed them, there were two implants inside! it was the size of a basketball~!!

There was also a bit on this lady with aneroxia. She really looked like the walking dead. sunken cheeks, hollow eyes and all. although its really sad that she passed away, what she said will always stay with me.

"It doesn't matter what your body size is. as long as your are healthy, you are beautiful"

That really rang true for me. Perspectives should change! Health comes first! its not whether there's tons of calories in it, its more of whether it's good for me. She was a 27 year old, but her body looked like that of my 88+ year old grandma. She walked and talked just as slow too!


People who only eat 1 slice of bread should really rethink! its not about the calories! its more of  "are you getting the right amount of vitamins and nutrients that you need?"

Now im wondering how does crash diets and the  binge eating at buffets and cny n all tie into this mess that everyone seems to be in..

coz now the easiest topic to strike up with another girl is this "omg u r so slim! how do you maintain it?" Usually their answer is this "dont eat, gym much"

i should go around asking people "omg you dont fall sick at all! how do you maintain your health?"
but this isnt apparent until we are old and grey. and all of the health complications come up. Nvm i will ask all the fit healthy old people this! so far the fit and healthy old people i have met are on my "hikes" and they are EPIC!! how did they maintain their health? Seems like healthy eating and tons of walking. and they are like 60+ but they still can take part in standard charted 40km marathon! nyah~

dreams

I just kept crying and running in dreams
I was so sad the tears just kept rolling down my face
but when I woke up I didn't have a clue why
the place looked alot like woodlands mrt
just that it wasn't
a row of shops with grey flat tilled walls just stretched out before me as I ran
I was running home in my dream
suddenly I stopped
you know how dreams just phase shift suddenly?
one moment you are here, next moment you are there
and it makes perfect sense
when I saw the green fields and the grey path before me my dream
phase shifted then
and I turned and forgot all of my troubles
I was on the other side of woodlands mrt then
and it made perfect sense
I don't know how or why
but that path, led to a tunnel which
led down to a huge grey school

and now that the construction is almost complete
and the dust has finally lifted
I'm shocked to see the same grey tiles on the causeway point facade
and the row of shops below the MRT that lead to my side of woodlands
Smrt even announced that the mrt extension will lead to republic poly
ivh been inside just once last year
and I was shocked because

it's exactly the same as
when I walked out of my dream tunnel

it's only when I saw the shops that everything clicked into place

it's really as If this was my destined place

I saw in my dreams that I was going to be living here

now in my dreams whenever i see that one day i have to leave my chest is tight and heavy

maybe many other people out there are like me. just that when they see it they just keep it to themselves.

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When i look through all facebook photos..

i start to realise that 2011 was one of the most fantastic years so far

1) went Y camp, met shannon n jasmine, went clubbing many times w them
2) went on inspring india trip. made many fantastic singaporean friends. left behind fantastic indian friends. went clubbing in india! awesome!
3) went on inspiring india pre trip
4) graduated!!!
5) went to china with gary to visit clarice
6) went to batam with dina yq n shunfa
7) joined GAP where i made tons of happenning friends and ex colleagues
8) celebrated 4th year anniversary..
9) PCN cycling trip!
10) visited swee choon for the first time
11) laksa steamboat!
12) ray and rabbits in city competition!
13) rebonded my hair
14) 23rd birthday, visit prive, keppel island
15) got drunk on beer for the first time in my life. think we drank 6 or 7 towers that night.
16) realised that i was too old to continue clubbing
17) visit marina bay sands hotel!
18) ate lots of intesting food thanks to groupon!
19) joined my first fitness classes! - boxercise, yoga! $30/3 months! cheap! staff benefits. :D public price is $40 however need to travel to changi though :(

2012..
i dont know what happened. It just passed. All i remember is sitting in my HR office feeling miserable. and waiting for my last day. when i finally left and joined my new company.. suddenly.. its 2013! damn. where did it go?? where did i go?? what did i do?? i feel as if the only gain i had in 2012 is the 10k in my bank account.. Is this what they mean when they say that when you look back on your life, you realise that work isnt everything to it?

loss

it's much quieter without you around
no longer do I have the sight of your bright eyes and cute white belly to brighten up my day
even orange Is more sullen without you around
loss is a funny thing
you can't help but keep quiet in the hope as you wait for the person to swim around
maybe he's just around the corner
a quiet part of yourself keeps expecting their arrival
quietly

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the three races

how can I best describe the differences between the 3 races descriptively to my kid
without sounding insulting?
here goes..
Is are like dark luxurious chocolate
Ms are like milk chocolate
Cs are like white chocolate. (it's true, white chocolate are quite yellowish too)
now.. I have ran out of types of chocolate for the rest.. aka the Ang mos.. hmmm..

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GTFOML

sometimes I really wish that I don't have you as my mum
sometimes I really wish that I could move on from this phase in my life and leave you behind
sometimes I just wish that you were normal like everyone else and I wallow in my misery

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proper apologies

proper apologies have 3 parts
1) what I did was wrong
2) I feel badly that I hurt you
3) how do I make this better?

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the weight of water

good book!

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