Words.. nothing but pointless worthless meaningless words..

I was very happy back then..
I liked to shine..
Now i just wana live life simply and get on by without too much attention..
What attention do i deserve when i am a simple girl
jane of all trades
master of none
under appreciated
understated
overrated
Do i miss the attention?
Why do i cry?
Why dont you understand me
understand my pain
Perhaps its because you come from a sheltered home
perhaps its because you have a perfect life
perhaps its because you tire of my sadness
As i grow older i grow sadder
I find much in this world to be sad about
Mindless plundering back stabbing aimless wandering
pointless destruction
Then when you reach the very top
Was it all worth it?
The quality of life at the very top
is not as good as it seems
Disappointment depresses
Maybe the grass is greener on the other side
there is something wrong with me
why am i so different
why do i feel incompetent
why is it that when i should feel useful, i feel taken advantage of instead
why is it that i find lesser and lesser things to smile for and be happy about
the simple pleasures in life
the sinple joys i adored
to lie under clear blue sky
to bask in the sun
to float in aquamarine waters
to lie in my room alone at night
to draw and read poetry
to live lives loved and lost
of tales of yonder
to listen to the crickets chirping and gaze at stars
feel the breeze brushing my face
the moonlight bathing my skin
marvel at the wonders of the universe
and comprehend how tiny and insignificant we are
to run for ever and never stop
never look back
why did you steal them away from me
superficial
materialistic
smart
educated
practical
technical
conceited
arrogant
pompous
efficient
skin deep
shallow
inconsiderate
self centered
self serving
egoistic
conceited
homogeneous
the portrait of an nus student
i never want to hurt again