I dont have a big mouth do i?

the only two times i can remember telling things i wasnt supposed to tell was when i was conned into telling something that i thought wasnt so important about something that was already in the past and over..

the other thing was that some uninvited guests turned up at a friends party just because i didnt state clearly enough to the person i was brining along that its for close friends only

T_T why me T_T

Today i cut ray ray's hair~

it was growing kinda long..

now he look so dashing! dun have the old main beard le! :D

i studied w jy n shunfa!!

it was fun! :D i guess!

and more productive then studying at home!

things actually went into my head! wow!

Today i went running w dina!

we sneaked into IJC!

it was.. erm.. strange? like.. its been so long since we last graduated!

almost nothing had changed! (except for the expensive tech equipment)

even the uncle telling us that the field closes at 7 was the same!

it was so familiar but unfamiliar at the same time..

nvm.. it was still a GOOD RUNNING SPOT!

lets go running again soon!

jy when u get better must join us ok!

ray ray u r getting heavier!

of course im happy coz there's more meat n fur to hug!

but im worried about obesity!

theres so much fur i cant tell!

O.O

ray ray u got smelly mouth n smelly butt!

maybe its time for a bath XD

i want the new john mayer ablum

battle studies

The feeling is exactly the same

where's my space

all the uninvited unexpected unwanted unannounced visitors

i want to get out

the crazy bitch wont leave me alone

sigh..

i didnt get through the jazz dance auditions.. but my friend did!

im happy for her! i knew i wouldnt get through!

but still i was hopeful.. ya...

i watched the video of us.. AND IM DAMN CHUIX! CAN SOMEBODY TELL ME HOW CHUIX I AM AGAIN!

The problem with me is that im a very selective person

i only give my "star treatment" to selective old friends that i think really really really deserve it

like u ought to know that ill do almost anything for you (except stupid things like if u say u wana commit suicide together)

but something that jy told me today made me almost change my mind

"i was so touched when XXXXX. den u rmb when at the end she XXX us too! I felt so bad that she treat me as friend, but i didnt think of her as a close friend!"

i think i just almost figured out what's missing! i keep giving "star treatment" to my old friends that i forget that the "new" ones exist! so maybe i should just treat everyone just like i treat my close friends then ill suddenly have a million friends!

i only dont have problems with "newest friends" who i give "star" treatment (which isnt the real deal coz im only doing that coz im trying to become their friends!) (eh u will get the "star treatment" if i think that you are really one of my friends! not that uber friendly smile i plaster on my face for new people)

the only problem is that they become too close for comfort then i scoot! (ok ivh just met u for 2 weeks and talked to you online for 5 times.. how come you are calling me at ungodly hours? huh! whats this about us being best friends? omg!) ok maybe my problem is that im not really interested in making best friends at uni? its like ivh got all the best friends ill ever need in the world from my primary, secondary n jc already! :D

argh.. nvm...

WHO WANTS A FISH HUG?

ytd ray ray was damn noisy i cannot sleep!

cannot figure out why! i even had to bang on his cage to get him to keep quiet!

(but he very guai after i bang hardly make any noise, so i usually use it as a last resort)

den around 4am i woke up n realised why!

no more food! only left a bit of hay!

no wonder he so noisy!

den i give him food @ 4am in the morning den i went back to sleep..

ivh just watched 500 days of summer!!

and i thought it was a sad show! and its one of those movies that you watch finish and you are like "what it ended!?"

its not really sad? maybe bittersweet..

i feel so sad for the guy!!

maybe im still a big kid at heart. i want happy endings where the guy will kiss the girl and they will get back together and they will all live happily ever after.

i cant believe that she got married after 200+ days of "breaking up with him"

T_T

was quite affected by the movie.. so went hunting for clips..

ok big bunch of spoiler!

den i realised... what really affected me the most was the girl's flippant attitude towards relationships. how she wasnt really into it. and she wasnt into it when she was with him. and bam suddenly she's married to some other guy. and i could see how happy she was. and when she went to see him on the park bench, i was like.. hoping that she would get back with him! but it wasnt meant to be. why did she treat him like that and kiss him if it wasnt meant to be. and i was like. T_T poor guy! that girl is so mean to him! just playing with him. but that guy's face was like *-* when he was with her. how could it be. although the whole time i could tell that she wasnt so into him. i was so facinated by how a girl could treat a relationship so casually. I was like wow. And the part where she confessed to him on why she was suddenly married, it was like she herself was still stunned on how it happened. and she told him its coz she woke up one morning and suddenly it was there. she understood something important. and he asked her what. and she told him that it was the something that she had never felt when she was with him. and she told him its because of him that she has met her husband and now believes in the "love" and "fate" and things like that. but now he doesnt believe. she told him it does exist. its just that it wasnt with her that such things should exist with. its such inspiring food for thought. a new perspective. all people who are contemplating breakup should watch this! :D

and then i went online and there was this interview of her.. and from the way she talked i could tell she's actually the same as the rest of us girls. she was just a really good actress.

phew.

http://www.5min.com/Video/How-to-Break-Up-76182944

this is a great video!

i mean.. like.. when u got those friends who just broke up den v depressed! its great to show them XD

ivh always thought that ray ray was FAT

but now i realised, HE'S THIN!!

its just him getting a really thick coat!

coz i read online, they say u can tell if he's fat from his spine. if you run along his spine n u can feel it, he's thin!

but if u need to press through a layer of fat to feel it, he's just nice!

oh nooo! and i just started to be unable to feel his rib cage!

I ACTIVATED AUTO ROAM!

its free! (at least activation is. i think no monthly charge? not v sure)

china - sg sms 72c

incoming sms = free! (can sms me when im there! ill internet sms you!)

incoming call = 2.76c/minute

outgoing call - 3.30c/minute

SO EXPENSIVE!!

I ALSO BOUGHT CHEAPER TRAVEL INSURANCE!

its $61 as compared to $82!

the payoff if i die differs by about (150k vs 200k)

but i wont die right! :D

ill be gone from 6-26december!!

happy holiday mood!

whee~

if only it wasnt a mood..

if only it was real T_T

THANK U SOTONG FOR THE SOTONG BALLS!!

THANKS FOR COMING TO WOODLANDS TODAY!!

FISH LOVES SOTONG BALLS!!

FISH LOVES SOTONG!!

BUY MORE FOR ME CAN? =P

<3

ray ray has The Vienna gene and the The Dilute gene!

http://www.welshrabbitry.com/rabbitfaq.html#hybrid

got two people keep talking in chinese outside my window!

very noisy so i went to complain to my mum

she said they are from china

and that they live on the 11th floor but always come to 12th floor to talk!

she went outside to chase them away!

she said "go talk downstairs"

den she come back in say tmr will have paint on the walls =.=

izit just me or is ray ray getting fat?

more exercise for him!!

i think its time to cut down on the food!

i love it when ray ray just woke up and he stretches and yawns!

so cute!!

kyah!!

tiny teeth!!

tiny feet!!

kyah!!

cute!!

ray ray is so cute

he's sitting on his toilet bowl pooping for the last 5 minutes

and every few seconds i can hear "thuck.. thuck.. thuck"

thats the sound of his poop hitting the toilet bowl!

his expression is so cute!!

*must force the poop out - constipated - expression *

grandfather is cute!

http://i344.photobucket.com/albums/p355/LilleJente/Signatures/siggie.jpg

im so happy at night it must be criminal XD

i had fun going w dina n shunfa for supper!

we ate nice ee-mee!

shunfa had muifan (first time i see!)

and we had "cheap thrills!"

shunfa spent 20c on some card

and i spent 10c on some game, and 20c on another game!

so cheap!!!

I dont know what i did wrong

I dont know why my own son chased me out of my house

He still go and throw away all my things

-flashback - if he want to throw, throw lah-

I will go buy a new house and bring you to stay with me

They dont love him the way we do. thats why he changed

He is not theirs we cant expect them to love him

last time he was fine

I will go buy a new house and bring you to stay with me. you jie jie n me ok.

shut up words get out of my head

Why must i go through this over and over again

what gives the likes of you (banks, uncles, fathers) the right to take the homes of people away from them

i got bitten by a dog today!

in my whole life's history.. i got bitten by animals.. but.. never this serious o.o!

and they like never really meant it..

like its swelling and the puncture mark is bleeding a bit..

1.5cm by 3cm mark.. o.o

stupid dog..

thanks sotong n jy...

sometimes chatting and playing helps me to forget and feel a bit better each night

me n eunice were talking

and suddenly i miss my "pa"

where did he go?

there are some very contradicting things about me

I hate that feeling heightened awareness of that presence near by that i feel obliged to talk to but i actually really need to be doing my work and being alone

I hate unexpected, uninvited, self invited, guests who turn up at my doorstep

I hate it when these guests talk loudly and are inconsiderate

I hate it when these guests are here to see other people not me, but i feel constantly obliged to go talk to them and entertain them when i really need to be doing my own things

I hate the telephone which always rings and on the line is people who are asking me to do things for them they can just directly ask themselves

I hate it when they sound annoyed on the phone when its not my bloody problem

Why do i have to oblige and help you when you dont help me

But at the same time i get really lonely when im left all alone

but with ray ray im perfectly happy and i wish this peace could last forever

where did the peacefulness and happiness go

why cant they leave me alone

its so hard to smile anymore

i just wasted 3minutes 58 seconds of my life.

next time ill wait for somebody else to answer the damn phone

maybe ill even let it ring

im sick of ferrying your questions to other people for you

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something from my blueberry nights that made perfect sense to me

Jeremy: From my observations, sometimes it's better off not knowing, and other times there's no reason to be found.

Elizabeth: Everything has a reason.

Jeremy: Hmm. It's like these pies and cakes. At the end of every night, the cheesecake and the apple pie are always completely gone. The peach cobbler and the chocolate mousse cake are nearly finished... but there's always a whole blueberry pie left untouched.

Elizabeth: So what's wrong with the blueberry pie?

Jeremy: There's nothing wrong with the blueberry pie. Just... people make other choices. You can't blame the blueberry pie, just... no one wants it.

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suddenly people's facebook profiles are intellectual XD

my mum is a crazy bitch.

period