Many years ago i said i lived my life without regrets and i loved every day

a bit older now, but still non the wiser.. there are now things i regret..

Like that interview this week

Like cutting off all of my hair that time

Like not bothering to be friendly

Like joining NUS (but then i wouldn't have met yingqi!)

Life is not a popularity contest, but i realised that professionalism is being distant, but friendly at the same time. how on earth do you do that, while being distant? I just cant. I get too friendly and then i get hurt. Or i stay too distant and never make any friends.

But like sotong said. what is this kind of friendship worth?

So i realised, i should just say hi, be uber friendly, and not let them affect me. But how can one be uber friendly, and make it seem gunine, without it coming from the heart?

It looks like im not good enough at being a fake person.

why do i have to become a fake person just because i have to grow up?

ugh i hate the thought of becoming an adult and having to enter the working world.

where everyone is "professional" and speaks with some american accent.

I just dont understand adults. How to connect with them.