No more

Had enough of being a third class citizen
Being treated like I dont exist
Being told things indirectly
Why cant you just tell me things directly?
Why do you have to treat me like im just an attachment
The free gift
The dispensable one
The unwanted, uninvited guest

And even you dont act like you want me around
Make me feel like im a burden a chore
the undesirable responsibility

Im already treated like this by everyone else
Then you walk off and leave me all alone at the back
You say that you want to spend time with them
You are confused  on who you should place first
But if you too dont involve me
Who will
I dont have anyone else with me

My only 'companion' was already taken from me
All it took was a 'You dont have me in your heart any more' for her to be at your side and hold your hand

This subtle politics is getting to me
It has wounded me so bad
I'm doubting everything I ever had

So
I trail along at the back
The outsider
All alone
Regretting  ever coming along

Maybe all you ever wanted was just to spemd time with them
You dont need me here
I wished so earnestly to go home

Maybe you dont want to spend time with me
Its always the qn of what do you want
Rather than that u want to see me

Feeling
Just so miserable and alone suddenly