I wish

I wish I had nvr met you.

Then I would never have invested my time and effort in you.

Then it wouldn't hurt when all 11 of you left.

Some people are selfish.

Other people are gullible.

You must have said horrible things about us in your personal chat group for the whole group to turn against us.

Liars, cheats, ingrates. I cant believe what your selfishness have led you to become.

I feel utterly betrayed.

I think about those good times together and i wonder if it was all lies.

And it doesnt make sense because I have never met any of you in person other than hearing ur voice.

But still it hurts.

Emo nemo

You make me ask myself if its about me or its about the money

Mr guru

I met my old fav teacher mr guru!

He still looks exactly the same!!! Still tall n cool:D

Then I was asking him if he still drove his motorcycle.  He said no. And I told him I rmb that he used to ride it and everybody though that it was cool!

Hope I didnt come across as obsessive compulsive!  >.< and freak.him out or sth.

But still!  So cool!!

Chiho.. where are u?

My guild recruited this guy one day. He just popped out of no where. We just got our house so we were really excited and all when he offered to help with the furniture. He kept buying stuff using gil and we kept trying to stop him from spending his gil. But he still went ahead to buy the furniture.  The house looked awesome because of him!

Then one day at 6am, he just left the guild! We tried looking for via the loadstone but we can't find him on our server, we tried the other servers but we cant find him on any of the servers in FF. And its not possible to that he changed his name. We asked our guidies but no one remembers how he joined or whose friend he was!

We miss him! And his furniture is still here.

Did he disappear because he was banned? How can we find out?

I feel like

Where ever I go im surrounded by screaming people

I wish everyone would just shut up and give me some peace so I can do my work!!!

The image we portray

I guess it can be said that im a very strange person?
When im better off then others I feel bad and would like to share what I can with others?
If it cant be shared I will just downplay what I have so that it seeks like im the same as others. Im not somebody who likes boasting or flaunting or showing off what I have,  I just feel Embarassed.

Unless its something that I have really worked very hard for.

I dont feel proud that I earn more money than my colleagues who have worked many more years than me
Its just that they were not as fortunate to have the chance to pursue a degree
I play it down and always say that im veey poor.

But sometimes I realised that this gets in my way sometimes. 

For example when I was having the massage and the nice masusues was talking to me, and telling me about how she earns less than 2k, I shouldn't hav felt bad and played down how much I earn. In the service industry they would want to serve the rich and famous,  not the poor and desolate. Her attitude was still good but not as conscientious after that.

Im still wondering about how I should have asked eveshi personally if he wanted to keep the crop instead of telling him id put it in the guild chest. Think ill pm him later tonight. .

Just leaving work

Im just leaving office

Did something wrong. Felt ashamed? Embarassed? Im not sure how to describe this feeling? Indignant?  Upset?  At myself? How could I have made this mistake!

Saw my cep tumbling from the sky. So awkward.

I gotta buck up!

Asked myself what are my priorities in life.

When im on my death bed will I regret not thrashing that monster once more??

Or earlier in life,  when im in need of money,  will I regret working hard on the wrong things (ff) and not my career n not having enough to last my lifetime?

Im priotising ff, exercise (yoga), work, but actually it should be the other way round.

Especially when they left. A game cant replace friendship. You are just in a party coz its compulsory.  Some of these friendships may not even make it beyond the guild.  I may nvr c these ppl my whole life. What's the most important then?

My boss said this :

Do it once, do it right!

Can be interpret  ed in so many ways

1) To do it only once, you gotta do it right! - motivation to do it once
2) if u do it right, you only gotta do it once - motivation to do it right

Which motivation is right? 

Well I find the phase itself motivating.

I knew

I knew I was right when I had this sad wistful feeling

And I knew that good times like this wouldn't last

Omg hrms boss

Hrms boss is so cute

Staff was complaining seriously to hrms boss about vital
'U know ar the idiot keep telling me cannot see the records.  I tell him so many times. Click display. He keep saying display cannot see. But can view. *wtf expression* can press view liao means can see record right?? Its the same thing!! Still want me to extract the record for them n spoon feed them' *very exasperated*

Boss *thinks seriously* 'ah ok. I think I know what is the problem liao. It can only be one thing. That vital officer must be blind. So what you must do now, is you write to vital and check with them, on whether officer is blind." *very serious analytical,  matter of fact tone*

Omg I couldn't stop laughing!!!!!

This really made my day

Only..

Only a few ppl really care.. the rest are just curious..