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Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Friendship

But shuttling back and forth between them, I could see that for all their harsh words—over the past decade, they’ve only dug in their heels—they still missed one another. Each, I noticed, teared up at references to the other. Perhaps, when no one is looking—or taking any pictures—they’ll yet come together again. And if they can, maybe, so too, can we.

I teared up. But did you? I guess im the only one doing the missing and who was wounded and was the fool. But ivh moved on from you

What should a person do when everything appears to be going wrong in their life?

I remember a day in the 1990s when I found myself looking at my computer and seeing I had just lost $280,000 in the stock market. That was pretty much all the money I had, and it was irrecoverable, With a shaking hand I turned my computer off, left work, and started driving. And driving. And driving. I had no direction. I just drove and as long as I drove I didn't have to think about all that lost money. Eventually I found myself in Mystic, Connecticut and I decided to stop in at Mystic Pizza and have a slice. I remember as soon as the hot cheese hit the roof of my mouth, the bubble burst and all those repressed feelings came flooding in.

"You fucking moron," I thought, "why did you buy that stock? Why didn't you sell it when it started to go down? Why are you so stupid? If only you'd have pulled out earlier! All that money... gone.... gone... gone...."

I almost puked up all the pizza. I was a wreck.

Later as I drove home, I realized a couple of things. The first was, I wasn't hungry and I wasn't going to be hungry. I had a good job and I would be getting paid next week. My mortgage was up to date. The money I lost was all about ego. It wasn't about my happiness or even my survival, at least not at that moment. I went home and thought about my life and not the money. After thinking about it for a long term, I decided the following:

Breathe - as Mr Miyagi says in "The Karate Kid", "No have breath, no have life". So keep breathing. 

2. Have a big glass of water. When things are bad, water is cheap and it helps keep you healthy, and your health is your biggest asset. If you're already sick, water is one of the best medicines.

3. Go for a walk. Again, it's cheap. You don't even have to buy sneakers to walk. It clears your head, gets the blood flowing, helps your health. And the motion will give you the perception of action. You can't do everything but you can do something and this is a something you can do almost anytime, anywhere. 

4. Forgive yourself. You're going to be stuck with yourself for a long, long time. So say you are sorry for the actions that made you fail or for the circumstance of failure and never, ever, ever say, "You're a moron, you idiot, you jerk" etc. You wouldn't tolerate being called names by someone else, why would you do it to yourself? Never, ever, ever cut yourself down. And the word sorry doesn't absolve you of responsibility - it's not magic. You have to resolve to learn from your mistakes and make restitution in some fashion. That means making a plan and taking positive action.

5) Forget about regret. Instead of saying "If only I (fill in the blank)" say instead, "Next time I will (fill in the blank)" You can't change a thing about the past - ever. So focus on improving your future life instead. Every single thing you do today is preparing you for the life you will live tomorrow.

6) Let the deluge wash over you and stand tall. A ship in a storm doesn't try to run from the storm. It turns into the waves and lets them wash over it. Sometimes those waves cause damage, but eventually they pass. When the shitstorm is coming, when the trouble comes, stand up tall, paste a smile on your face, and let it wash over you til it dissipates. Nothing good lasts forever and neither does anything bad and if it is bad, it's got to change. Remember: this too shall pass. 

7) If you have to get angry, do it, but then get over it -- and don't take your anger out on others or, god forbid, your hapless pets. Have a hissy fit, break a plate or two but when you wake up, move the hell on. It's over and too late to change the past.

8) Accept, accept, accept. Many people end up destroying their lives because they can't change the past and they can't get over the damage. You have to accept what has happened. Seriously, this may the most important of all the points (other than drinking some water). Sit back and just accept things as they are, not the way you wish them to be. Forget about silly notions like "fairness". The universe is inimical and doesn't care about poetic justice, or fairness, or right and wrong. Sometimes things happen just because. Get used to it. 

9) Keep moving. As Churchill once said, "When you're going through hell, don't stop!". Sometimes motion is its own answer. Getting stuck in a rut or not moving at all is a big danger.If you do what you always did you will get what you always got, so keep moving and if that's not working, do something completely out of character for you, something random, something unexpected. You're scared? Good. If you aren't scared, you aren't trying hard enough or taking enough risks or learning something new. As Muhammed Ali said once, "Being knocked to the mat doesn't make you a failure, but staying down does. To be a champion, all you have to do is get up and fight for just one more round."

10) Let time do its healing. Everything heals. You will too. 

So what did I do after losing all that money? I bought a vacation house. By doing that I scared myself into taking action and I also signalled to myself that success was still possible, that there was still hope. Not long after my disaster, I took another job. the new company got bought and I made millions.

Monday, January 19, 2015

Best Read Ever

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Because there are many forms of intelligence we must address within ourselves to find balance, not just logical intelligence.  

 For example, the fact that no accomplishment is really enough for your boyfriend indicates that he is driven relentlessly by the need to achieve.  But there is an emotional component to this he is not addressing.  He is holding beliefs about himself in his subconscious, having to do with issues of self worth, as well as where true happiness comes from.  His behavior usually indicates that he feels he is only a valuable human being if he is achieving.  It is the act of achieving that is never enough.  It doesn't even have a lot to do with what he achieves.  When do we have enough self worth?  

Those 'real things' that he equates with true success are a way in which he diminishes is own accomplishments by comparison because he thinks those 'real things'  are what truly make a person all that he thinks he's not.  The sad truth for him is, that were he to accomplish all of those 'real things', he would be as unhappy as he is today.  Why do you suppose people who have accomplished so much and 'have it all', end up overdosing or committing suicide?  There are several reasons.  They realize how hard it is to emotionally handle the weight of their success.  But this is the big, number one reason:They get it all, and that hole inside is still there!  Nothing, not fame, fortune, or accomplishment changed a sensation of feeling alone, unfulfilled, unhappy, or that there is something else, but now that they have everything, what is it?   IT is truth, and the fact that their true needs and motivations were not addressed.  They just kept accomplishing more, getting more, and feeling more of the same.  This is how the world teaches us a great many things.

Your boyfriend is suffering from an 'illusion', a mirage in the desert that he will never be able to reach because the mirage is not what he is really longing for.  It is a pervasive sense of self worth, inner peace, and equality he seeks.  It is self love, self respect, and a feeling of belonging on a very deep level that he longs for.  So you see, understanding this is another form of intelligence that he has yet to grasp.

All of this being said, the one thing that can bring him clarity and peace is for him to become acutely aware of what is really going on in his mind, and how relentlessly driven he is by seeking in the world what only he can provide.

I would suggest a therapist to help him come to terms with why he is so driven.  He has a huge mis-perception of what a 'real accomplishment' is.  He is disillusioned via comparisons of himself relentlessly to those whom he feels have reached what he thinks he NEEDS.   That need can be filled by the simplest things when a person realizes what the real dynamic is, and comes to terms with it. His life will be enough, when HE is enough. This is a truth we must all face without exception.  

Right now, he is worthy of all he desires.  He is now who he would be if he accomplished everything he desired.  That is the precise reason that no accomplishment will make on iota of a difference to the real issue.   When he heals his belief in self lack and unworthiness, it won't matter what he does, he will be that person, not a person stretched around a big hole.

Right now he is equal to all beings.  Right now he is important, and deserves self respect, joy, and peace.  He has done enough right now.  He IS enough, right now.  It is not in what you DO, it is in who you know yourself to BE.  

When he gets clear about that, a huge weight will be lifted from his shoulders.  He can go on to accomplish what he pleases, and he will feel successful and happy in those accomplishments, not bummed and driven more and more and more to another shining carrot he can't reach.

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Such a fool

I left my work laptop at home!!!! Omg worst nightmare come true!!!!!

Tuesday, January 06, 2015

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Treasure

Treasure them. They might not be as educated or knowledgable as you. But they have been around long enough to figure out what matters. Listen to them while they can still tell tales and still remember.

Friday, December 26, 2014

Belief

I wrote Dwayne’s words in the margin of the picture out of fear that one day I may forget them. It had an unexpected effect. I looked at the photo of all of those 5-year-old faces standing in front of Jefferson Davis Elementary, surrounded by the words: “It is always easier to want to believe in something than to say it never was true.” It became a grim school motto.

Dwayne’s proverb warned about false prophets and the mechanism they use to enter our lives. His wisdom still shook me to the core—but then again, he was 6. I put the paper down on the little broken bedside table and turned out the light.

As I began to drift off, I had a passing thought: We often find things when we need them. Maybe all the scraps of paper Mom had saved over the years weren’t a product of her nuttiness at all but were meant for me to unearth every now and then as some sort of amulet of protection.

I sat up in the dark. I turned on the light and looked at the class picture again. Truth operates in an opposite curve from conspiracy. The further one gets from conspiracy the more preposterous it looks, while distance only gives the truth more clarity. I saw something new. Buried in Dwayne’s words: “It’s always easier to want to believe in something than it is to say it never was true”—was also hope. Dwayne was saying the ability to believe is always present, always available. Belief gives us a power to see beyond the obvious. In the face of loss or disappointment, it is the source of renewal and endurance, the foundation of the science of second chances.

I was momentarily startled by a night noise. Now I recognized it as the central heat kicking in. Knowledge is the ultimate protection against the dark. But I admit I laughed when I realized my first thought was to wonder how Eye the Monster was doing.

I lay back down and closed my eyes. In an instant I was with Dwayne about to cross the street on that cold afternoon before Christmas. He laughed and put his hand on my shoulder. We looked both ways and ran across the street to Daughtery’s Drugstore. I felt like I was in one of the good bedtime stories. I went to sleep and had pleasant dreams.

Thursday, October 30, 2014

Enfp

Same old brand new me

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Sometimes I think that ivh changed since jc. I put on a afacade at work. I try to be someone im not. But deep down inside. Still the same old but brand new me.

Enfp
ENFP - THE INSPIRER
Extraverted - Intuitive - Feeling - Perceiving

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FAMOUS ENFPs:

Oscar Wilde, Mark Twain, Salman Rushdie, Julian Assange, Walt Disney, Anne Frank, Fidel Castro, Keira Knightley, Jack White, Ellen DeGeneres, Orson welles, Robin Williams, Gwen Stefani, Sandra Bullock, Sarah Michelle Gellar, Daniel Radcliffe, Sharon Stone

PERCENTAGE OF ENFPs AMONG POPULATION

8.1%

 
ENFP - DESCRIPTION

ENFPS are warm, enthusiastic people who can become very passionate and excited about things. Their enthusiasm give them the ability to inspire and motivate others.

They are typically very bright and full of potential, their love for life make them strive to make the most out of everything. They are good at most things which interest them and any task they undertake, they find it easy to talk their way in or out of anything. ENFPs are very likely to pursue several different careers during their life.They may seem directionless and without purpose to others but they actually know how to keep consistent as long as what they do is in line with their values. ENFPs needs to feel they are living their lives according to their true selves and that they are doing what they believe is right. They will constantly strive to achieve inner peace and keep their enthusiasm. They are generally intense people who rarely lose touch with themselves and possess a strong and highly evolved system of personal value.

ENFPs need to focus on following through with the projects they start. Unlike other extroverted types, ENFPs need to spend some time alone to center themselves and step back and look the overall picture. Some ENFPs may fall into the habit of dropping a project as soon as they get excited about a new possibility.

ENFPs sometimes make serious errors in judgment. They quite easily perceive the truth about someone or something thanks to their great intuition, but when applying judgment to their perception, they may fail jumping at the right conclusions.

ENFPs have exceptional social skills. They are truly interested in people and place great importance on their interpersonal relationships. Because ENFPs have a strong need to be liked, they can sometimes "overdo" in order to win others's acceptance. But growing older generally help ENFPs to balance their need to be true to themselves and their need to be accepted, turning them into individuals that bring out the best in others. Their great intuition and flexibility with people make them very likable. ENFPs are very good at manipulating people because they find it very easy to talk anyone into or out anything they want. However most of them would not abuse this skill since it would not jive with their value systems.

ENFPs neglect details of everyday life and rather focus on possibilities. They would very happily skip any maintenance-type tasks which can be quite frustrating for ENFPs' family. Because ENFPs get quickly bored with everything, they have hard times overcoming difficulties in their relationships, specially marital ones. However they strong sense of values will keep many of them committed to their relationships. They simply need to find people that can adapt changes and new experiences that will bring the excitements ENFPs need.

ENFPs are happy people who get unhappy when they are confined to strict schedules or mundane tasks. To avoid this kind of situations, ENFPs should find a work position that give them a lot of flexibility, where they can work with people and ideas. They do not need a lot of supervision as they are quite productive and get easily excited about what they are doing. They place great importance into independence and freedom of opinion and hate controlling others.

As a conclusion, ENFPs are definitely charming, ingenuous, risk-taking and people-oriented individuals. They will successfully use their gifts to fulfill themselves and those near them, as long as they are able to remain centered and follow through on their ambitions.

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Tuesday, October 14, 2014

How to be likable

8 for me
11 for elicia
12 13 to remember
14 I need