keep having cravings recently~

i want sharks fin soup from the pasarmalam @ woodlands!

so sad that im not going to be in woodlands until end of next week!

hopefully pasar malam stays until end of next week!!

sharks fin soup!

i love you!!!!

DO NOT USE M1 broadband wireless internet service! IT HAS TERRIBLE HORRIBLE LOUSY CONNECTION SPEED AT WOODLANDS AREA! IT COMPLETELY CANNOT MAKE IT!

when i first sign up for it, they say its super compatible with fujitsu laptop. and compatible with windows vista.
my laptop is fujitsu laptop running on windows vista and it was barely half a year old.
i bring home. cant install. no-installation cd. they cant detect the installation program, neither can they detect the modem. cant work.
i bring to cwp branch. the csc tempered with my laptop for 1 hour also cannot work. tell me to go down to main branch at IMM. -1st time @ m1 shop @ imm-
i bring to IMM queue for 1 hour. then i leave my laptop there for 5 mins they call me back say its fixed le. say its something to do with my firewall.

are the outlet staff incompetent or what?

then i bring home. at first the speed is ok. (Note this was during december 07)

as the weeks went by it get slower and slower.

SOMETIMES SLOW UNTIL I CANT EVEN OPEN WEBPAGE. I KEEP RESTARTING MY COMPUTER to just get it to work. load 1 webpage -only words without graphics- 10 MINS. better still, web browser keep saying im not connected to internet when m1 modem says i am connected.

so i brought it down to M1 shop and repair. -2nd time-

test try- at shop v fast - v happy bring home-

at home. speed slow. i call and complain. -load 1 page 3 mins- eh i just bring to shop and fix u say my laptop got problem? wtf? then they say my internet connection speed slow.

i went to shop upgrade to 3 mbps. they say will activate at 12 mn

happily waited- 12 mn- still take 3 mins to load 1 page- i tot maybe havent activate yet.

tahna 1 week. cant take it i went back to shop to complain.

they fix my laptop and i tried it at the shop. it was really fast. i bring home. quite fast. then i plug out my modem and keep

next day plug back in. -SLOW until CMI- even slower then my previous internet speed! i thought using dial up 56k modem was faster then this!!


i went back to shop to complain. -4th time bringing my modem and laptop alll the way down to M1 shop @ IMM- beside me alot of people bring laptop compain internet is slow also.

THE CUSTOMER SERVICE OFFICER SERVING ME TOLD ME HIMSELF THAT THE wireless INTERNET IS CHUIX. HE TOLD ME TO SIGN UP FOR a fixed line like SINGTEL AND GIVE UP trying to use m1.

after he fix and at the shop i try, its fast again. but when i bring home, its slow.

i called to complain. they told me maybe its the area too densely popluated with M1 users. they will run some satelite check to upgrade the service if i still find it slow. the satelite upgrade will take 1 month.


5 months of LOUSY INTERNET SERVICE has passed.


i couldnt take it i went to sign up for singtel.

its really fast and really good.


THE WORST PART ABOUT M1
after i canceled my subsctiption after the 6 months had passed,
they made me pay for a bill in advance for the following month.
the bill was for 30 something dollars. after i cancelled my subscription i was so happy i chucked the bills into the dustbin. they promised me a refund on a prorated basis because i had only used that month's subscription for 2 days.

i kept chasing M1 for my refund, but they told me that it was standard procedure to only refund me 3 months from cancellation. i was unhappy but i accepted this fact.


now they cook up some story about how the bill is from duno what date to duno what date and can only refund me $2 of my 30 dollars! i cant find any supporting documents and when i called the hotline the customer service officer called choley was very rude and kept interrupting what i was saying and telling me that their company records did not have records of me making a further payment.


in short,

i tolerated a lousy internet service of loading speed 3 mins on average per page for 6 months
internet speed is slowest during 8-11pm.
its only half decent between 3am to 12pm
i use 1/2 way, esp during playing games, it keep disconnecting half way. then i get killed by monster.. T_T
I called their customer service hotline - when u are customer they are very nice to you- more then 12 times in the previous 6 months
personally went down to the M1 branch @ imm 4 times and the branch @ cwp 2x in that 6 months to resolve problems with the internet service-but none of my problems got resolved.
and i couldnt take it then i cancelled my subscription in the end because the internet connection speed would never increase even though i upgraded the speed.

i dont know if other people faced the same problems as me but im just writing my super long complaint to warn other people about the potential problemsfaced when using this service.

im going to post everything i said there about m1 in a forum!!!

i found my old favourite song!!

actually i found the japanese version then i couldnt remember if i ever heard the english version before..

this is the ONE AND ONLY anime song which the english version is A MILLION TIMES BETTER THEN JAP!

listen & enjoy! ^^

http://www.imeem.com/fuckeduppriestess/music/BlnBpRLd/minako_honda_lullaby_yasashiku_dakasete/ --> jap

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y0K34CmmknA&feature=related --> english


this one is a bit side track but the AMV sync the dancing until super good!

dancing

why are you so mad?

its none of your business so get lost

yes but im curious

its everything so shut up! everything! everything pisses me off!
those people.. those people! and them!.. and you too! everything, absolutely everyone, i hate them all!

They treat people like garbage,

when its them who are the trash

even though there's nothing special about them!

it would be better if everyone of you would just die! die! die! go to hell! disappear! go break down!

but you want them to care about you right? you want them to turn around and notice you right?

These people.. you want to be given a purpose right?

you want them to listen to you.. to understand you.. to react to you..

you want to be loved right?

that is the way i am...

The thing i want to ask myself most is... how did i get this way.. did i make a wrong turn somewhere? was i wrong about something? im sad.. im lonely.. to other people.. i wanted to be somebody who could be loved and is loved.. but still this is the only person i could become..

Then i realised.. no matter what time it is.. im still such a foolish person.. no matter what i was never lost.. i just couldnt find my answer..

The world doesnt need me.. i will.. for the people who need me.. carry living on..

I read this off somewhere..

no wonder i burst into tears when kim talked to me about mapp.. i feel so silly for having done so.. its just that i felt as if for the first time on earth.. somebody really understood how i felt.. somebody else was like me.. i wondered for a bit.. if he was the same kind of person i was.. that he had gone through the same thing i did.. i had hope that there would be some kind of end.. a happy one.. to this devastation..

look! sushi pillows!
from http://www.cribcandy.com/

sushi candies!!

Im a lousy speaker

i speak too fast

i force information down peoples throat

and i dont bother to pause to see if you really understood what im saying

People think that im nervous when i speak really fast but my problem is that im confident thats why i speak so fast

and the worst part is that i didnt realise im speaking so fast

and i seem as if i have memorised what im saying even though its spontaeous

I dont have steady eye contact. My eye contact just flickers

And i appear to be standing and facing the wall without realizing it and even now in my memory i have only faces i stared at and no wall

I keep saying that its very important

but i didnt bother to slow down and make sure they understand this important thing

i just bounce around and try to grab everybody's attention

not on the subject matter but on me

And i tried to get it over and done with as quickly as possible

Im a lousy speaker

next time when i speak i have to speak slowly as if trying to explain something to a child and make sure that he/she really understands. Its because im supposed to make sure you understand. Its just that i expect this to be common knowledge so i just skim past it - you.
I will stare at you intently. Me teacher. You child. I dont need to be afraid of you. DO YOU UNDERSTAND THE WORDS THAT ARE COMING OUT OF MY MOUTH?
at least i dont have problems with volume anymore...

im just frustrated that i can never seem to do anything right recently anymore..

YouTube - Bright Shadow mmorpg

i liked the song! then i went to search!

i tot that she kept singing about how she wants everbody to know that

"you are gone"

and that she wants everybody the "beautiful name" of this person she loves

then i found out that its A CHRISTIAN SONG! *gasp*

and i misheard! its that she wants everybody to know that

"you are god"

sigh~

I dont know why but i find this funny

Father to son after exam: 'let me see your report card.'
Son: 'My friend just borrowed it. He wants to scare his parents.'

i seem to be losing pieces of myself recently..

i suddenly remembered i wanted spirited away soundtrack when i was in secondary school!
abiet in the funds and resources department to purchase one, i devised a way to convert the movie into an mp3 file to listen to soothe myself to sleep!

Then i love waltz pieces and jazz pieces as i was a kid.. Jazz was from all the hotel lounges where i (small pint sized thing) will sit there and enjoy a glass of (fizzy drink - coke?what else?) and pretend to be a high class lady.

waltz was from all those cartoons and a misty dream. I dreamt of music in my sleep and most of these were waltzes..

misty dream.. are you really my nightstar? maybe some day i shall tell you about him.. or have i already?

Even though we cant be together i can follow the memories
i want to experience that same happiness
i want to cry for my thoughts wont reach up to this sky
because this is the same beautiful sky we once gazed upon, i wont cry

Ai Otsuka, Planetarium's words sound alot like FFX theme song..
bad English but nostalgic and touching..

Reminds me of the time i sat below your place and cried as i stared at the starry sky

As we get older, it just gets harder and harder to do simple things that seemed to easy to do so long ago.

I just want some REAL appreciation for all the time and effort we'vh put in that nobody else bothered to do and managed to steal all the credit for

But what matters most is that you are happy

Rule no 1: count your blessings when you recieve them so you will know how blessed you are

Today i had fun!
had project meeting @ vivocity w my business communication presentation group..
Its comprised of 1 year 3 biz student (he is engaged, getting next year, drives and has a full time job) a guy from China (who is not on scholarship) and a normal fast talking Singaporean guy(who seems very close with his mum).
Then, after project discussion, we ate @ sake sushi!
Turned out that 3 of us are sushi fans!
long live sushi!
so nice to find "tong lei" even though i never join NUS anime club.
had fun talking to them!
whee~ doing project with new people is fun! :)

Usually i keep quiet because i wish to be left alone to my own devices..

Either that or there is something i really want to tell you but i cant figure out how..

omg my finance textbook is crazy.. its full of chimology

"such goals might be couched in terms of market share, return on equity, financial leverage, and so on."

couch sth in/as sth to express something in a particular way:

"not only does a financial plan make explicit these linkages,but it also imposes unified structure for reconciling goals objectives"

explicit
1 clear and exact:
2 showing or talking about sex or violence in a very detailed way:

reconcil
1 to find a way in which two situations or beliefs that are opposed to each other can agree and exist together:
2 be reconciled When two people are reconciled they become friendly again after they have argued:

"some caveats regarding financial planning models"
caveat Show phonetics
noun [C] FORMAL
1 a warning to consider something before acting further
2 a statement which limits a more general statement

I feel like im @ a freaky english lesson.. i need a dictionary to read this textbook..

This causes cancer:

-Lying (cause of stress)
For many people the biggest stress factor in life comes from trying to please everybody. this usually means saying yes to every invitation or task given resulting in a feeling that they are leading out of control lives!

-the best way to neutralise negative emotions is to acknowledge them
You have to tell people if you are unhappy or hurt otherwise you will become a ticking time bomb!

sounds like my life recently