Im a lousy speaker

i speak too fast

i force information down peoples throat

and i dont bother to pause to see if you really understood what im saying

People think that im nervous when i speak really fast but my problem is that im confident thats why i speak so fast

and the worst part is that i didnt realise im speaking so fast

and i seem as if i have memorised what im saying even though its spontaeous

I dont have steady eye contact. My eye contact just flickers

And i appear to be standing and facing the wall without realizing it and even now in my memory i have only faces i stared at and no wall

I keep saying that its very important

but i didnt bother to slow down and make sure they understand this important thing

i just bounce around and try to grab everybody's attention

not on the subject matter but on me

And i tried to get it over and done with as quickly as possible

Im a lousy speaker

next time when i speak i have to speak slowly as if trying to explain something to a child and make sure that he/she really understands. Its because im supposed to make sure you understand. Its just that i expect this to be common knowledge so i just skim past it - you.
I will stare at you intently. Me teacher. You child. I dont need to be afraid of you. DO YOU UNDERSTAND THE WORDS THAT ARE COMING OUT OF MY MOUTH?
at least i dont have problems with volume anymore...

im just frustrated that i can never seem to do anything right recently anymore..