<3

maybe it's me
maybe I haven't been putting in enough time and effort
to show u I care
but you know I do
underneath it all
don't you?

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possessing is the beginning of loss

if you never possessed anything then you won't lose it

you won't get hurt

possessing is the beginning of loss

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clubbing

1x nanas
1x kai feng's house
1x butter ladies night @ cargo
1x alex house + butter ladies night @ aps
1x aiping house @ deepavali
1x drinking at batam @ beg of nov

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I need music

scared you'd forget about me

don't say a word come over and lie here with me
coz I'm just about to set fire on everything I see
want u so bad I'll go back on the things I believe
there I just said it, scared u'll forget about me


don't say a word
just come over and stand next to me
I feel myself tense feel like I can hardly breathe
words are so cheap but there are many things I still want to believe
there you'vh gone and said it. I'm scared you'll forget about me


friends lovers or nothing
there can only be one
friends lovers or nothing
there can never be an in-between so give it up

anything other then yes is no
anything other then stay In school
anything less then I love you is lying

so much for being romantic

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scared you'd forget about me

don't say a word come over and lie here with me
coz I'm just about to set fire on everything I see
want u so bad I'll go back on the things I believe
there I just said it, scared u'll forget about me


don't say a word
just come over and stand next to me
I feel myself tense feel like I can hardly breathe
words are so cheap but there are many things I still want to believe
there you'vh gone and said it. I'm scared you'll forget about me


friends lovers or nothing
there can only be one
friends lovers or nothing
there can never be an in-between so give it up

anything other then yes is no
anything other then stay In school
anything less then I love you is lying

so much for being romantic

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scared you'd forget about me

don't say a word come over and lie here with me
coz I'm just about to set fire on everything I see
want u so bad I'll go back on the things I believe
there I just said it, scared u'll forget about me


don't say a word
just come over and stand next to me
I feel myself tense feel like I can hardly breathe
words are so cheap but there are many things I still want to believe
there you'vh gone and said it. I'm scared you'll forget about me

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scared you'd forget about me

don't say a word come over and lie here with me

coz I'm just about to set fire on everything I see

want u so bad I'll go back on the things I believe

there I just said it, scared u'll forget about me

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who else would
tuck me in
kiss me
hold me tight
feed me
please me
never tease me
always be there for me

through the good times and the bad
through the madness and life's upsets
we've had so much history
we've gone this far

you know I love you
you know I do
We said forever
I'll hold this true

who else would
tuck me in
kiss me
hold me tight
feed me
please me
never tease me
always be there for me

you're always there for me
sunshine or rain
patiently you wait
I might stretch my wings sometimes
disappear for a while
but what's great about our love
is that you can always count on me to return to your side again
and I know you'll do the same too

stability security peace
we let the days drift by with such ease
it's a comfortable cloud
its a beautiful dream
I know the dream won't be over

love is not about being perpetually infatuated
it's about falling in love over and over again with the same person

surprise me

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just a dream

thinking about her
thinking about me
thinking about us
what we gotta be
open my eyes
it was only just a dream

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you keep putting songs in my head

Heartbeat
Heartbeat
Heart heartbeat
Heartbeat
Heartbeat
Heartbeat
Heart heartbeat

I saw you talking on the phone
I know that you are not alone
But you steal my heart away
Yeah, you steal my heart away

You're acting like you're on your own
But I saw you standing with a girl
Stop trying to steal my heart away
Stop trying to steal my heart away

I don't know where we're going
I don't know who we are

I can feel your heartbeat
I can feel your heartbeat
He said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
Running through me
Feel your heartbeat

She said
I can feel your heartbeat
She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
Running through me
Heartbeat
Feel your heartbeat

Maybe it's the way you move
You got me dreaming like a fool
That I could steal your heart away
I could steal your heart away

No matter what it is you think
I'm not the kind of girl to blink
And give my heart away
Stop trying to steal my heart away

I don't know where we're going
I don't know who we are

I can feel your heartbeat
He said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
He said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
Running through me
Heartbeat
Feel your heartbeat

She said
I can feel your heartbeat
She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
Running through me
Feel your heartbeat

Stop stealing my heart away
Stop stealing my heart away
Stop stealing my heart away
You're stealing my heart away

I don't know where we're going
I don't know who we are
Feels like we are flowing
High above the stars

Hearbeat
Heartbeat
Heart heartbeart

I can feel it, I can feel it, I can feel it
I can feel it, I can oh

I can feel your heartbeat
He said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
He said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
Running through me
Your heartbeat
Feel your heartbeat

She said
I can feel your heartbeat
She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat
Running through me
Heartbeat
Feel your heartbeat

Stop stealing my heart away
(Tell it to me, girl)
Stop stealing my heart away
(Give it to me, boy)
Stop stealing my heart away
(Say it to me, girl)
You're stealing my heart away
(I can feel your heartbeat)
Stop stealing my heart away
(I can feel your heartbeat)
Stop stealing my heart away
(I can feel your heartbeat)
Stop stealing my heart away
Your heartbeat
Your heartbeat

noise

excuse me, i'd admit that perhaps we were a tad noisy, and i apologise for that.

However, the manner that you told us to shut up was horribly rude, and we would greatly appreciate it if you would apologize for that

no?

i see that we cannot reach a compromise.

the train only states that no eating, no drinking, no flammable or dangerous items. It does not say no talking. there is no rule against us doing so. you can complain, or continue to exclaim, but your very outburst goes against what you seek to promote.

so stfu

someone I'm not

having a shot at trying to be someone im not

macdonalds monopoly deal

hey u r the one who is collecting right?
yah! thanks! :D
if you win a car you can share it with us
haha! if I win a car I will come and drive u personally to work! :D

things you wish you had said instead of "haha if only"

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Martel and crushed cigarettes

the lingering scent of a woman's perfume
or an effeminate guys cologne
evaporated Martel
crushed cigarettes
melted icecubes
and Chinese Ktv playlist

"daddy's home"

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Martel and crushed cigarettes

the lingering scent of a woman's perfume
or an effeminate guys
evaporated Martel
crushed cigarettes
melted icecubes
and Chinese Ktv playlist

"daddy's home"

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Tampines

going through tampines town I was happily thinking this place looks nice In the morning... it would be nice to move here to be near to work.. and then it occurred to me.. that I knew nobody at all over here. there would be no more of walking through Cwp or alighting at woodlands mrt and bumping into friends at every corner. no more familiar faces. no more familiar routes to everywhere. nobody to go home together with on the train.

someday we will all move away from woodlands to start our own families. but until that day arrives. I dont wana expedite the process.

i just keep watching and waiting.

coz I don't wana leave this place

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I'm so sick of

pandering to other peoples needs.
surely I'm allowed to specify my needs too.

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I'm so sick of

pandering to other peoples needs.
surely I'm allowed to specify my needs too.

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I think you are a very special person

because you are the only person I know who can't eat spicy food but likes eating it

thank you.

it's being able to say insightful things like this which make you even more special

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coz i can see

the pain in your eyes

your body stiff with tension

but i want to hear

the joy in your noise

that i yearn to listen to

the rustling sounds of hay in your cage

the chewing of a happy mouth

little light steps

you prance in the twilight

and wee hours of the morn

don't leave me

don't leave me

please don't leave me

we said 12 years

no less perhaps more

ill put in effort

and make this work

dont leave me dont

but i still can see

the pain in your eyes

your body stiff with tension

but i still want to hear

the joy in your noise

the light in your eyes as they glisten

stay by my side

close your eyes

as i caress ur face

oh how i wish

i wish that

this will not and never be the last time

instead it is

the first of many

many more times to come

good years to come

of fun, laughter and joy

and for eternity

coz i can see

the pain in your eyes

your body still stiff with tension

but i still want to hear

the joy in your noise

that i so yearn to listen

so stop this pain

ease my ache

only you can make it

go..

away..

please get well soon

ray ray please be alright

today was fun! :)

i met up with long time no see denis, freddy, jackson and esmond's 5 friends! :D (whom i have never seen before!!!)

we ate O carol's for lunch, sang K and went to wala wala for dinner :D

pa it was a pleasnt surprise to have u there! :D

yihao, shunfa, thanks for going :D

tong, thanks for being there :D

I really hate haters (as in people who diss other people without understanding the full story)

and the people who arent open minded as well (ok people who dont bother to take time to understand things from other people's perspectives [im trying to understand, but sometimes nobody explains to me!] )

and people who judge other people prematurely and shoot them down before giving them any chance to prove themselves to others

and people who always want to play it safe, never want to take risks, never make effort to go outside of their comfort zone, who never make the effort to talk to new people, to experience new things, to change, develop, adapt and move with times.

I really dislike people who never make any effort to try first. They just keep asking "how? How? How?" and they stand there and stare at you and expect you to give them specific instructions. Where is the initiative man!!! must i do everything for you, plan out every single aspect of our day? Cant you plan something and make affirmative decisions for a change?

wait.

there's a similarity between all things which i dislike about people

I really hate this about people, but sometimes i find myself doing some of it subconsciously.

does that make me a hypocrite?

when...

for the sake of being by the side of the person you like
there's No other way
then to work hard!

I think that's really true

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do you really want to hurt me

do you really want to

really want to hurt me

cut my heart out and stick it on a skewer

and barbecue it in the moon light

because you and me my sweet

were close enough that your words cut so deep

coz closeness binds, my tender heart to your words teeth

haunt me in my slumber

haunt me in my sleep

my pathetic attempt at song writing.. ugh.. where did the golden touch go?

ivh always believed in treat others how you want to be treated yourself.

so ivh always treated people as my true friends, as how i want them to treat me too

True friends are friends whom you can always count on to

1. Always tell you the truth, no matter what. be it about yourself, be it about other people. be it whether its flattering, or whether its hurting. true friends do not lie to each other. You can always ask each other about anything under the sun. and they will just tell you. Their words are not laced with double meaning. you do not have to read between the lines. There is no point in mis-interpreting, because everything as just as it is.
2. Always be there for you when you need them. Im not saying that you have godly sensing powers. but if you tell them that you need them, they will be there for you. this means that true friends tell each other about issues, take their own initiative, because no one is god who can predict when exactly good/bad stuff just happened to you, and ask you to spill. true friends have no problem telling each other anything, or approaching any topic.

its that simple. just 2 points. Tell the truth.

but you dont

am i supposed to treat you the same way too?

Maybe its true

Maybe I have no true friends after all

who are your true friends?

thats what john said.

he said that your true friends would help you.

i didn't receive any help.

does this mean i have none?

i want to go see cows!! cute~~

http://sgblogs.com/entry/328617

No more organizing birthdays

sick of people never paying me money

sick of people never appreciating my efforts

but when it boils down to the birthday person.

that's the last straw. enough.

WAD HAPPENED TO MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT! :(

ANGRY FISH! :(

i said i wanted a printer, but i got rejected..

i said i NEED new sports shoes, but im still waiting..

i cant wait forever!! :(

so annoyed! why does this happen every year!

tong!! after ur exams end! we must go out!

1. Go universal studios (double date? :D group outing?)
2. Go skating together (woodlands/ecp?)
3. Go Sgp biennale 2011 (shit it ended!!!!! :( http://www.singaporebiennale.org/)
4. Visit some other art festival exhibition
5. Go clubbing together? :D
6. Visit the wholesale market together! (think should go w more girls den buy cheap stuff together!)
7. Visit NEX together
8. Visit other new shopping centers together?
9. Visit queensway shopping center to eat laksa!
10. random sight seeing in sgp!!! :D

Here's a list of things that i want to do

1. Bake pretty cup cakes (visit the store at marsling to get stuff)
2. bake macaroons
3. Have a BBQ (dina's place?)
4. BUY SPORTS SHOES

I feel like Ivh had too much of..

1. Alcohol in my system
2. 
   

I seriously want more

1. SHOPPING!!!!

and i really need to do this although im such a lazy bum

1. Pack my room
2. sell off my old hp
3. sell off my white paper
4. send unwanted items to salvation army
5. EXERCISE MORE

today..

I really miss travelling with gary, and eating with clarice and karen..

I feel so lonely alone at home! I miss having somebody i can walk over to and knock on the door/sit next to on the couch and chat with!

lonely fish!! SO LONELY T-T

I hate being an only child

Jackson..

today I realized I forgot to reply Jackson.. twice.. I was trying hard to recall the strange feeling I had in the pit of my stomach as I read his SMS, and tried very hard to remember what it was like having pa again as my close friend in my life. I recalled late dinners, and htht chats below my block and at Dina's place. the pa who was always there for me when I needed him, the pa who was just a phone call summon away, the pa whom I shared all of my troubles with back in my life again.

I thought about it hard and it felt strange. I realized he had been gone for so long, 4 years infact, I don't even know who he is anymore. I don't think he knows the me now, I don't even remember the kind of person I used to be around him.

I have let him go and learnt to live without him. he is no longer a key person in my life. no longer the first person I'd ask out on slow saturdays, no longer the first person I'd call when I had troubles, no longer the person I'd reserve special movies for.

he's almost nothing to me in my life now. I don't even remember the last time we had a real conversation without him and his blatant lies..

do you really miss me? do you really want me as your friend again? I'm having a hard time convincing myself about whether thenopposite is true. do I really miss you? do i really want you as my close friend again?

I think no, because truly close friends don't run off and dump you for others. I don't want to have to experience the pain and disappointment of giving you an important place in my life and I'n my heart, to have to bear with the sadness and disappointment of always being 2nd to your new friends, and never being there for me when I needed you most, and you never remembering me for who I was, a d constantly mixing up memories of all the good things I did for you and
thinking that they were done by Dina.

it really makes me wonder If our friendship was real, or was it just a lie, I was just a decoy, a replacement, a stepping stone for your unattainable desires and ambitions

which was why you left us at the end

I shan't risk it. trusting you again.

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BATAM WAS FUN! :D

dina shunfa yq, lets go again

and buy 40 more packets of u know what! :P

i just had spicy poop... >.<

To me, there are two kinds of leaders

1) Those who can run a country well

2) Those who truly care about their country's people

Those who show me qualities of group two, deserve my vote.

This is because while quality 1 is something which can be taught to, and learnt by EVERYONE with the right abilities, the right training and structure, while quality 2 is something which is inherent, and can never be learnt.

And it is this quality which will lead you to choose the betterment of your citizens lives, over the lining of your own pocket.

Why do people love Jesus:

he was a generous god, who so loved his people, that he gave himself up for the people he loved.

Having the guts to run for election, at the risk of losing your money, at the risk of getting sued, at risk of getting every single skeleton in your cupboard dug out and exposed, and having zero reputation at the end of it especially when the media starts smearing your name and calling you crazy.

Its like giving up your life and your whole future for the country, and the people you love.

Its not easy. Its hard work. Its worth admiring.

Why do people love Jesus:

he was a generous god, who so loved his people, that he gave himself up for the people he loved. He was never arrogant or haughty, but humble and earthly. He was wise, he was kind, he was forgiving. He made effort to love each and every single living thing.

Why do people love the queen:

She was a benevolent queen, she took her time to get to know her people, was willing to go down to the ground, to do her part to help them, to address their needs, cares and concerns. She empathized with them, was caring, and showed concern.

Why do people love the men in white:

well...

I dont see these

Benelovence

Caring

Kind

patient

forgiving

understanding

supportive

But i see these

Uncaring

Complacent

Unsupportive

Indifferent (lets not rock the boat)

would they die for Singapore? I highly doubt so. However, these opposition are really brave. They are willing to go against MM lee, risk getting bankrupt, risk losing all of their money, their name, their status, everything, just for singapore's future. Even when they know that the controlled press will give them nothing but bad publicity, and be labeled as psychos, delusional, derange, and incompetent.

It's like giving up their life for Singapore.

You might say that they disappear after every election. However i agree with this girl. she says it's not that they disappeared, its that they have no avenues to contribute to their contested grc after losing the election.

Having the courage to stand there. I salute you.

http://www.facebook.com/notes/alvin-tan/to-the-men-in-white-by-neo-yu-wei/10150165127424223

4) Power breeds fear and paranoia

In the beginning, you used power in order to stabilise the political situation so that you can give the masses homes, food, clean water and their livelihoods. That seemed a justifiable use of power even though it involved some ruthless and ugly tactics. But over the years, you started to crave power for itself. Again, you forgot the story of Macbeth (see, I told you the humanities are important!!) - where an originally good leader was so obsessed with his new power that he saw everything as a threat towards it. He became so paranoid that he even killed his best friend whom he thought was after his throne. He only heard what he wanted to hear from dubious soothsayers (which turned out to be half-truths). Needless to say, Macbeth eventually had a tragic end. Like Macbeth, you've become so obsessed with winning overwhelmingly in every GE that you use every weapon you have, every trick up your sleeves to clobber the opposition to smithereens. Smear campaigns, legal suits, changing electoral boundaries, raising the cost of candidature, forming GRCs, threatening the electorate with upgrading...it's like watching the Brazilian football team beat the Singapore team by 82-2, except in football the rules are fairer and the referee neutral. Why do you need to resort to such gangster-like ways? You could have won overwhelmingly anyway with all the talent you have! I'm not sure how long this bullying strategy can go on but sooner or later you'll become the thug that the electorate can't wait to get rid of.

Ok, even if all our Ministers and PM are worth every cent of their $4m annual salary, it also means that they have to perform much much much better than any other government in the world. Again, you have set the standards and expectations so high, you only have yourselves to blame when you cannot meet those expectations from the ground. And the more you fail to meet their expectations, the more the electorate will think you're not worth your astronomical salaries. It's a vicious cycle that you've started and it's going to be very hard to stop now. <-- also completely agree!

damn.. its true.. damn.. why cant i vote this year!!!! :(

money

today I realized that to the person who lost things, dropping items on the floor is like dropping money..

just that to the lucky recipient, the item might not be as useful or multifunctional as money...

oh how I miss you my little pink doughnut

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sgp

Singapore is a great melting pot of cultures but it's the weather which melts your face

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date

best date! :D (or belated birthday celebration)

today, was a fun day out w sotong! :D

we went to plaza sing for oyster mee swa

den buy RIO tickets at grand cathay

run to POMO to redeem 2 large cups of gelatio icecream

den run back to grand cathay to watch RIO

den walk to POMO to eat my SNOW CRAB BUFFET! thanks tong for the treat!!!!

after that we walked to helix bridge *-* (first time!!!)

and visited MBS (another first time!!)

and watched the FREE LAZER LIGHT SHOW (another 1st time again!!)

hugs! tongie! :D

going to batam soon! wheee! :D

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what i really dont understand

is how some of the worst, most biggoted, horrible, selfish, people

can be christians

and yet instead of listening to the bible to bring them to their supposed greater heights

they use it as a shield, to hide behind, to make right their crimes

you disgust me

http://msjianglai.wordpress.com/category/education/

good day!

I had a good day out with a good friend today!

Im excited about X years!! :D good luck!! I hope it comes true!!!

it was fun, and we ate at a really bad burger place!! Alert!! everyone, please AVOID the HANDBURGER shop! its pretty bad! ;(

(at least the one at raffles place shopping center is)

we also went to sakura fest
, and while some of the ciao ayers were good, the rest scared me pretty badly. I totally understand what Shunfa means by how some are good, while the rest, u wonder what they are doing there..

I also learnt much!!

I learnt how to handle interview questions, and how i should always substantiate my points with examples or reasons..

I also learnt a very important point of view.

Even though you committed no sin towards me, i still felt offended and disappointed coz i value you as a true friend.

I have to admit to myself, that you made a mistake, and i still have to forgive you for what you have done.

I hope that you will learn from it, understand where you went wrong and become a better person as a result!

Although I really cannot stand people like that, and I used to swear to myself that I wont be friends with that kind of person.... its like...

its not about coming to terms with it, its about accepting you for what you have done!

coz thats what are friends for! T_T

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ivh got a free 3 day trial for fitness first! and i noticed on the website, that there's free 3 day trials for anybody who wants!!

who wants to go w me? :D

sigh..

recently im just so sick and tired of people who judge me based on who i appear to be..

im so sick and tired of them having an image of me..

and they think that they can understand me, and that im transparent, and that they know exactly what im thinking, when i actually am not at all..

especially because i behave how i behave, because im just making life easier for everyone..

I intentionally wear all of these expressions, and these emotions on my face, so that its not a constant guessing game.. You won't have to be stressed and worried around me, constantly on your toes, and afraid of when im going to have my next mood swing, and flare up at that next person.. With all of these expressions, its more fun, and exciting, coz the expressions are funny, and i dont have to verbalise everything, you can just read it on my face. And its easier to make friends too. Especially since laughing breaks the ice, and the easiest way to make another person laugh, is to make a fool of yourself.

When in the past, i used to be expressionless, and emotionless me..

Maybe im just trying too hard to make life more carefree, more fun and exciting, more entertaining, for the people around me, that i neglect who i really am inside.

That people around me dont really understand it. The real me.

I just so sick of being shot at everyday, when the image that they are shooting at is just a facade for fun. Im so sick of having to defend myself.

But if i go back to being me, life would be so boring.

Back to being little miss goody goody two shoes, who is never wrong, never says anything out of place, is always serious, scolds people for being rude, selfish, unkind, unfair, and always felt years old beyond her age, while everyone else seemed so childish around her.

I think it all changed, when my mum told me "if you are so mean to your friends, you aren't going to have any friends left" when i told off yet another friend on the phone who was constantly being selfish and harassing me. (ok she stayed my friend, but heck i was still irritated)

I tried to change, but maybe i tried too hard. I became too nice.

was it worth it?

should i go back? unwrite the written?

Which one of you can honestly say that you know the real me?

i bought a new dress for myself in a shade of sea green that loved...

it was 29.90, i got it at a discount already...

but why!!! why!! i have to wake up this morning and see my favourite blogshop send me mailer saying that they have new stocks, and i see the dress i love, in blue, going for 23 dollars!!! :(

WHYYY~~

today I did very well

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it might be a bit shocking but I realized I'm a pessimist!!! I know when things get u down and when bad things happen, I'm an optimist and all that, but I realize I'm not an optimist for all of the good things that have happened to me, and i need to give myself mire credit for all of the great things I have done!!! well done kim! I attribute ur success to yourself alone! it's not luck, but that you are an amazing person!! ok end of prep talk haha...

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awww.. suddenly i miss them...

bel bel yi yi

jc kor kor

GGGAAAARRRRRRYYY Maow~

ken ken didi

and me being called kim kim mei mei

those were fun days... :D

somehow i dont remember bryan and clarice's nickname!

"Hold It Against Me" - Britney Spears (Sam Tsui Cover)

the awkward moment when britney realises how much better his version is then hers is...

test test

Mobile Blogging from here.

hihihihi!!!

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hmmm...

im so confused...

is problem, cause of problem, and solution...

not what i classify it to be?

have i been wrong all along?

Problem: im unproductive

Causes: im lazy, im slow

Solution: get help

Situation: im unproductive

Problems with me: Im lazy im slow
causes of lazyness: poor upbringing

Solution: get people to punish me

ahhhhhhhhhhh~

all i want for my birthday is...

http://www.liveoffcoupon.com/?cid=4&id=145

http://www.streetdeal.sg/

but nobody seems to want to go overseas with me....

sigh :(

So strange..

after Carls junior, i had diahorrea today..

I had to get off at khatib to use the toilet on the way home!!

sorry eunice for making you wait!!

thanks for being so understanding :D

mega embarassing, coz its the first time in my life i had to get off the train to use the toilet!!!!

People i know through sotong/know with sotong.

can i consider them as my friends/good friends?

xiu ming + mel

sotong's brother + Kc

milkyway friends (wait that's like completely abandoned!)

hmmm wait.. dun think there's anyone else in the list! hahahaha...

sotong's family? haven't seen them in a while..

idk.. suddenly thought of it when i saw ritchie online, and i was like "who's that? oh ya tong's bro's friend!"

This will be our little secret.

Thank you mr police officer :)

sometimes all you need is a really sympathetic listening ear

I don't know why but i started wondering again...

if you have a kid, its really sad to have him, but hide him.

will your kid ask, "daddy, why don't your friends know about me?"

why aren't i on your facebook wall? Why are my friends on their parents facebook profile picture, and they all seem super loved?

Well its coz you were an accident, and its embarrassing?

Im an embarrassment? (he will most probably cry at that point in time)

Well, you cant exactly say that to your kid right?

So, I suddenly have great respect for people who have accidentally have kids, but have the guts to show the world "hey here is my kid, im proud of him/her" Its not that they are shameless. Its that they life all figured out!

Once again, it all boils down to "I might have done it wrongly the last time, but now, im going to make sure that with what I have, im going to do my best to it right! I'm not going to hide it away and lie to people anymore" and that's completely admirable/respectable..

you go guys/girls!

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I signed up for this weird newsletter, now i keep getting "how to get ur ex back" emails..

but problem is, i dont want my ex back!! I have tong! :D

anyway, the mailer is still pretty interesting!! :D and when i think about it, (and my friend's failed relationships where the guy just kept clinging on, but it for sure was not going to work out, and i read this, i realised, heck its damn true!!)

10 mistakes you cant afford to make

http://www.getexback.net/download/top10mistakes_ashley.pdf

btw, ignore the propaganda after page 11...

this was interesting...

If your ex appears to hate you, have moved on, told you to stop
contacting, says there's no chance in hell and just plain wants
nothing to do with you.

Here's something to think about...

There is a FINE line between love and hate. Actually sometimes
those lines cross over.

Why do you think your ex would CARE to hate you if they didn't care
for you at all?

It's the people who are closest to us that has the potential to
hurt us the most, and your ex knows this! In fact, you see this in
couples all the time when an argument erupts. They know exactly
what to say to hurt one another. And it works every time.

I classify the following as things people do/say when they're in
DEFENCE mode.

* Ignoring you/shutting you out

* Telling you they hate you and never want to see you or talk to
you again

* Blocking your advances quickly (as if it's a reflex reaction)

* Doing things deliberately to make you jealous (dating someone
new, deleting you on Facebook, telling or showing you how happy
they are now you're broken up)

If your ex just did not care at all and they've completely moved
on, they wouldn't bother putting in the EFFORT to hate you.. yes
that's right, it's not easy to hate someone and keep hating someone.

Case in point.

When you're upset with someone, is it "natural" to block someone
out, to resist talking to them, to ignore them and be hostile
around them? This stuff does not come easily to anyone, it takes
EFFORT.

If your ex is putting in so much effort to block you out and treat
you like you don't matter, then clearly you know the OPPOSITE is
true, because to truly not care would mean they'd be in their
natural state around you.

In other words, they'd be indifferent!

And I think:

The more an ex appears to hate you, the MORE they're really hurting
inside. That's why you need to approach the whole situation very
carefully! The mistakes you make while they're vulnerable matters
and they STACK.

When you're extremely emotional and the same annoying thing (or
person) keeps contacting or annoying you, you're going to dislike
that person/thing even more.

The Ex Recovery System and especially my From Break Up to Break
Through Program addresses this point. Actually it's excellent for
bridging that gap between your ex's need to stay away from you
(from hurting) to your need to penetrate and make them trust you
again.

At the end of the day it comes down to TRUST and RESPECT. Two key
points the Ex Recovery System revolves around.

Click here: http://www.exrecoverysystem.com

I'm not saying its some miracle cure.. and I don't agree with
products that promise "instant" results to getting an ex back
anyway. The system is about LONGTERM happiness for you because
you're the central figure in your life!

With that said, The Ex Recovery System is only for people who care
about their relationships and improving it for the better.

So often people get it wrong because, well, because no one teaches
you about it! Most people only have parents, friends and
celebrities to model of and sometimes that's not the best example
of relationship success! Did I say sometimes? More like most of the
time.

If you'd like a proper chance to reunite with your partner and get
the relationship working FOR YOU instead of you working for it.

today was a fun day

maybe because i felt like i was young again

fafa and i spontaneously went for the elementz character profiling, and signature analysis

the guy is damn good, somehow he knows us from our profile and our signature!!!

and we ran into a restaurant shophouse to use the toilet, and got scolded!!!

I hate getting scolded, actually, i think i hated how i had to apologise to them, to appease them coz i know that it was the right thing to say, although i wasnt sorry at all!!!

sometimes, white lies really bug me...

ah well... to be young again :D

im going crazy

i hate the stadium

i hate those heartless schools

they are so inconsiderate. shouting every morning. Disturbing my sleep. Today's school started at 6.30am.

I cant sleep. I cant eat. I just sit here.

I feel so depressed because nobody believes me.

And its the whole day. How can i study. How can I focus. its been every day the whole day for the past 2 months. And i cant escape from the noise.

My eyebags are humongous. I cant block out the sound. I tried everything, even plugging ear phones and blasting music, but i still hear them.

Im so sick of teachers with piercing voices, shouting "we can do this! go 2/4! Go yellow! go!!"

and the gunfire and the loud bangs which jolt me from my sleep.

They are louder then the Malay Weddings below my block on weekends.

I sleep like such a log, but this is so loud, and continuous, I cant even hear my house TV, and the volume is on 30 already

save me

The truth about the biz girls

The truth is that, Ivh always felt that I never did fit in at business

I'vh always felt like an ugly duckling, a sore thumb, an oddity

Everyone talked different, dressed different, and had different hobbies and interests

They watched English Soaps like Glee and Vampire diaries, I was more into Korean dramas and Anime

They seemed to live different lifestyles from me

They came from branded JCs, knew every other person on campus (Raffles primary school friend, Nanyang girls school friend, Huachong JC friend etc) lived in big houses, drove expensive cars, bought a new wardrobe of clothes every semester, wore makeup to class, went clubbing every week, and painted both their finger nails and toe nails

I wore T shirt n shorts, came from a neighbourhood JC, didnt know anyone, I didnt bother to comb my hair in the morning, and my idea of a good night, was supper with my fellow neighbours

They also had different underlying fundamental values

They talked about self-esteem, money and wealth, while I was more of the lets be happy, embrace tomorrow, do some good for society along the way kind of person

I thought they were bimbos and bitches (at least some of them were)

Upon closer inspection, they were actually quite nice

Although i still dont really fit in, when they talk about their interests (all of those English dramas which i do not watch) and the "heartland" talk doesn't seem to appeal to them.......

I guess im getting alot more used to it...

Or am I becoming one of them too?

I don't like my MFA group interviewer :(

She encouraged us to talk about controversial political topics, but when we did as she probed, she shot us down.

Its one thing to be pro PAP, but another thing to be pro PAP to an extremist extent...

She actually said this to my point about why we need the opposition to be in the government

"Well, I don't think there is any need for more then 1 government, but that's just my opinion."

Only her dear politically correct guys were left untouched, as she smiled sweetly, and nodded earnestly at every word they said.

Gender biased, Pro-PAP to the point of blindness, perverse 55+ year old auntie..

Well I like PAP, but im sure not a blind follower...

today jy bought a dress!!

for work!!!

when she wore it, i was like "ahhhhh! Jy u look damn pretty in it!!!"

and she bought it!!!!!!

its really very pretty on her, and in it! *-*

fish flopped

at least u tried ar its ok ar

hugs tongie! T_T

so super stressed!! I blanked out for the first time in my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Its really my heart just keep beating and beating, and my head was pounding, and i couldn't breathe properly. and i couldn't think of anything. at all T_T

what does asking me if I had music background mean?

You really can see who's who's best friend from how close they stand to each other, and how genuine their smile is..

Rabbits Good for Women’s Mental | NutriFile

Many women wants to keep a rabbit because they are cute and fun. But a study proves that a rabbit is not only beautiful, but is also good for women’s health.

Not only to be kept, therapy using rabbits also becomes popular in consultation with a psychologist and psychotherapist.

So why is having a rabbit good for women’s health?

According to Geniusbeauty, a new study conducted by a team of experts from the University of Missouri and led by Professor Rebecca Johnson, indicate that the presence of a rabbit can give women a sense of serenity and comfort.

Pet rabbits can reduce levels of cortisol stress hormone in the body of a woman only a few minutes after contact with rabbits.

With less stress, then the risk of heart attack and stroke are smaller. Pet rabbits can keep blood pressure under control when you are stressed.

Dr. Johnson noted that the presence of rabbits at home facilitates defense of social ties, teach women and girls how to better understand themselves and others, as well as how to communicate with others more effectively.

In particular, a woman who cares for rabbits also have better emotional and behavioral control. Rabbits are also used as part of treatment to facilitate healing of serious illness in children and adolescents, such as autism or depression. In addition, rabbit therapy is also used to help cope with people who feel less confident.

yay ray ray u r working!! :D

This time I get to be the difficult birthday person ♥

After reading somewhere, i discovered that felicia chin and fiona xie did plastic surgery too!!

http://www.alexlab.com/2007/12/11/fiona-xie-exposed/

fiona was flat like an ironing board!!

im not very convinced about the felicia chin, coz its the double-single eyelid, which has been happening to my eyes also.. although i didnt use double eyelid tape like her.. it just.. appeared.. zzz..

oh wait.. she admitted to double eyelid and breast surgery!!

http://entertainment.xin.msn.com/en/celebrity/buzz/asia/photos.aspx?cp-documentid=4412735&page=1

Eunice is right. Harping too much on it would affect our friendship. Its not going to bother me anymore!!

it was fun going to the club with SOTONG eunice gilbert winnie jingyuan and huiyi! just that feel kinda bad that we left first! tongie we go again when we are free-er ok!

sotong seemed quite happy about it this time, i think mainly coz the ticket was free!!! :D hopefully he would wana go again soon! :D And sotong looked good in his CNY clothes ♥

Cee Lo Green - FUCK YOU (Official Video)

I keep coming across songs sung by poor guys who got their ass trashed by some girl!

After trying so hard to improve the lives of people whom I really care about

To teach them the difference between right and wrong

Its never appreciated

but for some whom i have left alone for extended periods of time, suddenly come back to me, all miraculously better

I'm so happy for them

I hope this would work for 2 two too..

When I see you again, may you be a bigger and brighter person

I ask myself whats wrong with my life

Ivh met many people in this life. how come i still spend some nights sitting alone infront of the computer?

I strike through the people I didn’t really bother to keep in contact with. And I greyed out the people I should make more effort to meet.

Seriously, what am I doing with my life? Maybe I should put in more efforts into my friendships. But seriously.. Am I really to blame? If they didn’t bother too, I didn’t bother, both of us didn’t bother that’s why it happened, no? If they really cared, they would have bothered too?

What I really hate the most, is being the only one initiating meet ups, and making effort to sustain the friendship, while the other party just sucks all of your effort in. Words like “thank you” aren’t enough. Actions speak louder than words. If you are really appreciative, true friends would do more than that. Maybe i’m expecting too much, but I have had enough of being taken forgranted of.

Btw, ppl in the “cliques” are listed at the instance when I met them, or in the sub units that i come to remember them as. Or the small groups that I spent the most time with them, and became closest to them in. As you know me, all of my friends cross over different cliques as I always somehow end up inviting everyone to the events that I organised! And I tried my best not to repeat names, so... if u see ur name missing in certain cliques, its not that you aren't included, its that you appeared somewhere else in my life more significantly before that!

This list, is just to remind me when im old and grey, that long time ago I had all of these friends, because, honestly im forgetting the names of people who I was close to back then!

BF - HUGs

Cousins – Deborah, Denise, Brian

Uni Y Camp – Tick!

Rabbit Friends – Gary, sandy, deborah

Charlies Angels – I didn’t even bother after day 1 of break camp

Volvo friends - Clarice, gary, rebecca, kenneth, JC, bel, bryan

NUS Biz Friends – Mel, Jasmine, Vivien, Nuans, Dawn,

Finance Project – Weiling, Alvin, Wayening, Rachel

Furkids Project – Hazel, Bk, nori, alarice

OB – Jiaxun

Odin - Yingqi, Vone, Sandra, Lydia

JC buddy– Jiaying, Huizhen, Meifeng

Hercules IJC - Kenneth

JCS clique – Shunfa, Yihao, Yihui, Stanley

Dina’s friends: Amy, Huifang, Bihqing
Meifeng’s friends: Timothy, Marilyn

Random Friends – Khow Ming

Additions to the most random clique on earth – Chuan Lim, Drew,

Ssbbbbss – Jackson Dina

JC class mates – Hong, Aze, deep, Elaine, Karimah, Leechong, Sandesh, Enhuo...

Friend’s BF’s – Alex, Andy, Parry,

KEVII – Denis, Freddy

YOG training friends-I’m so great I even forgot their names! L

Wuhan Winter Program Friends – Wengyi, Nori! Sahil, Louis, Dat, Irving, Madhuri

2/9 – Peiyun, Bernie, Lixian, Eunice, Cheryl, Daphne, Yijia, Hiromi

4/7 lunch buddies– Eunice, Nisha

Primary School - Melissa Tan, Teresa, LiJuan, sin ern,Jiaying

Kindergarden best friend – Amanda (why am i still scared of arranging a meetup with her?)

Lightning strikes
Inside, my chest to keep me up at night
Dream of ways
To make you understand my pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really ever wins
In heartbreak warfare

If you want more love,
why don't you say so?
If you want more love,
why don't you say so?

Drop his name
Push it in and twist the knife again
Watch my face
As I pretend to feel no pain

Just say so...

How come the only way to know how high you get me
is to see how far I fall
God only knows how much I'd love you if you let me
but I can't break through at all.

It's a heartbreak...

I don't care if we don't sleep at all tonight
Let's just fix this whole thing now
I swear to God we're gonna get it right
If you lay your weapon down
Red wine and ambien
You're talking shit again, it's heartbreak warfare
Good to know it's all a game
Disappointment has a name, it's heartbreak, heartbreak.

I think now a days poor guys are getting bullied by the girls...

poor things...