I ask myself whats wrong with my life

Ivh met many people in this life. how come i still spend some nights sitting alone infront of the computer?

I strike through the people I didn’t really bother to keep in contact with. And I greyed out the people I should make more effort to meet.

Seriously, what am I doing with my life? Maybe I should put in more efforts into my friendships. But seriously.. Am I really to blame? If they didn’t bother too, I didn’t bother, both of us didn’t bother that’s why it happened, no? If they really cared, they would have bothered too?

What I really hate the most, is being the only one initiating meet ups, and making effort to sustain the friendship, while the other party just sucks all of your effort in. Words like “thank you” aren’t enough. Actions speak louder than words. If you are really appreciative, true friends would do more than that. Maybe i’m expecting too much, but I have had enough of being taken forgranted of.

Btw, ppl in the “cliques” are listed at the instance when I met them, or in the sub units that i come to remember them as. Or the small groups that I spent the most time with them, and became closest to them in. As you know me, all of my friends cross over different cliques as I always somehow end up inviting everyone to the events that I organised! And I tried my best not to repeat names, so... if u see ur name missing in certain cliques, its not that you aren't included, its that you appeared somewhere else in my life more significantly before that!

This list, is just to remind me when im old and grey, that long time ago I had all of these friends, because, honestly im forgetting the names of people who I was close to back then!

BF - HUGs

Cousins – Deborah, Denise, Brian

Uni Y Camp – Tick!

Rabbit Friends – Gary, sandy, deborah

Charlies Angels – I didn’t even bother after day 1 of break camp

Volvo friends - Clarice, gary, rebecca, kenneth, JC, bel, bryan

NUS Biz Friends – Mel, Jasmine, Vivien, Nuans, Dawn,

Finance Project – Weiling, Alvin, Wayening, Rachel

Furkids Project – Hazel, Bk, nori, alarice

OB – Jiaxun

Odin - Yingqi, Vone, Sandra, Lydia

JC buddy– Jiaying, Huizhen, Meifeng

Hercules IJC - Kenneth

JCS clique – Shunfa, Yihao, Yihui, Stanley

Dina’s friends: Amy, Huifang, Bihqing
Meifeng’s friends: Timothy, Marilyn

Random Friends – Khow Ming

Additions to the most random clique on earth – Chuan Lim, Drew,

Ssbbbbss – Jackson Dina

JC class mates – Hong, Aze, deep, Elaine, Karimah, Leechong, Sandesh, Enhuo...

Friend’s BF’s – Alex, Andy, Parry,

KEVII – Denis, Freddy

YOG training friends-I’m so great I even forgot their names! L

Wuhan Winter Program Friends – Wengyi, Nori! Sahil, Louis, Dat, Irving, Madhuri

2/9 – Peiyun, Bernie, Lixian, Eunice, Cheryl, Daphne, Yijia, Hiromi

4/7 lunch buddies– Eunice, Nisha

Primary School - Melissa Tan, Teresa, LiJuan, sin ern,Jiaying

Kindergarden best friend – Amanda (why am i still scared of arranging a meetup with her?)