im going crazy

i hate the stadium

i hate those heartless schools

they are so inconsiderate. shouting every morning. Disturbing my sleep. Today's school started at 6.30am.

I cant sleep. I cant eat. I just sit here.

I feel so depressed because nobody believes me.

And its the whole day. How can i study. How can I focus. its been every day the whole day for the past 2 months. And i cant escape from the noise.

My eyebags are humongous. I cant block out the sound. I tried everything, even plugging ear phones and blasting music, but i still hear them.

Im so sick of teachers with piercing voices, shouting "we can do this! go 2/4! Go yellow! go!!"

and the gunfire and the loud bangs which jolt me from my sleep.

They are louder then the Malay Weddings below my block on weekends.

I sleep like such a log, but this is so loud, and continuous, I cant even hear my house TV, and the volume is on 30 already

save me

The truth about the biz girls

The truth is that, Ivh always felt that I never did fit in at business

I'vh always felt like an ugly duckling, a sore thumb, an oddity

Everyone talked different, dressed different, and had different hobbies and interests

They watched English Soaps like Glee and Vampire diaries, I was more into Korean dramas and Anime

They seemed to live different lifestyles from me

They came from branded JCs, knew every other person on campus (Raffles primary school friend, Nanyang girls school friend, Huachong JC friend etc) lived in big houses, drove expensive cars, bought a new wardrobe of clothes every semester, wore makeup to class, went clubbing every week, and painted both their finger nails and toe nails

I wore T shirt n shorts, came from a neighbourhood JC, didnt know anyone, I didnt bother to comb my hair in the morning, and my idea of a good night, was supper with my fellow neighbours

They also had different underlying fundamental values

They talked about self-esteem, money and wealth, while I was more of the lets be happy, embrace tomorrow, do some good for society along the way kind of person

I thought they were bimbos and bitches (at least some of them were)

Upon closer inspection, they were actually quite nice

Although i still dont really fit in, when they talk about their interests (all of those English dramas which i do not watch) and the "heartland" talk doesn't seem to appeal to them.......

I guess im getting alot more used to it...

Or am I becoming one of them too?

I don't like my MFA group interviewer :(

She encouraged us to talk about controversial political topics, but when we did as she probed, she shot us down.

Its one thing to be pro PAP, but another thing to be pro PAP to an extremist extent...

She actually said this to my point about why we need the opposition to be in the government

"Well, I don't think there is any need for more then 1 government, but that's just my opinion."

Only her dear politically correct guys were left untouched, as she smiled sweetly, and nodded earnestly at every word they said.

Gender biased, Pro-PAP to the point of blindness, perverse 55+ year old auntie..

Well I like PAP, but im sure not a blind follower...

today jy bought a dress!!

for work!!!

when she wore it, i was like "ahhhhh! Jy u look damn pretty in it!!!"

and she bought it!!!!!!

its really very pretty on her, and in it! *-*

fish flopped

at least u tried ar its ok ar

hugs tongie! T_T

so super stressed!! I blanked out for the first time in my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Its really my heart just keep beating and beating, and my head was pounding, and i couldn't breathe properly. and i couldn't think of anything. at all T_T

what does asking me if I had music background mean?

You really can see who's who's best friend from how close they stand to each other, and how genuine their smile is..

Rabbits Good for Women’s Mental | NutriFile

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Pet rabbits can reduce levels of cortisol stress hormone in the body of a woman only a few minutes after contact with rabbits.

With less stress, then the risk of heart attack and stroke are smaller. Pet rabbits can keep blood pressure under control when you are stressed.

Dr. Johnson noted that the presence of rabbits at home facilitates defense of social ties, teach women and girls how to better understand themselves and others, as well as how to communicate with others more effectively.

In particular, a woman who cares for rabbits also have better emotional and behavioral control. Rabbits are also used as part of treatment to facilitate healing of serious illness in children and adolescents, such as autism or depression. In addition, rabbit therapy is also used to help cope with people who feel less confident.

yay ray ray u r working!! :D

This time I get to be the difficult birthday person ♥

After reading somewhere, i discovered that felicia chin and fiona xie did plastic surgery too!!

http://www.alexlab.com/2007/12/11/fiona-xie-exposed/

fiona was flat like an ironing board!!

im not very convinced about the felicia chin, coz its the double-single eyelid, which has been happening to my eyes also.. although i didnt use double eyelid tape like her.. it just.. appeared.. zzz..

oh wait.. she admitted to double eyelid and breast surgery!!

http://entertainment.xin.msn.com/en/celebrity/buzz/asia/photos.aspx?cp-documentid=4412735&page=1

Eunice is right. Harping too much on it would affect our friendship. Its not going to bother me anymore!!

it was fun going to the club with SOTONG eunice gilbert winnie jingyuan and huiyi! just that feel kinda bad that we left first! tongie we go again when we are free-er ok!

sotong seemed quite happy about it this time, i think mainly coz the ticket was free!!! :D hopefully he would wana go again soon! :D And sotong looked good in his CNY clothes ♥

Cee Lo Green - FUCK YOU (Official Video)

I keep coming across songs sung by poor guys who got their ass trashed by some girl!

After trying so hard to improve the lives of people whom I really care about

To teach them the difference between right and wrong

Its never appreciated

but for some whom i have left alone for extended periods of time, suddenly come back to me, all miraculously better

I'm so happy for them

I hope this would work for 2 two too..

When I see you again, may you be a bigger and brighter person

I ask myself whats wrong with my life

Ivh met many people in this life. how come i still spend some nights sitting alone infront of the computer?

I strike through the people I didn’t really bother to keep in contact with. And I greyed out the people I should make more effort to meet.

Seriously, what am I doing with my life? Maybe I should put in more efforts into my friendships. But seriously.. Am I really to blame? If they didn’t bother too, I didn’t bother, both of us didn’t bother that’s why it happened, no? If they really cared, they would have bothered too?

What I really hate the most, is being the only one initiating meet ups, and making effort to sustain the friendship, while the other party just sucks all of your effort in. Words like “thank you” aren’t enough. Actions speak louder than words. If you are really appreciative, true friends would do more than that. Maybe i’m expecting too much, but I have had enough of being taken forgranted of.

Btw, ppl in the “cliques” are listed at the instance when I met them, or in the sub units that i come to remember them as. Or the small groups that I spent the most time with them, and became closest to them in. As you know me, all of my friends cross over different cliques as I always somehow end up inviting everyone to the events that I organised! And I tried my best not to repeat names, so... if u see ur name missing in certain cliques, its not that you aren't included, its that you appeared somewhere else in my life more significantly before that!

This list, is just to remind me when im old and grey, that long time ago I had all of these friends, because, honestly im forgetting the names of people who I was close to back then!

BF - HUGs

Cousins – Deborah, Denise, Brian

Uni Y Camp – Tick!

Rabbit Friends – Gary, sandy, deborah

Charlies Angels – I didn’t even bother after day 1 of break camp

Volvo friends - Clarice, gary, rebecca, kenneth, JC, bel, bryan

NUS Biz Friends – Mel, Jasmine, Vivien, Nuans, Dawn,

Finance Project – Weiling, Alvin, Wayening, Rachel

Furkids Project – Hazel, Bk, nori, alarice

OB – Jiaxun

Odin - Yingqi, Vone, Sandra, Lydia

JC buddy– Jiaying, Huizhen, Meifeng

Hercules IJC - Kenneth

JCS clique – Shunfa, Yihao, Yihui, Stanley

Dina’s friends: Amy, Huifang, Bihqing
Meifeng’s friends: Timothy, Marilyn

Random Friends – Khow Ming

Additions to the most random clique on earth – Chuan Lim, Drew,

Ssbbbbss – Jackson Dina

JC class mates – Hong, Aze, deep, Elaine, Karimah, Leechong, Sandesh, Enhuo...

Friend’s BF’s – Alex, Andy, Parry,

KEVII – Denis, Freddy

YOG training friends-I’m so great I even forgot their names! L

Wuhan Winter Program Friends – Wengyi, Nori! Sahil, Louis, Dat, Irving, Madhuri

2/9 – Peiyun, Bernie, Lixian, Eunice, Cheryl, Daphne, Yijia, Hiromi

4/7 lunch buddies– Eunice, Nisha

Primary School - Melissa Tan, Teresa, LiJuan, sin ern,Jiaying

Kindergarden best friend – Amanda (why am i still scared of arranging a meetup with her?)

Lightning strikes
Inside, my chest to keep me up at night
Dream of ways
To make you understand my pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really ever wins
In heartbreak warfare

If you want more love,
why don't you say so?
If you want more love,
why don't you say so?

Drop his name
Push it in and twist the knife again
Watch my face
As I pretend to feel no pain

Just say so...

How come the only way to know how high you get me
is to see how far I fall
God only knows how much I'd love you if you let me
but I can't break through at all.

It's a heartbreak...

I don't care if we don't sleep at all tonight
Let's just fix this whole thing now
I swear to God we're gonna get it right
If you lay your weapon down
Red wine and ambien
You're talking shit again, it's heartbreak warfare
Good to know it's all a game
Disappointment has a name, it's heartbreak, heartbreak.

I think now a days poor guys are getting bullied by the girls...

poor things...

omgz good bunny website!

http://rabbitmatch.wordpress.com/2011/01/

http://www.dailybunny.com/daily_bunny_d8/2011/01/just-in-case-you-think-your-wintertime-static-electricity-hair-woes-are-bad.html

If your rabbit won’t tolerate all of this at first, start with just the nail trims one day, then the physical exam the next. In extreme cases, trim the nails on one paw a day, for four days in a row til they are all trimmed – eventually your rabbit will get used to this routine and should better tolerate it.
After you are finished and let the rabbit loose, your rabbit will show his gratitude by snorting, thumping, and/or sitting with his back to you. Don’t take it personally. And don’t forget to give him a nice treat, lavish pets, and praise at the end of each session.

Continue reading on Examiner.com: Bunny burritos - Dayton small pets | Examiner.com http://www.examiner.com/small-pets-in-dayton/bunny-burritos#ixzz1GYlJFIkD --> so true!

and this bunny looks damn awesome!

True lover's or those in love truly...never would manipulate their partner into doing something you know that is against their wishes. If it's wrong for a man who wants 3 kids, and his woman wants 2 to "soft coerce" her into having that 3rd is wrong. It is just as it is wrong to "soft coerce" your lover into having kids as proof of loving you. Rather that "love" now becomes manipulated for your own selfish ends because you feel you are entitled to have a child with them, they now "owe" you that child. This no longer is love, but cold calculated selfish manipulation of strong emotions nothing more. It is love perverted by selfishness, and such is never LOVE.

There is a big difference between request, and requests fulfilled out of love. There is also a thing called manipulation. which are you? But does the puppet ever know he is being manipulated? Does he know that someone is pulling his strings? Or is he too happily lost, in the love, to notice what is happening to him?

I believe that god punishes inconsiderate people who blast their voices over the stadium, with rain.

thank you god!

how would you feel if that was your son, or your daughter

how would you feel if that was you

he's a person the same as you and i, with feelings

"yeah but hey have places for retards"

yeah and they should have places for people like you, that are rude, insensitive and cruel

and when it's time for you to meet your baby, i hope he remembers who you are

everybody deserves an education, everybody deserves a job, and everybody deserves a chance in this life

this video makes me cry..

Today, I resolved a conflict successfully!

So proud of myself!

I learnt, that sometimes, such issues you should leave like 24 day hours for the person to think things through in his head, before sending out an email. :D

and I need 24 day hours to think through my email before sending it out too!

and that sometimes, you really need to call the person to resolve it!

here's my email!

eunice, thanks for your advice on what to say to him! :D I realised the power of being "magnanimous " and making him guilty for his actions! u r damn zhai!!!

and guy in conflict, im really glad that you actually called to apologise! you really gained my respect when you called to apologise, and when you had so many things to say! I realised that you really have been reflecting on this issue!

and im proud of myself, that I didn't step away from conflict, but i tried my best to resolve it! I really learnt much, and i feel that he has learnt much too!

thanks fafa! :D

Dear Jonathan,

I hope that you can understand that the main dispute is between you and Shawn. I also do not see why you need to drag me into the issue. I have already clearly told my OGL, even though the transfer isn't possible, I still want to go ahead and attend this camp.

More importantly, I also hope you can understand what is wrong with this situation. Honestly, I feel that you have let your emotions get the better of you, and created a situation which should not have occurred in the first place.

The dispute started, not when he tried to switch groups, but could not, and decided to withdraw instead. He actually had the courtesy to thank you for allowing him to withdraw. Instead, it started when you had to accuse him unfairly in an sms, so naturally he has to defend himself. I do not see why you have to reprimand people for withdrawing. Professionally speaking, we are all mature adults, and there is no need to reprimand others for their decision. He was simply trying his luck, to switch groups, if possible. Was it so wrong to make his request? I understand that you might have taken offence at his untactful phrasing. I apologize on his behalf if you did. However, isn't it much better that people tell you tactless truth, rather then the sugar coated lie you want to hear?

More importantly, we should be magnanimous people, and understand that there are many other factors that has affected the people's final decision, which we, on the receiving end are simply unaware of. Additionally, as we are neither kin nor kith to him, Shawn does not face any obligation to explicitly explain his situation to you, so that you can understand his disposition. I believe that Shawn has clearly, and carefully considered the pros and cons of his decision, and weighted the consequences before making his request.Thus it is extremely unfair, and hurtful for you to judge him based on the small interactions you have had. Any human being with feelings, would of course would feel insulted by what you have said in your sms to him, and take action, to defend himself. Thus I hope that you can be understanding, and see things from other people's perspective. I hope that in the future, you will not let small issues like this, get to you, and undermine your professionalism. The whole incident should have ended from his "thank you" sms.

This fact that other factors have played a part in his decision, can be inferred from how although we are not able to be in the same group, I am still willing to go ahead with the camp. If it was solely due to how we wanted to be in the same group, both of us would have dropped out, the moment you disallowed us to be in the same group. Thus I hope that you can look beyond what the situation appears to be, and understand that it is more that what it seems to be, and that there are other factors involved. I hope that you will not be so quick to judge people in the future.

I would just like to input a point in defense of my good friend, as I am sure that you should understand that it is important to stand up for your friend, when you feel that they have been wronged by others. I understand that you say that it's randomness "5. Likewise, our current decision is actually fairness for you as well. The idea of randomness for volunteers in group, so that if even our own friends joined the camp, we wouldn't have paired them into the same group on purpose." However, I do not understand why you truly need this concept of "randomness". I would understand this concept, if this was a camp to make new friends. However, like what you stated, the purpose of this camp is to help the less fortunate, and the intellectually disabled?

Thus, let me ask you a question. Doesn't your own organizing committee consist of groups of friends, being in the same department? Don't you want to be in a committee where you at least know 1 other person, so that you wont be so awkward and shy, and can perform better at your position? Don't you, yourself hate it when lecturers say that project groups need to be random,when you personally feel that you can deliver your best when you are allowed to work with people you know to achieve an important target? I believe that by working with people that i know in the same group, we will be able to help the people with special needs to the best of our abilities. Isn't that the most important point of this whole camp? Helping the less fortunate to the best of our abilities? Rationally speaking, shouldn't you organize the camp such that we can best help these special needs people? I understand that you might say that it is very difficult to swap groups, but I cant help but wonder, why do you let administrative complications, hamper your true intentions of helping others? But I hope that we can put this group swapping issue aside, it is not as important as the problem at hand here, and is already resolved, as Shawn has decided withdraw from the camp.

Lastly, I have noted all of your other points, and I do understand where you are coming from. Of course we have all along understood where you were coming from, when you said no about transferring groups, which is why Shawn did not pursue the issue, and just said thank you when you declined his swap, and decided to withdraw instead. Thus, we do not see the need for this email. Infact, we are quite hurt, that you see the need to send this kind of emails,and messages.

Finally, we had wanted to raise the issue to you earlier, but there was no avenue, as the Google docs did not give us any fields, neither were we able to attend the briefing, so we had no idea that there would be orientation groups. We had thought that this camp, would have been like the other CIP camps, where there was no need for orientation groups, but still everyone had tons of fun. I do admit that it was our fault for not clarifying this issue about orientation groups earlier, but as there as there was no details, we did not know what to expect, or what to request for until we received that fateful call from our"ogls".

Thus, the purpose of this email, is to let you understand where Shawn is coming from as I hope that you will not mis-understand the intentions of this very good friend of mine. Thus I sincerely hope that you can understand where we are coming from as well.

Lets not let this small issue affect the running of your camp, and our ability to help the less fortunate.

I sincerely hope that we can put aside this issue, and not let it affect our working relationship. Thus, I hope that we can get along well at the camp, and I look forward to meeting you, and working together with you during the actual camp, as I am very keen on helping the intellectually disabled.

If there are any aspects of this email that you dissatisfied about, or there is any further misunderstanding, do not hesitate to call me at ________, so that I can clarify the matter. I hope that we can start the camp on the right foot.

Yours sincerely,

Kimberlyn

I think the ability to stand up for your principles is the most important

Your principles are that you wont stand for people pushing you around

My principles are that one should never back down for what was promised/agreed upon

and if it brings us along different routes, thats fine with me too

omgz the yukatis james.. he look so cool and so tall.. but his voice.. its like... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......

so much for 190 in height... (listen to him speak chinese at the 2 min mark of the video!)

today i had dinner with eunice and yingqi!

at some steamboat place!

it was pretty interesting!

today was a good day! good friends, good chat, good food!

esp the chat w shunfa!

life analysis

friends

love

-ray chan - i don't think life w ray can get any better. he follows me around now! (at night that is)

- sotong - things are just great.. sure we have our ups and downs, more ups then downs. love u!

job

-the obvious lack of one, is seriously bothering me

life

- I need a bigger hobby. beyond clubbing. something satisfying

future

weaknesses

- i always portray situations as simpler then it actually is. I brush aside unhappiness. I pretend it didn't happen.

I was reading my old blog...

I had a secret blog.. before this one XD

nope im not telling you the address unless you kneel down and beg me to or sth...

but its fun to re-read.. coz i realised that i was really.. kind of.. naive or sth..

like.. quote " in one of the dreams you came to me and asked me how i was. i told you tearfully that i'm happy, always have been, always will be, until you came. in my dream i asked you to leave. "

and i re-read about happy memories about pa" 19/3/2006 -me&pa met for lunch at cck then we went west coast 4 fun in e sun! so sad turned out tt got no beach. haiz. we sat on the pyramid thinge e whole day. pa really can socialise with the kids. he sure will make a brilliant kindergarden teacher or salesman in e future.. all e grandma's & kids will love him! haha. had dinner at the jap thinge at JE."

and my exciting cycling trip with shunfa.. "13/3 -me & sF went cycling EXPLORING woodlands. went from woodlands--> marsling--> causeway --> m'sian beach --> admarildty avenue -->highway looking road --> prison --> strange houses tt we agreed must be where the business men re hiding their indonesian wives --> more highway -->industrial estate --> somewhat lost (headed for nearest but UNFAMILIAR hdb flats), then BAM! somehow ended up in ... --> SEMBAWANG! opposite a painted riverside sec school --> sunplaza 2 rest --> 7-eleven to drink --> toilet to wash up --> cc to just see see --> cinema to stare at posters --> arcade to play --> buy drink at 7 eleven -->cycling again --> back to wdl --> horseshoe --> sit n stare at e full moon and e stars at e end of the fork --> toilet break at vistapoint --> woodgrove 4 supper (prata) -->home. FUN! ^^"

and exciting food escapades with jy" 11/4 : tuesday. today i had dinner with JY at cwp. after school i was so happy! we literally ran out of the place! went to the fiesta convert to ??? to eat udon. they have this special offer in wich you an eat meals complete with green tea and hand roll + $1 desert for $5 base amount. still havent count gst & service tax. but free flow of drinks! ^^ the whole bill cost 13.90, cheaper then anytime i have even eaten there, just my portion tt kind of thing! so cheap!!! (e whole night he dun let me sleep want to settle when tt kind of thing. like so despo like tt. haiz.)"

and the CUTE JC1 GUY THAT WAS MY EYECANDY!! "13/4 : thursday! hz birthday! came early withe s uper big card! got everyone to sign it & passed it & e presents to her! hope she likes em! i drew e card last nite, but i dont think she knows im e one who did e card. nvm its from everyone so it doesnt realy matter. when signing it, the DAMN CUTE J1 GUY!! AHH!! i know that is locker is same area as mine! then very funny coz jy was signing hte card then seh say sth stupid he look into his locker n laugh. damn cute lah!"

and how dina never talks enough "15/4 : sat. this morning i went running with dina! intersting! & nice! coz run slowly just chat all e way.. just wished tt i could run longer. after think 6 very slow rounds.. think italk too much sometimes.. want to poke her tell her to talk but she never talk so i just blab on n on ,....."

and the "G'd OLD IJC days" Her return reminded me of 1st 3 months n why i really loved it here in IJC back then. It was so cozy and warm like a huge big family. Best of all there were no snobs. ahh. the good old days. Then this silly song

I'm a model you know what I meanAnd I do my little turn on the catwalkYeah on the catwalk on the catwalk yeahI do my little turn on the catwalk. I'm too sexy for my love too sexy for my loveLove's going to leave meI'm too sexy for my shirt too sexy for my shirt So sexy it hurts My shirts gonna leave me

Then i thought of campfire night with the "hot guys" sent outside 4 manhunt n then they walk back in shirtless n do "interesting poses" so tt we could see who had the most armpit hair and clap accordingly! So hilarious! i still remember the "cutest" guy, had no hair at all! then when they sent him off the stage he looked kind of hurt until his friend told him what they were judging by. God, was he glad then! :p

and my sadder memories and the never ending dreams"you left and i was lonely but when you asked i wanted to say no. because i really like my life the way it is right now and its such a hassle. "

and my lifetime resolution -->resolution

i love edward, limey, friends n family. have to be more filiay a child. help out around the house. play less. study more. call grandpartents to give respect. be a better friend. study harder. laugh a little more, smile a little more, spread joy. read more, broaden knowledge. spend less, save more, study really really hard. study really really hard. theres so many things, so beautiful in this world to live for. i really love my life at this moment. but when this moment passes, what will life be like in the next moment? i believe that only you can control your own future so i resolbe to make it e best future possible. i want to be happy n life life w/o regrets. have to study! realy really really really hard! give it 210%! coz i wana go U, n stay in a dorm n all thatz! then ill earn points to stay through running 4 e house! i wana learn how to drive, play a musical instrument, get a good job n all that! maybe someday ill get marriend n have kids n settle down.

i realized that i accomplished everything, except for the last 3, which is job, marriage and kids.. I think i need to have a bigger goal in life :D

and the last memory

"will i really only live till 25 years as the fortune teller told me in my dream? some of my dreams come true, but not all do. i hope that this one doesnt, and this beautufl dream that my life currently is never ends. but all things have to end, no matter how beautiful, no matter how tightly we may grasp on to them, no matter how hard we wish or long with all our hear that they wont, sometime, someday.......

~ and i wont wait to find if this will last forever, coz it wont, coz it wont, coz it cant. it just cant."

those were the days.. where everyday had something different and exciting happening..

wad happened to my life man!

almost going to hit 23 years old, and still going strong! bad dreams, dont play me out! im going to outlive you! because now i have a life goal, which i have to achieve before i reach 35!

wait before i get ahead of my self again, take a look at dina's 2005 blog entries.. those are really old school manz!

My new Favourite song! somehow its really catchy!

Misery
Oh yeah
Oh yeah
So scared of breaking it
But you won't let it bend
And I wrote two hundred letters
I won't ever send
Somehow it is cut so much
Deeper then they seem
You'd rather cover up
I'd rather let them be
So let me be
And I'll set you free

[CHORUS]
I am in misery
There ain't no other
Who can comfort me
Why won't you answer me?
Your silence is slowly killing me
Girl you really got me bad
You really got me bad
I'm gonna get you back
Gonna get you back

Your salty skin and how
It mixes in with mine
The way it feels to be
Completely intertwined
It's not that I didn't care
It's that I didn't know
It's not what I didn't feel,
It's what I didn't show
So let me be
And I'll set you free

poor guys out there

getting their hearts broken

by girls who don't understand

all guys are the same

so.... glad... to... be.... home...

so...exhausted...

heat rash takes its toil T_T

damn awesome sports bra saves woman!

http://www.cheeseplay.com/?p=240

http://www.chinasmack.com/2011/pictures/wang-jiayun-chinese-blow-up-doll-becomes-famous-in-korea.html

SHE SCARES ME!!!

just look at that figure!! 42kg!! how come she haven't die from anorexia!

today's grand WOODLANDS PCN CYCLING TRIP!

had me tong drew chuanlim shunfa and DINA!

dina made it around the 20+km on a bicycle! so proud of her!

also, alot of exciting BOOM things happened!

it was just damn epic somehow!!

especially with drew's HUGE BOOTIE attracting the attention of a table of about 10 girls!!

lets go again!! this time, to sembawang beach and hot spring! we bring pails along!!!

sunburnt!

omg its so funny!

how this news flash

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jkDComEOWt0&feature=fvwrel (they didnt allow me to embed the media :( )

becomes this!

autotune rocks!!

i really should try this stuff...

I think that its so hilarious that the original news flash video

got auto tuned into a song!!!

Smoking Baby goes to Rehab!!

I hope he gets better soon!!!

Eunice says that ivh lost weight, alot of weight compared to last time..

i wonder which time she was referring to, but i'm just damn happy i can fit into my clothes again!!!!!

now if i can fit into that pair of pants i bought back in JC, i'd be really happy!

more running, more training!

oh and my 2nd double eyelid kind of popped out and started staying permanently recently.. together with mr and mrs eyebag.. darn...

I cant help it! lee teuk is so cute!! kyah~ *crazy fan girl moment*

is this fish dead too??? how come it swims!!!

I miss tongie!

♥tongie tongie!♥

earth day is coming! exciting plans! :D

Just watched green hornet!

zhou jie lun was good!

but his co-actor was just plain irritating and a really big ass-hole!

bad movie...=x

so cool! i want one!

Apple and Blackberry should team up and make a phone called the Pie.

AGREED

all say AYE!

There was this video about serving the "live dead fish"

it seems cruel and wrong, its like.. if you are going to die, you rather choose to die a quick and painless death, rather then suffer on your death bed and writhe in pain while people poke things at you and laugh at your suffering..

but I guess when we stop to think about it, this makes sense:

dead is dead. i defy you to prove that the fish, once dead, gives a rats a^^ how it died.

in fact i defy you to prove that anyone who is dead, actually cares how they died.

i think in fact they would prefer not to die at all, than to quibble over how.

since thats not an option for game, death is as death does.

if it gets eaten, it doesnt matter how it dies. its dead. NOW .. if they just fried it and hurled it out the back, that would be a crime. but its prey. prey gets eaten. end of story. do you think the fish cares if its deep fried and eaten, or stabbed and sliced into a billion wafer thin pieces, or steamed ina can?

crikey other animals TEAR thier prey limb from limb to eat it. dont hear you complaining we should stop lions from eating gazelles. thats cruel!

ps, whale is delicious. screw those lazy giant cows of the sea!! if they dont want to be eaten, let them tell us!

but what i really really really wana know.. is how on earth can that fish still be alive after being scaled, gutted, slit at the throat and deep fried?? Is it really still alive? Or is it just still moving??

"I'd like to share a revelation that I've had during my time here. It came to me when I tried to classify your species and I realized that you're not actually mammals. Every mammal on this planet instinctiv­ely develops a natural equilibriu­m with the surroundin­g environmen­t but you humans do not. You move to an area and you multiply and multiply until every natural resource is consumed and the only way you can survive is to spread to another area. There is another organism on this planet that follows the same pattern. Do you know what it is? A virus. Human beings are a disease, a cancer of this planet. You're a plague and we are the cure."

~ Agent Smith (The Matrix)

I like this somehow