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Praise

Today boss told me that he was impressed by my presentation

I thought that he was going to say that it was due to me knowing alot

I was more surprised that he said that it was due to my confidence during my presentation

He said that AD thinks that im shy and that if customers scold or bully me I will cry. So I should try to exlude more confidence infront of AD Like during the presentation

Well I was in too much shock from the praise to respond intelligently

Should have told him that
1) appear soft spoken because of respect. Afraid that if im too loud it will be disrespectful.
2) im also new, should learn first rather then insist on my way
3) I may look soft, but im made of steel. I wont cry even if the customer scolds me. Im good at taking it in my stride.
4) if boss scolds me, will be sad but most important is to learn from mistakes
5) if I need to be firm and hard, I can be the very assertive, firm and demanding. However that is not always the way to go, people might do it but will be very unhappy inside.  I prefer to go the soft way to get the job done, and have happy people. When you are nice to them, people are more inclined to reciprocate and be nice to you.
6) I can be very scary, e.g. to suppliers everytime I scold them on the phone my colleague says that its very scary. But I choose not to.

Maybe 6 points is a bit verbal Diahorrea.. should have just told him that its an impression people have but its not true.. im like (cant figure out what is soft outside but hard inside)..

Hmmm...

Glutton for punishment

You make me doubt my self worth
Make me ask myself what can I possibly be good at
Make me feel worthless
Make me wonder what is it that they have that I dont

I try to confort myself that im much better then you
Not everyone is good at the same things
Some people are better thn others in some areas
But I cant find anything worth mentioning that isn't superficial

So I need to find a way to love me
Find a way to validate my worth
Its hard but
I think ill make it
Somehow

So silly for falling into your nice trap
Such a fool for not believing in myself
I dont need to find recognition in your eyes
When you will just treat me worse every time

Stop going back
Stop letting it bother me
Stop being
A glutton for punishment

Damn you smrt

6 mins waiting time instead of 3 min interval
30 mins to je from woodlands instead od 20 mins
Train so crowded like f*** I cant even get on at je. Spend 10 mins at the platform instead of 5
15 mins from je to bouna vista instead of 10

My 35 min journey via mrt has just transformed into 1 hour.  and i havent even included the travelling time from home to the station. Well done smrt. Well done.

Self centered selfish b*

She was saying

B: I never list my employer's namd on facebook. Otherwise whatever you say they know

We told her about the ntuc case where she  didn't put any employer but still they caught her and dismissed her. Warned her that as long as its racist or opionated shouldn't say on a the internet

B:its so sad right? As public servant everything also cannot say. Everything also they want to control. Don't you think it's sad?

We stared at her queerly. No I don't think its sad

I wanted to continue to say

Because I believe that as long as its not constructive, rude, or might hurt somebody  I don't see a point in saying it.

But I thought that it was rude so I kept my thoughts to myself

I wanted to tell her. If your comments dont add value to the situation and only hurt others, why do you even say it. Its not going to change anything. What benefit do you derive from saying it.

Knowing how she is. Most prob she will say

B:because I feel better after complaining. Let off some steam.

Then I would want to tell her.

Then thats you being selfish and not thinking about others feelings. How can you do that.

No thats why I keep these thoughts to myself.

I must think of a politically correct way of saying this.

New home

I just got my new home yesterday

I was 15 in queue but somehow I ended up first!
It will be done by jan 2016

Pros
good location (central part of SG)
Near to 24h supermarket
Near to eating place
No issues if lift breaks down
Reasonably near to mrt
Quite near to good food
Near to parents
Affordable 400k
Timely (jan 2016)  
near to guka cantonment (safe?)
quiet neighbourhood

Cons
Precint pavillion (noisy?)
not as ideal as l wish it could be  
Sports facilities (pool)
Shopping center far
4 room (wished for 5room)
1km away from MRT (+/-)
4th floor :(

I guess the cons are all wants rather then needs

So its ok

still worried about the PP

Such superficial creatures

Some guys are such superficial creatures

Guess I need to wake up earlier to put on makeup

Sorry, I'm nothing like you

But just because I'm nothing like you doesn't mean I don't respect the heck out of you. If you don't believe me, consider this the ultimate compliment — I married your son knowing full well that, as the saying goes, "you marry the whole family."

1. "Jane (your mother-in-law), I know how hard you work to maintain a very enjoyable reputation as a great hostess with many artistic talents. I know this was a priority in your own family growing up. We have benefited from these talents as well. [Okay, here comes the Confrontation part] But this is my first home and I know you can understand how exciting it is for me to make my own decorating decisions - right or wrong. I am sure I have a lot to learn and I appreciate your ideas, but I need you to respect my opinions as I do yours, even if we disagree. Your tone and persistence makes it sometimes feel like a contest. I don't want it to be a contest. I don't want it to hurt our relationship."2. (Phone Rings — Oh no…it's HER again!) "Hi Jane. I only have five minutes as I am running to an appointment, but I didn't want to miss your call again." (Okay — small white lie — but a good limit setting approach) You can increase the number of stress-free days and moments by limiting your exposure. Keep the calls short and infrequent, same with visits when possible. Remember: you cannot change a narcissist by yourself, but you may have some influence over the way they behave with you. You can also control the impact it has on you by limiting your contact and clarifying the boundaries when you are with them. 3. For example, "Jane, I appreciate your concern for little Timmy and what you see as his over-attachment to his teddy bear. I know you watch Oprah and read articles about child development, and feel you have some expertise in this area. It is okay for you to offer your input to us privately, but it is not acceptable for you to discuss this in front of our friends or in front of the children. This must not happen again. I am counting on you to respect our wishes, and I'd appreciate your commitment to this effort while in our home." There - you said it, graciously but firmly. So, let's say she sighs, waves her hand in the air, as if to dismiss you like an annoying flying insect, or puffs up and gets defensive. Simply and nicely let her know that you had no intention of offending her nor are you inviting her into a debate on the matter. Again, "Jane let's not let this hurt our relationship." And leave it at that. These skills take time and practice.

You're the mom now. Act like it. That means being mature and getting the chip off your shoulder. Quit being so sensitive.

Understand that your mother-in-law does have a tremendous investment in your husband. That's one commonality you share. You both love him.

Try to see things through your mother-in-law's eyes. It is so hard as a parent to see "naive rookie mom" doing some things that don't look right.

how to make it better
http://www.sheknows.com/love-and-sex/articles/3679/how-to-deal-with-your-motherinlaw

reading the comments of other people help me to be strong. and tell myself im not alone.
http://moms.popsugar.com/What-Happens-When-Husband-Confides-His-Mom-Before-His-Wife-27332574

reading this reminds me that if i continue to just say yes to everything i am walking into a death trap
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/pauline-gaines/how-my-inlaws-made-and-br_b_1550646.html

I hope that i nvr have to face this
I think it is wonderful when a man is able to confide to his mother and ask her opinon, but his WIFE should be his main confidant. Also, her husband should NEVER cross the line and talk to his Mother about marital issues. That is setting up a breakdown in the relationship between his wife and his mother.

what they say the husband should do
The husband needs to put his foot down and let his mother know "He will not listen to this kind of ridicule or put downs anymore or the time he spends will be cut very short. 

everyone says this:
that the new family unit should take precedence before the childhood familiy
There can be no divided loyalties. Your loyalty needs to be with your wife.
If your wife has a problem with your mother, it is your job to intervene and try to fix it. 



I hope she doesnt think this way

any woman who makes her husband choose her against his mother is living with a looser who has no value in life. The woman who carried you, birth you, brought you up, cried for you and stayed up for you verses someone you met who gives you sex...mmmm..how can any decent human compare the two relationship. One based on blood, sweat and mercy and the other one based on companionship

All parents should read the below

I found myself considerably bothered for some time after reading the responses posted following this topic. I believe that embedded within much of the text is the root of the universal mother-in-law/daughter-in-law issue. I believe that as mother's we often get wrapped up into touting the flag of 'labor, blood, sweat, and tears' as if it's our cross to bear. We parade the flag about in front of our friends, especially the young, non, or soon-to-be mothers, and expect all others to acknowldege that our cross is the largest and heaviest. The problem with this habit is that it's self-centered in nature. Using it as a 'one-up' to anyone, especially our child's significant other, is making all things about ourselves. It lacks the acknowledgement that our child did not ask us to bear that cross and, more importantly, it shames the honor we have as mothers in doing so. We should never do things for the ones we love if our intent will be to use it as a 'you-owe-me' in the future. Our job as wives and mothers within our family unit is to partner with our spouse to care for one another and to raise happy, healthy, productive adults that contribute to society. It is the difference between the belief that our children are of us rather than pass through us. We might also caution ourselves against assuming that issues with our daughter-in-laws revolve around immaturity. Ultimately, our judgement on anothers maturity level might be more a reflection of our lack of understanding about their insecurities. Becoming a wife and mother can be a very difficult thing and feeling confident and secure in the relationship she's building with her spouse is often the only signs she might have that she's succeeding. It's important to remember that the success of a marriage is based on healthy levels of trust and intimacy. For men, intimacy can quickly be encompassed in physical connections. These connections are really about more than just 'sex.' It's about sex, adequacy, love and trust. For women, intimacy is much more intricate and is based on communication. When a wife feels comfortable to confide in her partner and knows that he desires to come to her with his innermost dreams, aspirations, and concerns, she feels secure in her intimacy and bond to him. When her husband instead chooses to communicate these thoughts to his mother, it can be felt as a breach of trust. It breeds a level of insecurity and a violation of healthy marital intimacy. Almost like cheating, it can be felt as if he is choosing another women over his spouse. Our role as mothers is to love our sons and prepare them to be the best husbands and fathers possible. Letting them go and respecting the boundaries necessary to enter into the union of marriage is part of this process. This topic is not about forcing a choice. It's about acknowledging that we have served gallently as parents and it is time to encourage our sons to partner with their spouses to do the same for their own children. My advice is to include both spouses in the conversation. If, as a mother, you find your son asking to confide in you about concerns affecting his marriage, encourage him to bring his spouse to the conversation as well. Encourage them to utilize a counselor that can remain impartial while assisting them in developing the lasting tools necessary for a successful marriage. Acknowledge the need for this new young family to set their own boundaries and create their own traditions and try to see the honor in being invited into some of these new traditions. Support her need to find security in her relationship with the man you raised.

I think i should write to prudie. 

im so disturbed.. 

The greatest irony

And the greatest irony of it all is that you say that you treat me like family

No more

Had enough of being a third class citizen
Being treated like I dont exist
Being told things indirectly
Why cant you just tell me things directly?
Why do you have to treat me like im just an attachment
The free gift
The dispensable one
The unwanted, uninvited guest

And even you dont act like you want me around
Make me feel like im a burden a chore
the undesirable responsibility

Im already treated like this by everyone else
Then you walk off and leave me all alone at the back
You say that you want to spend time with them
You are confused  on who you should place first
But if you too dont involve me
Who will
I dont have anyone else with me

My only 'companion' was already taken from me
All it took was a 'You dont have me in your heart any more' for her to be at your side and hold your hand

This subtle politics is getting to me
It has wounded me so bad
I'm doubting everything I ever had

So
I trail along at the back
The outsider
All alone
Regretting  ever coming along

Maybe all you ever wanted was just to spemd time with them
You dont need me here
I wished so earnestly to go home

Maybe you dont want to spend time with me
Its always the qn of what do you want
Rather than that u want to see me

Feeling
Just so miserable and alone suddenly