HOW TO SAVE A SNOWFLAKE!

anybody who goes overseas to a place w snow, pls bring me this sourviener! *-*

http://blog.makezine.com/archive/2006/03/how_to_save_a_snowflake_for_de.html

I LOVE SOTONG VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH! ^^

*KISS*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gJmX1z1NY2c


this mv is super cool! the floor moves!

actually i read how they did it was push the walls ;p

eng has more cr8tive MV but other language has the more groovy songs ;p

i like this song~~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gx8Se_6lZTM&NR=1

alex! woot! ;p

alth i still like the ant couple more.. but..

alex!

woot!

today..

i studied with sotong at woodlands library!

i study he psp that is..

sotong so good to meee! *hug* thank yoooo..

woke up too early i KO-ed in the library at the beginning of my 2nd chapter =x

then accompanied sotong go walk walk see his new specs!

it was damn ex! but he seemed happy with it.. hopefully he likes it..

be prepared to see a new funky sotong! ^^ his specs are funky!

I really like this song!

http://www.esnips.com/doc/82840ebf-dcd3-4aa4-b073-635648e555c4/27.-M2U---BLYTHE

its some song from DJ Max portable.. then those u must play the game then got the song.. i keep making kel play the song so i can hear it! ;p at first his song grade A+ then became A then became B.. i think i force the poor sotong until he xian! ;p sotong so good to mee ^^ *hug*

then after that he zhidong help me get the song! yeah! ^^ thank you!

i think its coz he scared that i force him to play the some for me somemore! lol..

here's e lyrics!

http://www.bemanistyle.com/forum/f107/blythe-m2u-djmax-portable-24586/

i like the "fake" lyrics! really sound like! lol..

im an official katy perrry fan! *_* now to go to the cd shop to buy the cd!

this song is sooo sad!! T_T

she wants to kill her self coz her relationship with her bf isnt working out..

then she blames herself..

then she writing suicide letter to him..

like so chan!! T_T

lyrics

fan Video

eh wait...

i keep hearing...

then IT SOUNDS EVEN MORE CHAN!!

I THINK I MISUNDERSTAND IT!!

i think she dying from terminal disease..

so she trying all kinds of reckless things..

but at the same time she and her bf not v stable..

then she writing letter to him telling him about her terminal disease then about how maybe its better to break up before she dies..

so that he wont be so sad when she dies..

but but but

she still loves him alot so she cant help but want him to continue loving her as long as she is still alive..

i get very addicted to catchy lyrics that i find interesting!

this MV is sooo cute!

watch watch *_*

http://www.imeem.com/shemy/video/t-pRD4tH/katy_perry_hot_n_cold_official_music_video_hq_music_vide/

its about this almost married girl who sings about her fiance being a girl!

i love how everyone suddenly starts shaking and then start singing her expression v nice to watch v cool then start running around she tears off the skirt of her wedding dress and chase him everywhere and haunt him even appear in the handphone then got zebra then turn out he was having a 3 minute hallucination!

the beginning part of the lyrics are the most addictive!

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah you, PMS
Like a bitch
I would know

And you over think
Always speak
Crypticly

first time i hear of such a lousy guy! ;p

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
(you)You don't really want to stay, no
(but you)But you don't really want to go-o

then she sings about how he's plain boring!

funky! ;p

hey hey hey!

its post 201!

i was reading horoscope on http://www.pasqualina.com/sff/Aries.asp?Diff=SFG

then i tot mine was quite true!

jiaying's was quite true about how she likes jewllery. ;p

but not v sure if the rest are true.. hmmm

Ill just pretend that you are an INCONSIDERATE stranger

coz the number 1 thing i hate most in the world is unexpected visitors.

i thought you should know that.

now i know why i got so depressed when i mistook the 8pm exam for 8am and i cheered up so much after dear scolded me!

http://www.onemanga.com/Skip_Beat/122/06/

its quite similair!

ahem ahem

and thanks to eunice who thankfully woke up for me when i called her and she told me its 8pm not 8am! haha~

now then i finally understand why lecturers like to use the word "widget" in their exams and tutorials and projects. Its an actual english word!



widget
American Heritage Dictionary
widg·et (wĭj'ĭt) Pronunciation Key. n.

1. A small mechanical device or control; a gadget.
2. An unnamed or hypothetical manufactured article.

OMG THIS IS THE SCARIEST SMILE ON EARTH!

http://www.onemanga.com/Skip_Beat/91/09/

I CANT STOP LAUGHING THOU..

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA...

oh ya i forgot to say this..

i found a cute guy!!!

kyahhh!!!

http://www.onemanga.com/Skip_Beat/55/00/


so cute!! ahhh!!

he look super cute here also!

http://www.onemanga.com/Skip_Beat/55/18/

he's the "mr princess"

i just remembered that in fruits basket my favourite character was the rabbit! he like so cute like that! and when grow up also become so shuai! *_* too bad tohu got kyo.. sigh...

havent found a cute guy in centuries.. not even when dina and jiaying were gushing over death the kid and soul... -_- I WILL NEVER ACCEPT BLACK STAR! ID RATHER TAKE EXCALIBUR! :P

i was reading this manga SKIP BEAT which jy introduced to me, and i think that this part where the director of the company is talking to the guy about relationship and how he should feel when the girl wants to break up with him as really accurate! waaa!

http://www.onemanga.com/Skip_Beat/54/13/

keep having cravings recently~

i want sharks fin soup from the pasarmalam @ woodlands!

so sad that im not going to be in woodlands until end of next week!

hopefully pasar malam stays until end of next week!!

sharks fin soup!

i love you!!!!

DO NOT USE M1 broadband wireless internet service! IT HAS TERRIBLE HORRIBLE LOUSY CONNECTION SPEED AT WOODLANDS AREA! IT COMPLETELY CANNOT MAKE IT!

when i first sign up for it, they say its super compatible with fujitsu laptop. and compatible with windows vista.
my laptop is fujitsu laptop running on windows vista and it was barely half a year old.
i bring home. cant install. no-installation cd. they cant detect the installation program, neither can they detect the modem. cant work.
i bring to cwp branch. the csc tempered with my laptop for 1 hour also cannot work. tell me to go down to main branch at IMM. -1st time @ m1 shop @ imm-
i bring to IMM queue for 1 hour. then i leave my laptop there for 5 mins they call me back say its fixed le. say its something to do with my firewall.

are the outlet staff incompetent or what?

then i bring home. at first the speed is ok. (Note this was during december 07)

as the weeks went by it get slower and slower.

SOMETIMES SLOW UNTIL I CANT EVEN OPEN WEBPAGE. I KEEP RESTARTING MY COMPUTER to just get it to work. load 1 webpage -only words without graphics- 10 MINS. better still, web browser keep saying im not connected to internet when m1 modem says i am connected.

so i brought it down to M1 shop and repair. -2nd time-

test try- at shop v fast - v happy bring home-

at home. speed slow. i call and complain. -load 1 page 3 mins- eh i just bring to shop and fix u say my laptop got problem? wtf? then they say my internet connection speed slow.

i went to shop upgrade to 3 mbps. they say will activate at 12 mn

happily waited- 12 mn- still take 3 mins to load 1 page- i tot maybe havent activate yet.

tahna 1 week. cant take it i went back to shop to complain.

they fix my laptop and i tried it at the shop. it was really fast. i bring home. quite fast. then i plug out my modem and keep

next day plug back in. -SLOW until CMI- even slower then my previous internet speed! i thought using dial up 56k modem was faster then this!!


i went back to shop to complain. -4th time bringing my modem and laptop alll the way down to M1 shop @ IMM- beside me alot of people bring laptop compain internet is slow also.

THE CUSTOMER SERVICE OFFICER SERVING ME TOLD ME HIMSELF THAT THE wireless INTERNET IS CHUIX. HE TOLD ME TO SIGN UP FOR a fixed line like SINGTEL AND GIVE UP trying to use m1.

after he fix and at the shop i try, its fast again. but when i bring home, its slow.

i called to complain. they told me maybe its the area too densely popluated with M1 users. they will run some satelite check to upgrade the service if i still find it slow. the satelite upgrade will take 1 month.


5 months of LOUSY INTERNET SERVICE has passed.


i couldnt take it i went to sign up for singtel.

its really fast and really good.


THE WORST PART ABOUT M1
after i canceled my subsctiption after the 6 months had passed,
they made me pay for a bill in advance for the following month.
the bill was for 30 something dollars. after i cancelled my subscription i was so happy i chucked the bills into the dustbin. they promised me a refund on a prorated basis because i had only used that month's subscription for 2 days.

i kept chasing M1 for my refund, but they told me that it was standard procedure to only refund me 3 months from cancellation. i was unhappy but i accepted this fact.


now they cook up some story about how the bill is from duno what date to duno what date and can only refund me $2 of my 30 dollars! i cant find any supporting documents and when i called the hotline the customer service officer called choley was very rude and kept interrupting what i was saying and telling me that their company records did not have records of me making a further payment.


in short,

i tolerated a lousy internet service of loading speed 3 mins on average per page for 6 months
internet speed is slowest during 8-11pm.
its only half decent between 3am to 12pm
i use 1/2 way, esp during playing games, it keep disconnecting half way. then i get killed by monster.. T_T
I called their customer service hotline - when u are customer they are very nice to you- more then 12 times in the previous 6 months
personally went down to the M1 branch @ imm 4 times and the branch @ cwp 2x in that 6 months to resolve problems with the internet service-but none of my problems got resolved.
and i couldnt take it then i cancelled my subscription in the end because the internet connection speed would never increase even though i upgraded the speed.

i dont know if other people faced the same problems as me but im just writing my super long complaint to warn other people about the potential problemsfaced when using this service.

im going to post everything i said there about m1 in a forum!!!

i found my old favourite song!!

actually i found the japanese version then i couldnt remember if i ever heard the english version before..

this is the ONE AND ONLY anime song which the english version is A MILLION TIMES BETTER THEN JAP!

listen & enjoy! ^^

http://www.imeem.com/fuckeduppriestess/music/BlnBpRLd/minako_honda_lullaby_yasashiku_dakasete/ --> jap

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y0K34CmmknA&feature=related --> english


this one is a bit side track but the AMV sync the dancing until super good!

dancing

why are you so mad?

its none of your business so get lost

yes but im curious

its everything so shut up! everything! everything pisses me off!
those people.. those people! and them!.. and you too! everything, absolutely everyone, i hate them all!

They treat people like garbage,

when its them who are the trash

even though there's nothing special about them!

it would be better if everyone of you would just die! die! die! go to hell! disappear! go break down!

but you want them to care about you right? you want them to turn around and notice you right?

These people.. you want to be given a purpose right?

you want them to listen to you.. to understand you.. to react to you..

you want to be loved right?

that is the way i am...

The thing i want to ask myself most is... how did i get this way.. did i make a wrong turn somewhere? was i wrong about something? im sad.. im lonely.. to other people.. i wanted to be somebody who could be loved and is loved.. but still this is the only person i could become..

Then i realised.. no matter what time it is.. im still such a foolish person.. no matter what i was never lost.. i just couldnt find my answer..

The world doesnt need me.. i will.. for the people who need me.. carry living on..

I read this off somewhere..

no wonder i burst into tears when kim talked to me about mapp.. i feel so silly for having done so.. its just that i felt as if for the first time on earth.. somebody really understood how i felt.. somebody else was like me.. i wondered for a bit.. if he was the same kind of person i was.. that he had gone through the same thing i did.. i had hope that there would be some kind of end.. a happy one.. to this devastation..

look! sushi pillows!
from http://www.cribcandy.com/

sushi candies!!

Im a lousy speaker

i speak too fast

i force information down peoples throat

and i dont bother to pause to see if you really understood what im saying

People think that im nervous when i speak really fast but my problem is that im confident thats why i speak so fast

and the worst part is that i didnt realise im speaking so fast

and i seem as if i have memorised what im saying even though its spontaeous

I dont have steady eye contact. My eye contact just flickers

And i appear to be standing and facing the wall without realizing it and even now in my memory i have only faces i stared at and no wall

I keep saying that its very important

but i didnt bother to slow down and make sure they understand this important thing

i just bounce around and try to grab everybody's attention

not on the subject matter but on me

And i tried to get it over and done with as quickly as possible

Im a lousy speaker

next time when i speak i have to speak slowly as if trying to explain something to a child and make sure that he/she really understands. Its because im supposed to make sure you understand. Its just that i expect this to be common knowledge so i just skim past it - you.
I will stare at you intently. Me teacher. You child. I dont need to be afraid of you. DO YOU UNDERSTAND THE WORDS THAT ARE COMING OUT OF MY MOUTH?
at least i dont have problems with volume anymore...

im just frustrated that i can never seem to do anything right recently anymore..

YouTube - Bright Shadow mmorpg

i liked the song! then i went to search!

i tot that she kept singing about how she wants everbody to know that

"you are gone"

and that she wants everybody the "beautiful name" of this person she loves

then i found out that its A CHRISTIAN SONG! *gasp*

and i misheard! its that she wants everybody to know that

"you are god"

sigh~

I dont know why but i find this funny

Father to son after exam: 'let me see your report card.'
Son: 'My friend just borrowed it. He wants to scare his parents.'

i seem to be losing pieces of myself recently..

i suddenly remembered i wanted spirited away soundtrack when i was in secondary school!
abiet in the funds and resources department to purchase one, i devised a way to convert the movie into an mp3 file to listen to soothe myself to sleep!

Then i love waltz pieces and jazz pieces as i was a kid.. Jazz was from all the hotel lounges where i (small pint sized thing) will sit there and enjoy a glass of (fizzy drink - coke?what else?) and pretend to be a high class lady.

waltz was from all those cartoons and a misty dream. I dreamt of music in my sleep and most of these were waltzes..

misty dream.. are you really my nightstar? maybe some day i shall tell you about him.. or have i already?

Even though we cant be together i can follow the memories
i want to experience that same happiness
i want to cry for my thoughts wont reach up to this sky
because this is the same beautiful sky we once gazed upon, i wont cry

Ai Otsuka, Planetarium's words sound alot like FFX theme song..
bad English but nostalgic and touching..

Reminds me of the time i sat below your place and cried as i stared at the starry sky

As we get older, it just gets harder and harder to do simple things that seemed to easy to do so long ago.

I just want some REAL appreciation for all the time and effort we'vh put in that nobody else bothered to do and managed to steal all the credit for

But what matters most is that you are happy

Rule no 1: count your blessings when you recieve them so you will know how blessed you are

Today i had fun!
had project meeting @ vivocity w my business communication presentation group..
Its comprised of 1 year 3 biz student (he is engaged, getting next year, drives and has a full time job) a guy from China (who is not on scholarship) and a normal fast talking Singaporean guy(who seems very close with his mum).
Then, after project discussion, we ate @ sake sushi!
Turned out that 3 of us are sushi fans!
long live sushi!
so nice to find "tong lei" even though i never join NUS anime club.
had fun talking to them!
whee~ doing project with new people is fun! :)

Usually i keep quiet because i wish to be left alone to my own devices..

Either that or there is something i really want to tell you but i cant figure out how..

omg my finance textbook is crazy.. its full of chimology

"such goals might be couched in terms of market share, return on equity, financial leverage, and so on."

couch sth in/as sth to express something in a particular way:

"not only does a financial plan make explicit these linkages,but it also imposes unified structure for reconciling goals objectives"

explicit
1 clear and exact:
2 showing or talking about sex or violence in a very detailed way:

reconcil
1 to find a way in which two situations or beliefs that are opposed to each other can agree and exist together:
2 be reconciled When two people are reconciled they become friendly again after they have argued:

"some caveats regarding financial planning models"
caveat Show phonetics
noun [C] FORMAL
1 a warning to consider something before acting further
2 a statement which limits a more general statement

I feel like im @ a freaky english lesson.. i need a dictionary to read this textbook..

This causes cancer:

-Lying (cause of stress)
For many people the biggest stress factor in life comes from trying to please everybody. this usually means saying yes to every invitation or task given resulting in a feeling that they are leading out of control lives!

-the best way to neutralise negative emotions is to acknowledge them
You have to tell people if you are unhappy or hurt otherwise you will become a ticking time bomb!

sounds like my life recently

requests for help feel like an imposition on your time

why is it so that nobody listens to me when i speak
that nobody understands me when i say no
that i sacrifice to listen to your instructions not because i want to
but because im your friend
and because i know that it will make you happy

today i discovered the existence of a new elusive musical note called "H"

it lies between G & A as seen in cdefghabc

i wonder what it sounds like~

mosquito ringtone is painful to the ears! sounds like static =X

Today i discovered that..

my sotong loves me alot!
even if sometimes he is too tired or too sleepy to express it..

PGP asten's fish rocks!!
ahhh~ *its the not overcooked then perfectly well done, still got layers of fat inbetween slices and melts in my mouth kind*
*float float float*

hello!

im here to talk about the new love of my life!

who could it be?

*drum roll*
-commentator-
whats cuter then hug-me-bear, cuter then eeyore, cuter then kelvin himself?

its..

BEAR POP!


~kyaahh so cyute!



he's being squashed! so poor thing!


oh bear pop so studious!

this is like the 1 and only time my blog will ever have pictures! lol

can you believe it? i did not have internet access at home for two weeks because the singtel configure my internet profile wrongly! grragh!

i dislike pushy people who are always telling you what to do and acting as if they know best
just because i smile sweetly doesn't mean that I'm a push over
why did you put on a totally different accent when talking to me and when talking to your friend on the phone
and why do you handle sales staff as if they are beneath you
they are people too you know

i hate you because you selfishly have complete disregard for another's plans. You force them into a tight corner and refuse to budge and until they compromise themselves to suit you.

Food for thought:

Information is useful only if it is-

• Relevant - reduces uncertainty, improves decision maker's ability to make predictions or confirms or corrects their prior expectations
• Reliable - free from error or bias and accurately represents the evets or activities of the organization
• Complete- does not ompit important aspects of the unerlying events or activities it measures
• Timely - Provided in time for decision makers to make decisions
• Understandable - presented in a useful and intelligible format
• Vertifiable - tow knowledgeable people acting independently would each produce the same information
• Accessible - avaliable to users when they need it and in a format they can use

Sometimes i wonder if im learning the correct things about life. I watch something and i learn it not because it is useful but rather because it is interesting and different thus it is captivating and more absorbing then others. Thus my usefulness to others declines.

Numb is the new deep, down with the old me, but talk is still the same cheap; its been.
Stopped trying to figure out why or what its all about its all about
people only bring you down
u know i used to be the back porch poet with the book of rhymes
wondering all the time
always trying to find the perfect line
for heavier things

My Personality

Neuroticism	77
Extraversion	49
Openness To Experience	73
Agreeableness	65
Conscientiousness	21

You are generally calm, although some situations can make you feel anxious or tense, however you feel strong cravings and urges that you have difficulty resisting. You tend to prefer short-term pleasures and rewards over long-term consequences. People generally perceive you as distant and reserved, and you do not usually reach out to others. Generally you are not considered to be an emotional person, however you are aware of and in touch with your emotions. You dislike confrontations and are perfectly willing to compromise or to deny your own needs in order to get along with others, however you do not particularly like helping other people. Requests for help feel like an imposition on your time. You have a reasonable amount of will-power and are able to follow through on tasks that you feel you need to complete. You can be distracted however and have been known to procrastinate.

Take the Personality Tests now or view the full personality report. Pet Gifts

Kimberlyn Lim Chien Ling - Full time senior - off on weekends, OT when on msn

Someone pls remind me to go back to work n collect my pay!

Baked lasagania!

made custard pudding!

Watched finish FMA, Batman & The mummy returns!

dear sent me all the way home from his home! *hugs*

thank you~ ^^

back to school.. aiz..

Things that i resent most in the world. False hope. Reorganizing plans. Fake friends. Doing everything by yourself when you are a team. Passing work to reluctant people who should have been helping but are not. Being too busy to breathe.

Whats one lousy birthday for a life time of happiness?

Do you know why i always insist that you should tell your mum when im coming over? this is because i believe that when a living area belongs to more then 1 person, you should inform each other and seek each other's permission whenever you bring anyone over, even if its a very frequent and familiar face. This action in itself is a way of showing respect and the lack of it is disrespect for other people who reside in this place.

Sometimes i feel as if the weight of the world rests heavily on my shoulders.

I am grumpy for a reason. To tell you this reason would be to backstab another rather so i keep it to myself. If i dont tell you what they done you wont know and your impression of them wont be tarnished.

What well wishes can you give to someone who is moving on?

Random memories from clearing out a handphone

bear pop is so cyute!

~kyaaah

I FINALLY CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN!!!!

~HYUUUAAAGGHHHHHH!

ahh!

wana change blog skin!

but to which??

http://www.blogskins.com/info/191318/

or

http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=159158&action=Preview

or

http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=55603&action=Preview

or

http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=146508&action=Preview

or

http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=100697&action=Preview

or

onigiri
http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=175101&action=Preview

sushi love
http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=162116&action=Preview

kim took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Needs a change in her circumstances or in her rela..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

i have to agree w jy.omg so true!

The joy in life is not in hearing the words i love you

but being lucky enough to say them

ivh got e best bf in the whole wide world! :D

dear thanks for taking care of me those 2 days when i was sick and specially coming down to pei me and buy for me lunch and see the doctor with me and take care of me and eveything! :)

i know that i never say much or really thank you properly and at the end of the week dear was grumpy coz i like bully you coz you came to work to fetch me back even though it was hard for you to walk but dear! thank you! :) it really really means alot to me! :)

*super touched*

*hugs you*

12+ --> sms 1 (go without me)
1+ --> phone call 2 (im not going)
3+ --> phone call 3 (i tot i told you im not going already why still call me???)
4+ & 5+ --> phone call 4 & 5 was too busy to pick up (im not going already why still keep calling me!!!!! obviously if i cant go i have other better things to do other then pick up and listen to your phone calls all day!!!)

appearance at house (look look are you there? hey if im not going already what makes you think ill be at home! if im at home what makes you think that your appearance will make me go along! cant you just call me! cant you just think for me instead of your convenience and enjoyment for 1 second!)

12am --> im sorry i couldnt go! its too late whats done cannot be undone. such grave words

With friends like this who needs stalkers!

*ANGRY*

what i dont have the right to get angry izit?

*kick*

dont tag about this.

what have i been doing?

i m supposed to be studying.. but but but..

this is so cute!!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qUJzcU6vbPE&feature=related

everyone must go watch kae?

this is their main webpage
http://www.ultrakawaii.com/episodes

oh so cute! <3

the cockatoo is super super super cute too!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1j_fxs8mUcQ

and the talking cats!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1JynBEX_kg8&feature=related


this is the funniest of all!! must watch!! look at the big panda's expression!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FzRH3iTQPrk&feature=related

Why does the sun go on shining?
Why does the sea rush to shore?
Don't they know it's the end of the world,
'Cause you don't love me any more?

Why do the birds go on singing?
Why do the stars glow above?
Don't they know it's the end of the world.
It ended when I lost your love.

I wake up in the morning and I wonder,
Why everything's the same as it was.
I can't understand. No, I can't understand,
How life goes on the way it does.

Why does my heart go on beating?
Why do these eyes of mine cry?
Don't they know it's the end of the world.
It ended when you said goodbye.

Why does that song keep going through my head!



I got a job as a finance intern at Amus pte ltd! its at IMM building jurong east! happy! but sad.. i wont get to spend the week with dear.. *upset* *sad* *depressed*

dear im sorry! >.<

How come my brain just cannot link the fact that the big dot is the colour that is going to appear next, not the small dot?

why it so that one action can have only one result, but the cause of this result is not just due to this action but due to so many many many things that when you turn it over and over in your head you realise that the reason you gave was wrong and there is a more complete reason explaining it

Why is it so that so many reasons lead to this one action, which together with so many other reasons cause another singular action which so many reasons cause another action which...

why is it so hard to explain that there is a perfectly good reason behind one's tears without invoking more pain and sounding childish
Why were my tears the only thing i could ever use to make the thing that was hurting me go away
Yet these tears and your words dont take the pain away
and that when the tears have dried the ache still remains

why is it so that i had so many things i wanted to say but with time they fade and i turn to become muse instead

Some people would have said.
Its coz
The damage is done its too late.

I just discovered that my lava lamp is a guy. it sprouted a bittergourd in the lava. =X

Mr lava lamp is damn hot! :p

im 20!

everyone, thank you for the wonderful presents!

I love vincent, e lava lamp and e oven!

ahhh!

~so happy

and alth sometimes e food wasnt good (i keep saying this but i dont mind that it was bad) i was really happy coz of e company! and that it was a new place new experience! thank you for taking the time to reasearch the place! *touched*


alth i gotta make sth clear now..
alth i everyday wear red to school,
i dont like red!

its this colour im forever stuck with but i kind of disklike
-biz school colour
-kevii color
-colour that i have to buy every cny

aiz

Really no one understands? O.o its quite simple really

"Kantian approach" or "duty ethics"by Immanuel Kant
Act in such a way that you always treat humanity, whether in your own person or in the person of any other, never simply as a means, but always at the same time as an end.

--> the means are more imporant then the end

VS

"utilitarian approach" or "consequential ethics" Jeremy Bentham
Something is good if it is useful, an that an action is moral if it maximized pleasure among humans.
do the greatest good for the most people
the ends justify the means

--> the ends are more important then the means

hmmm..
i can think of alot of immoral things that humans do that maximizes pleasure among alot of humans..

--> refers to how an action is moral if it maximized pleasure amongst humans

so what does the ends and the means thing mean?

-Means more impt then the ends
Like what we leant in MNO1001.
What makes a good decision?
a decision in which you made in which you can have a clear conscience. Alth the outcome is indeterminate, and might not be good, you know that your decision was a good one as long as the method you used to get to the final outcome is good.

-Ends more important then the means
Its the basic bad guy theory
Its ok to kill off all the humans on earth and sacrifice your self in the process and do tons of harm as long as our ultimate good goal (to save the earth and prevent global warming) is accomplished

simple no?

Hmmm.. this is interesting:

"Kantian approach" or "duty ethics"by Immanuel Kant
Act in such a way that you always treat humanity, whether in your own person or in the person of any other, never simply as a means, but always at the same time as an end.

VS

"utilitarian approach" or "consequential ethics" Jeremy Bentham
Something is good if it is useful, an that an action is moral if it maximized pleasure among humans.
do the greatest good for the most people
the ends justify the means

hmmm..
i can think of alot of immoral things that humans do that maximizes pleasure among alot of humans..

Omg the nerve of that girl!!!

today i finally took up the iniciative to go clean the pantry at C2.

Then, this girl (dina says that she is only 17 this year coz she is from overseas) comes in and asks "are you cleaning"

then i was v shocked. huh? i said "yah" then explained to her how overdue it was.

She seemed slighly upset and asked if we threw everything away.

i said that as long as it wasnt in the freezer we havent touched it yet.

Then she took her thing back to her room.

After tt she wander in wander out carrying things from the fridge.. so i made small talk w her.. like whether her room got fridge n etc..

after that..

she came in for the last time not carrying anything.

and pointed at the dirty dishes on the sink which i was wondering who was so disgusting to have used n not bothered to clean.

"actually those are mine. can you cleaning them for me? (or sth like dont forget to clean them for me"

i stared at her wide eyed

"actually we only clean the fridge"

"oh ok" said she

then i continued washing cleaning as she walked away..


omg the audacity!!! what does she think i am!?!?! cleaner?!??! doesnt she know what the block comm is!??!! its a bunch of students! we are not your maid / slave.

rich pampered overseas girl.

i wont be surprised if she sends all her clothes to the laundrette. i never see her sari's hanging outside!

go hire a maid since you are so rich!

today i was so blur! accidentally bought my mouse instead of my pencil case to school! so paisei! coz both of them side by side same design n shape (alth 1 is much longer then e other) lol! thanks to yq who lent me pen e whole day! ^^

Stop trying to control me and how i think
im not you
im not your lapdog
im not a toy
im not the house elf
i have feelings too
go away

I seem to be unbelievably sway recently..

Saturday i lost my glasses.

Yesterday i lost my PE shorts

whats next? T.T

^^ today i went to achorpoint w yq n eunice!

then i bought a office skirt. its too long! very xingku to walk coz tapered at e end restricts movement..T_T

Then eunice bought a 39 dollar jacket! n got a free gift voucher!

So we went to standard charted bank to redeem e free gift..

and..

guess what she won?

She won a car!! ^^

Then e guy who asked me n yq is we wanted a free gift too..

then i stare at it..

*stare stare stare stare*

very cute lei..

OK! ^^

then we all ended up w free cars!

woohoo!

~btw, e free car is a stress ball in e shape of a car.. but nvm.. happy!! ^^

Heck what is that stupid primary school doing?

They are playing their music and announcements even louder then the construction work going on. I can hear every single word that they say and its so loud its even louder then turning on the digital equipment in my house. Are they trying to compete? I think im going deaf.

Where is that lousy number that one calls to complain about things?

Its so unfair that they take advantage of the fact that at this hour and on this day only the lesser educated (factory workers who work night shift) and truant students will be at home. What about the university undergrads who have examinations next week! Just because we are minority doesn't mean that we should be overlooked.

I was woken up by the stupid we will rock you music rather then the construction work!

I can hear every obtuse word they are saying. its triply as loud as then my mum turning on the tv at a volume 50/100 (25 is e normal just nice volume) in the living room.

And the no 1 thing i hate most of all is getting woken up by music that cant be turned off. reminds me too much of my childhood when i would wake up just to tell my mum to turn down the tv/radio coz she purposely turned on super loud to disturb me.

This post just goes to show that a Kimberlyn with disturbed sleep is a grumpy Kimberlyn.


Irrirated

Today i had IHG finale!

I got a medal!

Woohoo!

and i didnt have to do anything!lol

feeling kinda bad about that

Words.. nothing but pointless worthless meaningless words..

I was very happy back then..
I liked to shine..
Now i just wana live life simply and get on by without too much attention..
What attention do i deserve when i am a simple girl
jane of all trades
master of none
under appreciated
understated
overrated
Do i miss the attention?
Why do i cry?
Why dont you understand me
understand my pain
Perhaps its because you come from a sheltered home
perhaps its because you have a perfect life
perhaps its because you tire of my sadness
As i grow older i grow sadder
I find much in this world to be sad about
Mindless plundering back stabbing aimless wandering
pointless destruction
Then when you reach the very top
Was it all worth it?
The quality of life at the very top
is not as good as it seems
Disappointment depresses
Maybe the grass is greener on the other side
there is something wrong with me
why am i so different
why do i feel incompetent
why is it that when i should feel useful, i feel taken advantage of instead
why is it that i find lesser and lesser things to smile for and be happy about
the simple pleasures in life
the sinple joys i adored
to lie under clear blue sky
to bask in the sun
to float in aquamarine waters
to lie in my room alone at night
to draw and read poetry
to live lives loved and lost
of tales of yonder
to listen to the crickets chirping and gaze at stars
feel the breeze brushing my face
the moonlight bathing my skin
marvel at the wonders of the universe
and comprehend how tiny and insignificant we are
to run for ever and never stop
never look back
why did you steal them away from me
superficial
materialistic
smart
educated
practical
technical
conceited
arrogant
pompous
efficient
skin deep
shallow
inconsiderate
self centered
self serving
egoistic
conceited
homogeneous
the portrait of an nus student
i never want to hurt again

Yesterday was V day!

Happy valentimes day everyone!

spent e whole morning baking cookies hardly anyone touched.. feel kinda wasted.. haiz..

Singles night was fun though! ^^ it was fun to just sing along and just be carefree for a while..

Cant help but envy those couples tt can go out w their bf on valentines day! never had tt chance to go out with my bf on v day before.. wonder what its like.. hmmm..

when tears roll down your cheeks its nice to have a shield of water to cushion your pain

You'll feel better..

Its like drowning your sorrows only without liquor.

Best part of all nobod y knows.

Then you wont bother anyone or disrupt their happiness

Then we can all continue living on in our separate bubbles of happiness divorced from reality, divorced from maturity of thought, divorced from all things harmful or beneficial that age might bring


Maybe its the nostalgia

Maybe its the expectancy due to overhype

Maybe its envy

Maybe its coz i got too accustomed and didnt bother to step out of my comfort zone

Maybe its cumulative pain.
from not recieving flowers from the play when the rest of the cast was walking around carrying huge boquets of flowers but i was e only one who didnt recieve anything i felt sad but i didnt really let it bother me coz i was already really happy that everyone came!

Maybe its coz i wasnt present

Or maybe its because im just not important enough to anyone...

HALL PLAY IS FINALLY OVER!

AND KEVII GIRLS SQUASH IS IN E FINALS!

WOOHOO!

super happy coz it will all be over by tuesday!

suddenly feel kinda lost..
couldnt wait for it to be over while it lasted
now i kinda miss everyone..
it was super fun! :)

Thank you everyone 4 coming to watch hallplay till we have faces!
*alth practically no one recognised me under e mask n all e make up*

the seating music keeps playing in my head! duno what song it is so kinda frustrating. its some sad song with this woman crooning.. couldnt even hear e lyrics..

Dear, i loved e reward! ^^ perfect end to a perfect day.. :) #'-'#

we celebrated 1 year 1 day anniversary yesterday!

at first i was still kinda sad about friday..
and nothing special happened..
but i was still very happy to have spent the day with him!
its not the activity that counts, its e ppl!
and i had fun so ya.. :)

dear happy anniversary! :D

perhaps next year we will have more time to think of a proper way to celebrate anniversaries! sorry for my inexperience i had no clue on how to celebrate it!

I was looking for a hug emoticon n i stumbled upon these!

Hugging is healthy: it helps the body's immunity system, it keeps you healthier, it cures depression, it reduces stress, it induces sleep, it's invigorating, it's rejuvenating, it has no unpleasant side effects, and hugging is nothing less than a miracle drug. Hugging is good medicine. It transfers energy, and gives the person hugged an emotional boost. You need four hugs a day for survival, eight for maintenance, and twelve for growth. A hug makes you feel good. The skin is the largest organ we have and it needs a great deal of care. A hug can cover a lot of skin and gives the message that you care. It is also a form of communication. It can say things you don't have words for. The nicest thing about a hug is that you usually can't give one without getting one.

Author Unknown

Kissing is like drinking salted water
You drink, and your thirst increases
Chinese Proverb

Kissing is a means of getting two
people so close together that they
can't see anything wrong with each other.
Rene Yasenek

A man snatches the first kiss,
pleads for the second, demands the third,
takes the fourth, accepts the fifth -
and endures all the rest.
Helen Rowland

Husbands who kiss their wives
before leaving home in the morning
have been documented to live five
years longer than those who do not.

we celebrated 1 year 1 day anniversary yesterday!

at first i was still kinda sad about friday..
and nothing special happened..
but i was still very happy to have spent the day with him!
its not the activity that counts, its e ppl!
and i had fun so ya.. :)

dear happy anniversary! :D

perhaps next year we will have more time to think of a proper way to celebrate anniversaries! sorry for my inexperience i had no clue on how to celebrate it!

Hugging is good medicine. It transfers energy, and gives the person hugged an emotional boost. You need four hugs a day for survival, eight for maintenance, and twelve for growth. A hug makes you feel good. The skin is the largest organ we have and it needs a great deal of care. A hug can cover a lot of skin and gives the message that you care. It is also a form of communication. It can say things you don't have words for. The nicest thing about a hug is that you usually can't give one without getting one.

Author Unknown

we celebrated 1 year 1 day anniversary yesterday!

at first i was still kinda sad about friday..
and nothing special happened..
but i was still very happy to have spent the day with him!
its not the activity that counts, its e ppl!
and i had fun so ya.. :)

dear happy anniversary! :D

perhaps next year we will have more time to think of a proper way to celebrate anniversaries! sorry for my inexperience i had no clue on how to celebrate it!

we celebrated 1 year 1 day anniversary yesterday!

at first i was still kinda sad about friday..

and nothing special happened..

but i was still very happy to have spent the day with him!

its not the activity that counts, its e ppl!

and i had fun so ya.. :)

dear happy anniversary! :D

perhaps next year we will have more time to think of a proper way to celebrate anniversaries! sorry for my inexperience i had no clue on how to celebrate it!

yesterday was

our 1 year anniversary.
today we will be going out to celebrate it.
completely clueless. have never celebrated anything like this before
and we dont have any plans at all
like so last min like tt
like its not impt
hopefully its memorable
do such things matter really? surely its not really impt? then why do i feel sad..

i welcomed SEP students to NUS
sounded like so much fun!
orientation activities had a much lower, completely unenthusiastic turnout then expected

but still i made a new friend! :)

Hallplay which was supposed to have professional makeup artists which didnt turn up. was the same as usual.

Pretty uneventful day for one so anticipated

dissapointed

Christmas is over and suddenly it's 2008!

No new year resolution other then to get better grades.

Im just happy that kelvin's sis called me jie jie! ^^

Nobody called me jie jie before! ^^

Im a big sis! yeah! :D

Happy 2008!!